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Health Verdict

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

They say its most likely shingles. If they're right, its a darn good thing that its cropped up on the underarm where I'm still numb from removing my lymph nodes in '08. I feel no pain or itching. I'm to put steroidal cream on it and if its not gone in a week, go back in. Whew. Sounds like I dodged a bullet. :)

Thanks to all for your support and kindness! :)

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KALIGIRL 6/28/2013 8:39AM

    Bummer - hope it's over soon!

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PHEBESS 6/28/2013 7:06AM

    YAY for it being something benign! And YAY that you're still numb there, because shingles are horribly painful most of the time. (I've had shingles - just wearing clothing was torturous.)

Hope they go away quickly!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 6/26/2013 7:34PM

    Glad to hear you got such good news and that it's in an area that doesn't affect you much. My mom has shingles on her face/neck area, not fun at all.

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ELLES26 6/25/2013 2:31AM

  feel better!

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EARTHHAVEN 6/25/2013 2:30AM

    Hope it heals quickly!

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BJPENNY70 6/25/2013 2:21AM

    Shingles are the pits. I hope you get better.

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Cancer Fears

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Friday afternoon I noticed a scary-looking oddity near my under underarm. Its about 1.25" - 1.5" long, and parts of it are hard, kind of like scar tissue.

I have an appointment with my oncologist's nurse practitioner on thursday to look at it, but its changing appearance every day, so I'm going to try to get in monday, even if its only to my regular doctor. I'm assuming they'll biopsy it.

I really, really, really don't want to deal with skin mets, but this sure looks like it to me. :( Its been three and a half years since I completed treatment of my stage 2 breast cancer. Its truly frightening to contemplate going down that road again. I'm trying not to panic before I have any specific information, but its not easy to set aside my concerns.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 6/26/2013 7:33PM

    Glad to hear you are taking it seriously and getting it looked at sooner rather than later.

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PHEBESS 6/24/2013 9:31PM

    It's good that you're checking this out - but given how it looks, and if it cropped up recently, I'd say it might be an allergic reaction to something. I hope it turns out to be something benign and easy to deal with!

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HDHAWK 6/24/2013 1:47PM

    Let us know how it goes. At least you're getting it checked right away. Wishing you the best!

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GRYFFINSONG 6/24/2013 10:24AM

    Thank you everyone! My oncologist's office is seeing me today at 3.

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TERRY0217 6/24/2013 6:37AM

    You're certainly in my prayers emoticon emoticon

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ANGYAS 6/24/2013 3:11AM

I`ll pray for your

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FISHER011 6/24/2013 2:22AM

    Bless you! You are smart to not panicky & to get in & see your Dr. emoticon
Positive thoughts & prayers.

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KPETSCHE 6/24/2013 2:00AM

It's a good thing to get in right away. Positive prayers coming your way!

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FREEDOM710 6/23/2013 10:28PM

    You are right to have it checked out immediately and also right to not panic. Please know that I will put you on my prayer list and pray for you. You are supported. emoticon

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I'm back.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Like so many others before me, I drifted off, gained weight again, and am now back. What triggered my return, when I've thought about returning so many times before? I just got a call from my doctor that my blood tests indicate I'm prediabetic (also called borderline diabetic). I must lose weight and change my eating habits in order to back off from full-blown diabetes, and to reduce my risk of other health impacts.

I've been unhappy with the state of my body and my health for quite some time, but hadn't quite got up the gumption to change it. Medical news can be a huge motivator.

I am motivated.

I need to cut WAY down on carbs, sugars and processed foods. Eat lots of veggies. Lose weight. Exercise more.

I look forward to getting back in the swing of things.

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KALIGIRL 5/24/2013 8:35AM

    emoticon back! I'm trying the anti-inflammatory diet and would love for you to join the team (shameless plug), but seriously, my DH has pain, borderline diabetes and hypertension and I'm hoping to get it under control with foods.
Regardless, glad to see you!

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MCJULIEO 5/23/2013 8:37PM

    Welcome back!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 5/23/2013 4:55PM

    Welcome back! Glad to see you here. If you are looking for a challenge team to help you might want to consider the BLC 22. Registration is underway and starts on June 5. Links are in my blog.

Hope you have a wonderful time reasserting your healthy self.

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KSJ040 5/23/2013 12:39PM

  I am back as well! Good for all of us for knowing what we must do for ourselves and getting back in the saddle! We will do this!

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39JOJO 5/23/2013 12:20PM

    I'm back with you, feeling a bit overwhelmed at tackling the sugar/carb thing, but we've done it before, we can do it again! Best of luck to you! emoticon

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STRINGS58 5/23/2013 12:07PM

    Welcome back! I've been a bit awol myself, but I miss my spark friends. Enjoy gaining power over the insulin response!!!

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Healing Wounds

Friday, June 10, 2011

I wrote this for my daily draw in sparktarot, and felt it strongly enough that I want to share it with all of you ...

Baroque Bohemian Cats - 3 swords

I normally don't resonate with this card at all. I tend to see it as immediate romantic heartbreak, and I haven't been in a relationship in years. But I've been reading "Tarot for the Healing Heart" and this card says a lot to me today.

A beautiful gray cat sits in her bedroom holding an angel doll/statue who is, in turn, holding a heart with three swords in it. Her look seems to say many things to me today as she looks out of her card at me. See my wounds? They're not so bad are they? Maybe I can ignore them and they'll go away. After all, they're not really so very big, and I've moved them out onto this statue instead of in me. I've distanced myself. Haven't I done a good job? I can insulate myself from the pain, right? It'll work, won't it?

And I'm inclined to lean forward and hug that sweet kitten and help her accept the wounds, my wounds, so that they might finally and completely heal. We don't need to walk around the world completely broken. We are sometimes hurt. We sometimes seem to break. We are the walking wounded. But we can learn our new selves, and if we walk a little funny, or have a little extra weight, or can't quite see as well as we used to ... well, that's ok. We're all wounded in some ways, and we can open up to them, share them, and allow the healing in. That healing might not take the form we want. A quadraplegic might not learn to walk. A blind man might never see again. A cancer survivor might never grow her breasts back. But we can heal in other ways and move forward as we are now.

For the first time in my life I love this card. :)

And so, dear friends, shall we move forward together?

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 6/17/2011 7:55PM

    Beautiful blog. Thanks for sharing.

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BRANDTSGIRL 6/11/2011 10:03AM

    Yes we shall & we are one day at a time.

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BLOSSOM2344 6/10/2011 9:34PM

    Boy, do I know all about that! I think I put mine away in a closet somewhere so I wouldn't have to be remindedof how vacant and dusty my heart has gotten. I thought that protecting it by building a wall around it would be the way to heal it, so letting it out in the open seems a little counter intuitive. Hmmm. Something to work on, Thanks! emoticon

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Finally Headed in the Right Direction

Thursday, June 09, 2011

Finally. The scale is moving left instead of right. OMG, it's been months since that has happened.

I just returned from a week in the mountains of Tennessee and North Carolina. I went there for a greyhound event where my mom and I displayed our greyhound arts and crafts. We had a wonderful time, but I was not very careful with my eating. I assumed I'd hold steady at best, and gain a couple at worst. But I was MOVING. Walking, loading the truck, setting up our display, and without a fenced yard for our greyhound to exercise, I had to walk her on leash whenever she needed to go out. It all added up and I'm two pounds lighter than when I left!!!

I have finally unhidden my weight ticker. I am not technically at my highest weight ever, but that's only because I had a bilateral mastectomy a couple years ago. I am in the largest size ever, and I was feeling very discouraged and humiliated.

Not anymore!!! I'm psyched, energized, and dedicated to starting over for real. I've uncovered my Gazelle Freestyle so I can get moving even on the hottest of days, and I'm shopping today for more vegetables. This has been coming for weeks now, ever since quitting a new medication that seemed to be a huge factor in my recent weight gain. I'm SO glad to be off it, and SO glad to be feeling optimistic about my health again.

It's so hard to have fallen into the common trap of losing and then gaining it back with interest. I feel like a statistic. It's SO common. And I suppose it's so human. And so indicative of how difficult this journey is.

My most heartfelt hugs to all of you who've been here. I feel such compassion for you. I'm trying to feel the same compassion for myself, rather than judgement. I'm getting better at that.

Hugs to all of you, and we CAN do it!!!

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MCJULIEO 6/9/2011 10:44AM

    Good for you!
Your enthusiasm is contagious!

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KALIGIRL 6/9/2011 9:29AM

    "I'm psyched, energized, and dedicated"
Doesn't get any better than that! emoticon

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BLOSSOM2344 6/9/2011 9:28AM

    Woot! Toasting you with a swig from my water bottle. Keep moving!

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