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At least I don't give up

Thursday, April 24, 2014

So much has happened. I had surgery to remove excess skin from my abdomen. Long story short -- got infection so scar is horrible looking. Surgeon pretty much butchered me. Developed acute tendinitis from sleeping in a chair for three months. Diagnosed with arthritis in my knees and fibromyalgia. Sounds like I should just give up, but I won't. I see I joined SparkPeople in 2008 with every good intention of losing weight in a year or two. Here I am in 2014 and still fighting. But, I am here and I will NOT quit. Yup, I have a lot on my plate, but I am strong and I KNOW I can do this. I have been incorporating holistic healing strategies in my life and I try to maintain a feeling of gratitude. I will make a concerted effort to log my food intake. I MUST remain accountable to myself. Yes, stuff happens, but in the long run we make our lives what we want them to be. I am strong, powerful, capable, intelligent and a winner. Thank God.

  
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GRYPH62 4/24/2014 5:36PM

    Thank you everyone for the love! xoxo

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AGENTMNA 4/24/2014 3:57PM

    YOU ARE strong, powerful, capable, intelligent and a winner. I admire your courage and your willingness to NOT QUIT! Keep pushing! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NEWBIRTH2014 4/24/2014 3:33PM

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FANNYMANSON 4/24/2014 3:23PM

    Never give up!! There's always something to overcome but you can do it!
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PICKIE98 4/24/2014 3:15PM

    You got THAT much skin removed?? HOw neat!! That is the one thing people wonder about after losing the weight: what do I do with the skin?

You poor thing, had a hard row to hoe to get it done though..
I am glad you are okay and stayed with Sparks!! remember, it is a lifelong thing to eat right and work out.. Go for the journey, NOT the destination..

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Never giving up

Monday, August 19, 2013

Over the last few months, I have been comfort eating and I have gained weight. But, here I am again. At least I get points for never giving up. I have made a solemn promise to myself to stick with this, this time -- even when the going gets tough. I have made a promise to myself to try to deal with life's ups and downs by doing something kind for myself, something that doesn't include numbing myself with food. We all have to journey through this life on our own terms. If we continue to strive to keep becoming better and to learn to be kind to ourselves, then we're winning. The map I have written for myself in this life is not the same as anyone else's. I continue to reshape that map each day. But, I now have a map and without one, we can't ascertain where we're going. I have taken the last few days to write down goals, to make some promises to myself and to begin to imagine what my future might look like. Imagination is a wonderful thing and I intend to use it to create the body, mind and spirit I deserve to have. I hope everyone is having a lovely summer.

  
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ASOBFALLS 8/21/2013 12:27PM

    Promises are OK.....but don't expect perfection because "We Are Human"

Forgiveness (to myself) is also important emoticon

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AWESOMECHELZ 8/19/2013 7:42PM

    emoticon back!! It takes a lot of courage to reassess life and go again. God bless you and remember- you are not alone in this. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
Love, Chelsea emoticon emoticon

P.S. If you want to leave a thought with anyone who writes something in your blog, go to their Spark page so they can see it. I noticed you wrote a nice thought in your previous blog for your readers. emoticon

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Ugh

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

I stopped going to the gym for almost three months. I had lost so much weight that I went to see a surgeon about having a panniculectomy (skin removed and reshaped around lower abdomen). I was sent for all kinds of tests, including an EKG and the results of that came back, much to my astonishment, abnormal. Now, I was dumbfounded, The surgeon insisted that I see a cardiologist before he would operate to make sure my heart was up to the almost six-hour surgery. To make a long story short, I finally got an appointment with a cardiologist. I had an ultrasound of my heart and had to wear a Holter monitor for 48 hours to track my old ticker and how it was working. Apparently, it's not unusual for menopausal women to experience occasional palpitations and that's what was going on. So, the cardiologist cleared me for surgery. All this, however, took months and during those weeks, I was so afraid to go to the gym and not going to the gym made me pretty darned depressed and when I get depressed, I have a tendency to compulsively overeat. I am not as bad as I used to be, but nonetheless, I gained back more than 20 pounds in almost three months. I stepped on the scale this morning and nearly HAD A HEART ATTACK, which pretty much would have taken care of what I thought was my abyssmal situation :( But, I have come so far and I am not going to let this setback throw me totally off track. I have decided not to beat myself over this and suck it up, get back to the gym on a consistent basis, start eating well again and get back to it. My surgery will take place this summer, so I have the opportunity of losing as much as I can between now and August (when I imagine my surgery will be). I will get down to my goal weight this year. Not only that. I intend on staying there FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!

  
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ASOBFALLS 2/13/2013 8:02PM

    Forgiveness is emoticon (as opposed to 'beat myself up')

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GRYPH62 2/13/2013 6:52PM

    Thank you, you guys! You're awesome! emoticon

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SYZYGY922 2/13/2013 6:10PM

    Good luck with your surgery! I need something similar emoticon

We all have slip-ups. We've just got to keep on pushing! I've been slipping up lately and regained a bit but I'm determined not to let it get me down!

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JO28352 2/13/2013 5:15PM

    Sounds like you're right back on track. Hang in there, you can do this!!! emoticon

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Never-ending battle

Sunday, February 10, 2013

I have not been very diligent in keeping myself motivated and there's really no excuse when I have access to the wonderful tools here. Losing weight, for me, is not only a physical process. In fact, that's the least of it, really. Losing weight takes a lot of introspection. A lot of self-analysis, a lot of working through emotional pain and a lot of blatant self-honesty. In honouring that self-honesty, I must say I only allow myself to go so far when something stops me. Losing too much weight doesn't feel safe to me just yet. I know it will, especially if I continue to feel better about myself, learn to value myself JUST THE WAY I AM and continue to be kinder to myself each day. This is a process, isn't it? It is a journey and sometimes, my road map has become illegible and I lose my way. But, I always manage to find my way back. I think we continue to succeed when we continue making the effort. I know I will be standing in front of a mirror one day at my goal weight (a size that I have decided is right for me and no one else) and I will be able to say, "what an amazing trip. You finally got to where you wanted to go." Until then, I will stand in front of the mirror each day and say, "you've done another day and you continue on your way and you're incredible." Yup. That's what I'll say.

  
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AWESOMECHELZ 2/15/2013 7:56AM

    Your blog is very powerful. So many of us do the same thing. I do too. I thank you for your candid sharing and I wish you the best of luck as we continue on this healing trip. Thanks for sharing. emoticon emoticon Love, Chelsea

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JINLYNN 2/12/2013 3:19PM

    You have a great attitude! This journey is a process of one step at a time and we move forward when we are ready to. It is a matter of persevering and making the effort, even if it is only a few inches at a time.
I have been on SP for 2 1/2 years, and for the first two years it was a struggle of loss and gain, loss and gain, until everything seemed to click and I was ready to move through the fears that held me back. In the last 6 months I have lost about 32 pounds. So you are wise to not compare yourself to others; just continue on one step at a time as you are able and you will accomplish your goals.
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ASOBFALLS 2/11/2013 12:07AM

    emoticon "you've done another day and you continue on your way and you're incredible." Yup. That's what I'll say.
You Go!!

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Get busy

Saturday, October 29, 2011

What do you do to combat impatience? I am sure I fit into the 99.9 per cent of people who want to have lost all their weight by tomorrow. What do you do with that energy of wanting? I am learning to channel it into the things I know will get me to my ultimate place of comfort in my own skin. impatience paired with boredom is an inevitable recipe for disaster, so I am trying to make sure I always have something to do, whether it be exercise, reading a great book, making my shopping list. I try not to let my mind wander on negatives. I have been visualizing a positive outcome. I see myself in a sexy, red dress and I feel amazing in it!! I revel in the flatter and the congratulations coming from everyone. I feel so proud of myself and that I light up an entire room. Ya. That's what I am going to do!!!

  
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GRYPH62 11/7/2011 11:20AM

    Thanks! Impatience sucks and is the worst thing to throw me off my game. I no longer have the attitude of, "what's the use?" I am soooo worth this and it has taken me a long time to get to this place!

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LOSINGLINNDY 10/31/2011 12:35AM

    Boy do I understand impatience. I admire your plans for channeling your energy and impatience into other things. emoticon

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