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The story of a misplaced sock...and of not binging.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Sunday was interesting.

So, I was doing the laundry, and folding, and realized I had lost one of my workout socks. Now, this is no ordinary sock. It is one of a pair, clearly identified "L" and "R" (how cool is that?) made with technical wizadry and quite pricey!

I was upset. Now, we know that socks have a tendency to disappear (probably get tired of being stepped on lol). Since I do my laundry at home, husband offered this helpful advice "It's in the house." Thanks. A lot.

The air in the house is pretty dry by this time of the winter so I sent the static cling route. I examined every piece of clothing I had folded, inside and out. No sock. I unfolded a fitted sheet three times. No sock. I looked in the hamper, the washer, and the dryer. No sock.

I put a bunch of steps on my fitbit running up and down the stairs looking for the darn thing, but still...

So, I had to give up the chase, prepare some dinner, etc. I have to say that Sunday recently has been DANGER TIME for me, when I want to binge the most. I got through dinner, and managed the need to binge, and went to sleep. After checking a few more places, unsuccessfully, for the darned sock (that is a term of annoyance, not its condition lol again).

Would you believe, I woke up a few hours later with my stomach growling and the urge to binge as strong as ever. Deciding I was not in my right mind, and that was easy, I just went back to sleep.

Monday morning--urge to binge gone, feeling virtuous, and still no sock. Emptied the dishwasher, made my lunch and snacks, worked out, with another pair of my high tech babies on my feet, a more cooperative pair I might add. Getting ready to shower, I took one more look at husband's t-shirt, looked inside, and out fell the !!!******@@@@@%%%% sock (feel free to use your imagination here).

Leftie has since been reunited with righty and is in my drawer ready to be used in its proper rotation.

What am I trying to say here, I am not sure. Never give up is one thing, I guess. Binging will not help you find your sock (or deal with other issues or anything else for that matter) and should be eschewed as a solution for anything. Perseverence pays off. And maybe Einstein was a little bit wrong when he said the definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Albert, the static cling wore away a bit overnight and made the sock respond to gravity. Gravity! Static cling electricity charges! Physics! I LOVE this!


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DDOORN 2/17/2012 9:34AM

    Good deal, standing up to the binge urge! Your DH and I share those wonderfully helpful comments when it comes to looking for something in the!


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BILLTMAN 2/15/2012 8:09AM

    I am a general contractor who quite often gets a job remodeling areas that include the laundry room in peoples homes. You wouldn't believe the number of single socks I find under and behind the drier as well as lodged in the vent. Oh, and money too, coins, dollar bills etc. So it is true, the drier does eat socks.

Happy for you though, you found your sock.

Have a great day, you and your socks.

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KANOE10 2/15/2012 7:10AM

    Cute blog. Good for you staying binge free while hunting for the elusive sock.


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AANGEL3 2/14/2012 6:38PM

    My dryer eats socks.

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 2/14/2012 4:29PM

    I hate losing sox. Especially my FAVORITE WORKOUT SOCKS.

I recently started having an existential crisis about mine, too. I've had them for a couple years (they're 100% polyester and bulletproof) and they're finally starting to give at the toes.

So I went online to get more and THEY HAVE STOPPED MAKING THEM.
(probably because they lasted so well no one was replacing them. LOL)

So I had to order a few more pairs, and discovered that Pearl Izumi makes all kinds of pretty, girly technical socks. So now I have lots of pairs of fun socks that match my workout gear. LOL

But there's still one missing from the old set, and yes, it's bugging me a little. LOLOL


And yeah, OMG I totally get that about the binges, so kudos for going back to sleep and avoiding it.

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SHRINKINGLULU 2/14/2012 2:12PM

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ROCKMAN6797 2/14/2012 1:14PM

    Too funny Bonita your comment about your husband's response! emoticon
So glad that your perseverance paid off and your pair is now whole! Have a great day today!


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THE FACE-OFF, er, that is, between me and me.....and me.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Sounds a bit crazy, no?

Okay, here is the story.

March 19, 2012 will be my 18 month maintenance anniversary. That is, I hope it will be considering.....

Since my one year anniversary on September 19, 2011, I have been on a roller coaster, not one of my designing and certainly not to my liking. Binging, while not regular, has served to get my weight up a couple of pounds above goal. Now, my clothes still fit, even those tiny size 4 skirts, and I have put on muscle, but what I am talking about here is behavior, not the scale.

I thought that part of my coping on this maintenance journey would be to get myself a nice present (with thanks that I can afford one). An iPad to continue my tech journey, or maybe a nice hybrid nylon string guitar, not too expensive, but one to use for song accompaniment. With pegs for a strap. Classical nylons don't come with those, you know, they are played sitting down.

I got this far and then said to myself, who am I kidding? I am using lots of good techniques to manage Binging Bonita (ooh, I like that, my evil identical twin :-)) but can I say that I am out of the woods? Nope. Will I binge again, you betcha.

So here is what I am doing.

I have put myself back on a weight loss ticker with the goal of losing 2.2 pounds by March 19 2012 to get me to 111. Less than 111 would be better, but hey, I'll live with the palindrome (just love those palindromes!). No 111, no iPad or guitar.

Even with Binging Bonita coming to visit every once in a while, I think I can do this.

So, follow my ticker, I weigh in on Sundays, and see if Gadget Girl (one of my nicknames) gets her iPad or Guitarwoman buys a sweet new axe.

NOTE: the techniques I have used in this blog, especially my evil twin Binging Bonita, are ones used in Michael White's Narrative Therapy and others. You take the problem, and objectify it by taking it outside yourself and giving it, so to speak, an existence of its own. It becomes easier to understand it, and deal with it.

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MEDDYPEDDY 2/10/2012 7:43AM

    Who is the twin that is not evil Bingeing Bonita? Maintenance Mary? Skinny Sophie?
I loved the idea from "Michael White's Narrative Therapy" - in swedish the evil twin would be "Hetsätar Hedvig" with her wonderful twin "Sunda Sara"(sunda means sound or healthy, not skinny...) I want to play with that for a while...thanks!

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THE_HERMIT 1/24/2012 6:30PM

    Bonita you write with wit, the twins need to work together to achieve the goal and is one i am sure you will reach. I agree with puddlecrazy and am totally biased on the subject, get the guitar. emoticon

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DDOORN 1/24/2012 8:32AM

    Kudos to jumping on these changes before they gain traction & become entrenched!

Sounds like a terrific battle plan! :-)

White is one clever fellow!


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PUDLECRAZY 1/23/2012 7:07PM

    Get the axe! I have heard that the next generation of iPad is coming out this spring, so it is probably worth waiting for the new one to come out before purchasing one. I just bought one for my husband's birthday, and am hoping the next generation iPad will be out by my birthday in June.

What guitars have you been looking at?

Here's to your palindromic goal!!!!

I'l be watching your ticker.

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ROCKMAN6797 1/23/2012 1:06PM

    Love the technique!
Looking forward to watching you reach your goal Bonita!


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Binging and Technology?

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Here's a thought I had today that I wanted to share and which I will certainly try on myself next time.....

I had a moderate binge yesterday. Reasons I am still not so sure, I am coming off a health scare that seems to be resolving itself positively, not enough sleep, etc., no excuses. I have owned it, tracked it, and moved on.

Here's the technology part. I got myself an iPhone on my first year 's anniversary of maintenance. Of course I have the SP app loaded on it, to use in tracking when I am not near a computer.

I do track my binges, honesty pays I find. But I usually do it the next day (because I tend to binge at night) and sometimes have forgotten something I ate....sigh....

So, here is what I am going to do the next time I binge, and yes, there will be a next time.....

I am going to:
1. get my iPhone
2. turn if on (if it is turned off)
3. open to the SP app
4. track the binge as I consume the food

This way, I will be tracking accurately. And, as a big maybe, I will binge less as I see the calories and fat add up.

I'll let you know what happens!


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DDOORN 1/20/2012 11:17AM

    Now THERE'S a tough strategy...! Looking forward to hearing of your SUCCESS with it!


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PUDLECRAZY 1/20/2012 7:10AM

    I hope your plan works, Bonita. It sounds like a good one; immediate feedback during the snack attack.


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KANOE10 1/19/2012 5:00PM

    That sounds like a very good idea. For me bingeing becomes mindless..just grabbing anything., If yuo make yourself track it as you do it, it might help you pay attention to what you are eating. Good luck with that.

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QUIKSYLVER 1/19/2012 3:23PM

    That's sounds like a great plan! I wish I had an iPhone. emoticon

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ROCKMAN6797 1/19/2012 1:14PM

    Good plan Bonita. I hope it helps you.


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Women ARE from Venus....

Thursday, January 12, 2012

I am having some medical problems right now, but this blog isn't directly about them.

It is about priorities and a haircut.

It appears that I may be needing to have some surgery.

So, I started to think about what I need to do.

Check out my will and my living will, hey, you never know.
Pay off my credit card bill.
Get a haircut.....wait a minute, GET A HAIRCUT?

Now, I did need one, and I was planning to go in a couple of weeks, but then it got bumped nearly to the top of the list. I needed that haircut IMMEDIATELY.

So I went for a haircut yeaterday, and told my hairdresser about my problems, and asked her if I was insane by wanting to make sure I had a haircut.

She said Certainly not." Not so much with haircuts, but with hair coloring when roots are showing. I don't color, but boy is it important...

So she has had women in her chair in the beginning stages of labor getting their roots done.

And she has had women who have lost a loved one make sure to get their roots done before the funeral....

So it seems, if women are about to experience hard times, we want to look our best!



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HAPPYSOUL91 1/13/2012 9:47AM

    How true, how is important to feel good about yourself and hair is important

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THE_HERMIT 1/13/2012 2:43AM

    some men from mars are thinning on top and don't need regular haricuts/ having said that i was going to watch legally blonde the movie for a bit of light humor tonight

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DDOORN 1/12/2012 9:33PM

    Sorry to hear about your surgery, but heck YES Women are from Venus...! Would we EVER have it any other way?!?! :-)

Hair: I let mine go around the winter time. I hate wearing hats so I grow one! Big, bushy hair that I whack into submission every morning with the help of Infusium leave-in treatment. By the end of the day you'd barely know I even used it!


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ROCKMAN6797 1/12/2012 6:54PM

    This was very funny!
I hope this surgery does not severely impact your health. Let us know if we can be of any help.


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Five Years from Now.....

Monday, January 09, 2012

Here is an exercise I did yesterday that came from my "getting better bit(e) by bit(e)" book. It was an eye opener, not too hard if you give it some thought (and like to write) and I thought I would share it.

So, you vision five years into the future. You write two (pretend) letters to a friend you are going to see soon after a long absence. You can make up the friend too. You say you wanted to clue your friend in on what to expect when she/he sees you.

The first letter is what your life will be like if you continue binging (or throwing up, or not being fit, or staying a too large a weight, you pick it).

The second letter is what your life will be like if you stop binging (or stop throwing up, or become fit, or get to a better weight, you pick it).

You then read each letter carefully, and ask yourself the simple question: what DO you want to be in five years?

I have to say, I embraced and enjoyed this! My first letter, continuing binging, had me quite the mess, gained all the weight back, multiple health problems, barely able to move so not exercising, etc.

My second letter had me as a rocking 68 year old, white haired and moving to the beat, doing volunteer work and...well, all those goals I have on my SparkPage.

It was pretty easy to answer the question, where do I want to be in five years?

I do want to say this is not for everybody and I think it would have scared me if I tried it when I was first losing weight. I think I will now finally have the courage to tackle a vision collage. I will buy "oak tag" (or "bristol board" as they call it in Canada) and go to my old magazines with scissors and glue stick in hand.


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OOLALA53 4/3/2012 9:54AM

    I think I did this mentally when I had my turnaround a little over two years ago. I realized I had been fighting this for nearly 40 years and things had only gotten worse. I saw things had to change, mainly I had to get better at saying NO to eating when it was hard to do, not just keep waiting for the few weeks or months at a time it might get easy. I expect to have my struggles for another three years and even a few beyond that, but I'm walking the road in the right direction, not too far off from the version of the woman I would have written that letter to. emoticon

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DDOORN 1/10/2012 5:40PM

    That's a cool exercise I often use (variations of...) with my clients. If you can see it you can make it happen...YES!


..thx for the SparkGoodie! :-)

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DDOORN 1/10/2012 5:25PM

    excuse the double post hiccup!

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PUDLECRAZY 1/9/2012 7:06PM

    Yes, you WILL be the rockin' 68 year old!

That was an intense exercise; now have fun with your vision collage.

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ROSEWAND 1/9/2012 5:53PM

    This is a great idea. We can be assured that the
time will pass whether we make the changes we
want or not. This can keep us focused on the
future we want to create. Thanks for this blog.

Enjoy creating your vision board.


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ROCKMAN6797 1/9/2012 1:26PM

    What a wonderful exercise! That first letter must have been so difficult to write given the fact that you have been there. The memories that were drudged up were probably very somber. The second letter probably was extremely uplifting. Singing your praise and being proud of what you have accomplished is good for the soul.
Have fun with your collage Bonita!


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