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Down 100 lbs and emotions

Monday, September 29, 2014

So.. ya me! I am down 100 lbs. Amazingly, I thought I would be there only one day because my weight has gone up and down the same 3 lbs for about three weeks despite changing exercise and calorie range. I have been here for 4 days now. I still have a way to go to my "happy weight" which may not be my BMI weight that is recommended. I think I will know when I am there. I hope I will know when I am there. I am hoping I will maintain it with all the healthy habits I am doing every day. I have been here before. Lose a ton of weight, keep it off for three years, then slowly, oh so slowly let it creep back on. Yup, I am a yo-yo, going up and down. At least, I was.

Then and now

Knowing this, and going through some of these emotions once before, you would think I would expect it, have a plan for it, cope with the emotions faster, yada yada. Nope. Did not happen. I can be a fearful negative person at times, sometimes a lot of times. I am a work in progress, like a lot of people. I am fearful now. That is my emotion today. That is what I am trying to work through.

Going through the closet, I have sizes from medium to 32 / 5X. What the heck happened ? I was at a medium, comfortable in a large, which was a normal size. I foolishly had the idea that life would magically correct itself it I just lost and maintained that loss of weight. Must have been those rose colored glasses. I read an article that if you could maintain that loss for 2 years you were in the home stretch and would find it easier to maintain it. Wrong. I kept it off three years and it came back because I quit tracking, I was cocky thinking I was in the home stretch, I quit weighing in. I never had a support group at Spark that I felt comfortable with. There were so many things but basically I quit doing what worked. I quit loving myself enough to care. I love myself now. I can see that my life is worth saving and that I am a good person worthy of living. I used to question that a lot.

Today has not been easy. I am giving away a lot of clothes and saving some clothes. That is what I did last time I lost weight. I am still fearful. I do not want to buy bigger clothes so I will keep them..." just in case". I know logically that this is a negative emotion and I will overcome it when I am ready. I am not ready, so I will save the 2X clothes that fit only slightly loose for now. Maybe once I reach goal and maintain it awhile I will be ready. I think I will know when I am ready, at least I hope so.

I do not buy many new clothes so some have memories attached to them and that may be part of it. Even though I have many sizes in my closet, most are 2X. I have also been a size 2X for most of my adult life. I see so many that have "made it" and I read their blogs. I tell myself I will make it there also. I know I will. I have my health to think about. No amputations in my future, no way. Having diabetes, that is always in the back of my mind.

I am really amazed at how many hangers I have. OMG ! Really... I could furnish 2 more closets, I have that many. Knowing this, maybe I will be comfortable shopping once I need clothes or reach a goal.

People that have seen me getting smaller are asking for "the secret" and why it is working for me. I can only say, I do not want diabetes complications and that is really a motivator for me. As far as "the secret", I do not have any. No tips except doing what the Spark articles suggest... track food, move the body, have support, have a personal reason that will stay up front in my mind to motivate me when "lazy" tries to speak up, healthy recipes, cleaner foods, plan meals, drink water, read success stories, etc.

So, even though I am fearful, I am feeling those emotions instead of eating them, or ignoring them by reading, watching TV, shopping, surfing the web, etc. I always craved the easier softer way and I still do at times but I know that is not healthy and I want health more than I want weight loss, a beautiful body, or even money. I still have a long term goal of reaching retirement and being active in retirement by Rving and seeing all that America offers. I talk of God's painting and that is just nature, sun sets, my environment as a whole. I really enjoy my day more when I can see something normal and really see it, really enjoy it, really feel it. I think that is why I enjoy camping so much.

I am second from the right. Great day meeting many Spark members from the Rv Enthusiasts group. As I say frequently... I am truly blessed.

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SUNSHINE5268 11/11/2014 11:52AM

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SUNSHINE5268 11/2/2014 9:06PM

    soooooooooooooooooooo PROUD of you! yeh!!!!!!

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MILPAM3 10/23/2014 7:38AM

  Wow, what an accomplishment--100 pounds! That is fabulous! YOU are a success story. Keep up the good work. I'm proud of you.
Go ahead, get rid of those huge clothes (unless you know someone who could cut them down for your present size). I am trying on all the clothes I have today and getting rid of anything that doesn't fit or I haven't worn in who knows when. emoticon

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NORASPAT 10/14/2014 11:10PM

    TC Great I missed a lot of things and this 100 pounds victory is well done commenting on HUGS Pat in Maine. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KAREN608 10/9/2014 9:45PM

    Tracking does seem to be the key to those of us that go over our calorie range.
Weighing in helps me too. But I have a LONG way to go.

Thanks for this blog, and the comment on all your hangers !
I have a bag of plastic hangers for 'someday'. Right now this place has one very small closet that my DH took over for his shirts. I have to put three to a hanger, it is that small. And it is short as well. Someone added it to the way down to the basement. God bless them, or we'd have NONE.

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HOLDINGMYOWN 10/6/2014 9:37AM

    I just love this Blog TC and I love you and your spirit!
emoticon on getting off your 100 lbs.

I can appreciate the fear you are feeling...that is how I feel about me with smoking. It has been 3 years now since I quit and then along comes someone who says to me...I quit 5 or 7 yrs ago then started again!
I cringe! Wondering if I will do the same?

But want to know something? With the smoking...I find when ppl say this to me there is also a big spark of determination that I WILL NOT start again...find myself thinking...YOu are strong know you know you have willpower....SO do not let what has happened to others sway your resolve!

Same goes for you TC...yes we all have yoyo'd but this time do not let us who have put back on weight we had kept off....SWAY your resolve ....
YOU my girl are beautiful and smart....( think to yourself~~I am better than that....Even think...I
am NOT them...I am ME and emoticon )

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SHARONSPARKLE 10/5/2014 1:56PM

    TC - you are an inspiration to so many of us. You prove that when you have let your weight go and it creeps up once again, you can turn it around and lose it once again. I lost 140 lbs and kept it off 7 years before I slowly gained until I have most of that weight back. A part of me says, why work so hard knowing it will just come back again. You showed me that with determination, it can be done. I'm hoping our challenge will get me losing again. Good luck in your continued success, you are amazing!

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KATELJM 10/4/2014 5:16PM

    TC, I'm another retread here at SP, and I understand where you are coming from. But this year, I got fed up with how much space all these different sizes of clothes were occupying! I also figured that anything with stretch (and most clothes stretch now) would rot within a few years, so I would open up the storage bag and ask, "Why did I save this!" Last time around, I drew a line in the sand and kept to it pretty well, however, my doctor told me I needed to lose weight or take Rx for high blood pressure and Lipitor. So this time I lowered my line in the sand by another 20 pounds. I documented for myself what I had to do to maintain each milestone weight I achieved, and how I felt. I have to watch what I eat, and I need to do regular exercise every day. But I love the way I feel, so it is worth it to maintain this lifestyle.

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JCARR75163 10/1/2014 1:09PM

    My dear daughter - I have always told you that you are beautiful and I am so happy you are finally admitting it to yourself! I have never cared what size you were, I just wanted you to be healthy. You are an amazing person and I can't say it enough - I am so proud of you. Not only for taking charge of your health but for inspiring me to do the same. Your tenacity keeps me motivated when I want to quit.

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JENNY888 9/30/2014 12:46PM

    You have accomplished so much. It sounds like you have learned the hard way that the weight can come back again if you are not careful. That is important knowledge and now that you realize it you should have an easier time keeping it off. Losing 100 pounds is a wonderful accomplishment. You have earned it.

I also have a hard time giving away clothes that don't fit. I have been going through them this summer and was able to get rid of some of them, but there are others that I am not ready to get rid of yet. I found some ZipLock storage bags at Costco that you vacuum out the air when packed. They work wonderful and I can store them away in a box in the garage in not much space. I have them sorted by size. When I am finally ready to get rid of the clothes, or if I find someone who I think can use them, I will give them away at that time. I am hoping to wear some of the too small sizes in the future. I hope to never open a larger size bag for myself. It has worked for a year now.

Keep up the great work. We are all watching your progress. Awsome!

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GETUP-N-GOGIRL 9/30/2014 10:27AM

    TC, you are a WONDERFUL Spark friend, girl! And now that we've met, I hope that we'll have an ongoing friendship. Everyone I've encountered that knows you has the highest praise of who you are as a person. You are dear, dear, dear to more people than you are able to realize! {{{Hugs}}} . . . s u s y . . .

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MTN_KITTEN 9/30/2014 9:43AM

    You are AWESOME! And you are worth the effort, time and grace needed to achieve your goals.

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ZANYGIRL1 9/30/2014 8:11AM

    TC, you are such an inspiration!!! Congratulations on all that you have accomplished. I know that you will win this battle!!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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16TO10 9/30/2014 6:41AM

    This is great on so many levels. Never Never Never Give up

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RUTHANN05 9/30/2014 12:59AM

    You are AMAZING. You have shown every one that if you put your mind to it that it can be accomplished. Congratulations Dear Spark Friend.
Keep the momentum and you will be a star forever.
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STEPH-KNEE 9/30/2014 12:32AM

    You are down right amazing and a true inspiration to us all!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JENNBECK831 9/29/2014 8:07PM

    I really identify with this. I'm always afraid to let go of clothes...whether too big or too small. Thanks for sharing.


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    Woohoooo way to go. I am so ecited for you.

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LIFENPROGRESS 9/29/2014 6:18PM

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GAILANN48 9/29/2014 6:08PM

    Wonderful blog! Being cocky got me, too, so I totally understand.

You're such a fighter. As for your fearful feelings, I'm sure you know that healthy fear is positive.

You're going to be fine - you've got this, one day, one meal, one choice at a time.

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STARLITNIGHT 9/29/2014 6:05PM

    You are doing Amazing, and I have faith that you will get what you want out of this life. Stay Strong and Focus as you have been, and you will find your way, in an RV of course! I can just see you hiking mountains, boating on rivers, and sitting at the campfire after a long productive day. Keep your dreams alive TC, till they become the moment your are in right now. emoticon

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MOM43BEES 9/29/2014 5:44PM

  Stay positive and treat yourself well. Even though you have fears and doubts, keep telling yourself that you can overcome them. The past is behind us. Believe in your future. Keep up the good work.

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MASTERCARE 9/29/2014 5:40PM

    I am soooooooooo proud of you! I am! I am in I sit here absorbing what you have written....

and you know what?

I am SMILING.....

and nodding my head..YES.....

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Beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder

Sunday, August 31, 2014

I am always happier walking outside and I have a route near my house that is just perfect for my 12 pound dog and I. We get to see many beautiful yards, homes, pets, parks, birds and other sites. So these things are just ordinary things and sites but they make me smile and I enjoy my walk more seeing the things I do so I thought I would share. My walk starts in my back yard where I was lucky to catch a bird mid flight. Awesome !!

Several of my neighbors used their front yard as a garden.

This was found in a shady alley. I pick shady areas to walk my eskimo dog since she has long hair.

This was definitely a doggie dog day heat wise and dog wise. The one behind the fence likes to bark at mine. LOL !

If I walk around the hospital it is 1 mile and that is why I add the neighborhoods in my walk. The hospital used to be Mercy hospital run by the sisters of mercy so I saw virgin mary every where.

And how can I not smile when I am reminded of this every day on my walk ?

Some interesting things seen.

This is a cool idea where the sump pump pushes water out of the house and down a hill.

Part of the reason I am blogging about this is because I get depressed in the winter and I will be able to refer back to this and smile. It will help me through the dark cold winter months and help me look forward to spring and summer again. I also just wanted to share how grateful I am for all 4 seasons of the year for they all have a purpose, just like my decisions on my health journey impact my route, how fast I get to the end (goal weight) and whether or not I enjoy the journey. I have a plan and am sticking to it because I am worth taking care of myself and I really am tired of the yo-yo effects. I know there will be bumps or detours but I am trying to have a plan and not just react to the problems or potential problems that may arise.

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NANBENT1963 9/3/2014 12:14PM

    Love the photos! When winter comes have you ever considered snowshoeing or cross-country skiing? Living in a 4 season state all my life I've learned to adapt...I am an outdoors person and can NOT and will NOT be cooped up in the house for 6 months a year due to imperfect weather. Fresh air is good for the soul regardless what the temps are emoticon I was lucky and found an almost brand new pair of snowshoes at a yard sale last summer for $25 can you imagine? I bet the owner paid at least $100 they are a nice pair of Kodiak's...lucky me! I took my grandchildren for the first time this February and we also went cross-country skiing together. The family that plays together--stays together (true story) have a great day!

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ZANYGIRL1 9/2/2014 8:34AM

    I love walking outside too. There are so many beautiful things that you can see every day, and I love when I run into the neighbors and get to chat a bit!! emoticon

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SUNSHINE5268 9/2/2014 12:57AM

    what amazinggggggggggggggggggg photos, wow! emoticon

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STARLITNIGHT 9/1/2014 3:30PM

    I always enjoy looking at all the gardens as I walk by in my small town. I would rather walk 5 miles outside then 1 mile on a treadmill any day. I hope this winter goes okay, and is not to brutal.

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RX_2_RV 9/1/2014 11:31AM

    Love the photos!
So nice to get a more personal perspective on where you walk, my FitBit buddy. I also enjoy the simple things I see on my walks. I love to watch the birds...a real treat when I come across a road runner..."dinosaurs" DH calls them, since they are so pre-historic looking.

I don't have a dog now, but the neighborhood dogs still bark when I walk by...doing their job. emoticon
I usually say something like "hello pups" in a sweet voice and many times they stop or at least pause, I know this person?

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16TO10 9/1/2014 7:10AM

    What a cool idea. Thanks for the virtual walking tour. emoticon

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CHALLENGER15 9/1/2014 6:20AM

    Love the pictures, TC, and very good idea about looking at them this winter. I already know that I am going to make an order from a seed catalog this winter to have that to look forward to in the coming days as well. That was so much fun to receive!

Was Mercy sold to a corporate entity? We still have a Mercy in the Springfield, MO area - I much preferred the "St. John's" name that it was previously. My DB is in St. Mary's in our state capitol of Jefferson City, and I have been quite pleased with his treatment. IF we get him to Pensacola to live with/near my other sister, he has already been accepted as a patient by a doctor within a cardiology practice which also is under the church affiliation.

I am very excited to meet you, my friend!

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KAREN608 8/31/2014 11:03PM

    The rocks on the hill for drainage are so lovely!
Are their a lot of Catholic people in your neighborhood? I have not seen so many of the statues since I left Chicago where they were popular. There is a Catholic church in my town but their people don't seem to put up statues outside their homes.

Thank you for sharing the views from your walk with us!

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ELLIEJOSIE 8/31/2014 8:59PM

    I sure enjoyed your "walk" - thanks for sharing it with us. It is fun to see what others see as they walk, I may have to think about doing that too.

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ALICIA214 8/31/2014 8:24PM


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What a challenge means to me

Monday, June 02, 2014

Last week of the RV Enthusiasts group challenges ! It has gone fast this time. This blog is part of that last challenge. I am not as adventurous as some but I love to try new things sometimes. First time I joined spark, I did not find a group that I felt was "family". I just could not relate to them, some did not have challenges or support and as a result, I ended up losing a lot of weight on my own and leaving just to come back heavier than what I had left at.

This time around, I was lucky enough to find "my" Rv group and I just love them. They are a fabulous group of people that support one another through thick and thin. Some have known each other for years, some have left and returned. Some are newer members like me, but I feel like we are family.

The challenges are like a bonus. They help me focus more on the journey or task of the week rather than the life long journey, which can seem quite daunting at times. To have a goal of 324# down to 130#- 150# is darn right scary at times. I enjoy the challenges whether I do well or not. It is learning about something new and testing myself to see if I have what it takes to make it through those challenges, that helps me focus and see my journey as one day at a time instead of the "life long diet" mentality that occasionally rears its ugly head.

I also get to see what helps me along my journey, what is not as helpful, and that we are all human. We do well, we fall down, and we pick ourselves back up. That, in my opinion, is what life is all about. We improvise, we overcome, we willing adapt to succeed in our spiritual journey through life and for me that includes taking better care of ME. I am all about taking care of others being a nurse, but I have found out the hard way, I do not want to be a burden to anyone else, so that means taking the time to make me a priority and get to healthy and stay there.

I think it is hard to run a spark group all by yourself and I have the utmost respect for Sharon for doing it and again, bonus, that she does it so well. I love these people and truly feel blessed to be part of this family. Thanks friends.

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NANBENT1963 8/27/2014 4:25PM

    I hope that we, too, (Black Panthers) will be a "family" group for you and that together we can rock this challenge and also make some great friendships in the process. Looking forward to getting to know you! emoticon emoticon for joining the Blue Team! Together, we can do this!


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STARLITNIGHT 6/14/2014 6:04PM

    That is wonderful TC, we all want to feel like we are Norm in the show Cheers. Were everyone knows our name, and they are always glad you came. Best Wishes

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NOILEDNWAD 6/12/2014 10:58AM

    The groups at SP are such a benefit! I'm glad you found a group that resonates with you! And I love what you get out of the challenges! emoticon

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BOOBERRY 6/8/2014 10:16PM

    Love having you for a part of this team your are so encouraging and up beat love your spirit keep up the good work

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FANNYMANSON 6/4/2014 1:58PM

    Positive support really does help! Glad you found a great team to motivate you!!

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BOOBERRY 6/3/2014 11:02PM

    Tc all though you just joined us a while back you feel like part of the family I enjoy reading all your good saying and you encourage everyone to do their best and pick themselves back up . So glad you came to our team keep up the good work on your weight loss journey emoticon

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    Proud to be part of your team :)

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GLASSART43 6/3/2014 5:20PM

    I really like this quote from your blog,

"We do well, we fall down, and we pick ourselves back up."

Not quitting is important to me, thank you for expressing yourself so well!

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ZANYGIRL1 6/3/2014 9:22AM

    Good teams are hard to find sometimes, but when you do, it helps so much!!!! emoticon

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    A team is only as good as it's members and you do our team proud! You are an inspiration to so many and we love to see you and your mom reaching weekly goals and becoming healthier every day! We enjoy being supportive and love to encourage you. I hope I can continue to motivate you as well.

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    That's great that you have found something so supportive!

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RUTHANN05 6/2/2014 5:55PM

    You have a great way with words. Thanks for being there for us too. We welcome you with open arms to our family.
This is the only way to go. with friends and Family.

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    Finding the right team is so important

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MTN_KITTEN 6/2/2014 5:04PM

    We are gonna get there ... one at a time!

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    You'll get there! I started at 320 and am now 112 lbs lighter. YOU CAN DO THIS!! We are panthers! Hear us roar!

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FOXXYROXXYD 6/2/2014 4:09PM

    emoticon and you are Freakin' Awesome!

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MASTERCARE 6/2/2014 3:07PM

    They are a good group of people...they are....but you know what? So are are apart of those people that are friends and family.

Proud of you!

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Vision of my future

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

I think everyone struggles at one time or another. Negative Nellie gets very loud in my head sometimes and if I am in a good place, I can tune her out but let me be under just a little stress or be a little tired and she becomes quite pushy, takes over and I end up binging or not exercising. This can last hours, days, months or years, depending on where my head is and whether or not I can see my future (goals).

I have been strong in the past, lost a lot of weight a few times, and have put it back on. I have always had the high blood pressure and high cholesterol but now the kidneys and diabetes thing has cropped up. I knew it could if I did not take care of me. I foolishly ignored my own fears and continued doing everything in my life the easier softer way. I ate out too much ( too much fat & salt), I sat around too much (surprised I did not get a clot), I chose to blame everything in my environment but me ( insert excuse here). I ignored the situation until my legs swelled up and I could not breathe (think congestive heart failure).

I am 52 and am way too young for this kind of crap. I have not worked this hard for this long to retire and die. I want to travel and see the states. I want to hike, swim, and if I can conquer my fear, zipline. I never made any plans or goals. I just let life do what it would or could given my health and size. Well, let me tell you, my head is in the game. I am an active player now. I am taking that bull (poor health habits) by the horns and I am flipping him upside down. I am in charge.

I still have days or hours where lazy tries to sneak in and on those days I have a plan. I look at my vision board. I say my mantras or positive quotes. I look in the mirror in my eyes and ask what is my reality right now ? What will I do right now ? Do I want to be in that bad pace again where I can not breathe, I can not walk, I can not tie my shoes, I may have to have 6 people to lift me into the ambulance ? It is cold and hard but that is what I need.

My mantra's change but right now, these are some I use. It brings me focus on those days I feel blah, do not want to exercise, am craving sweets, feel bad about my body, etc.






I MOVE TO STAY HEALTHY ! (which saves me money in pills and Dr. visits).


I SEE MYSELF HEALTHY FIT & FLEXIBLE ! This one helps when I am being negative about a particular body part.

MY BODY NATURALLY SHEDS UNNEEDED FAT ! Love this one, that means I do not have to work, right ? WRONG !


Live in the moment. Be kind to yourself. You only have one body. It is your house. Keep it clean with healthy food. Move it to clean it and get rid of toxins. Remember food is fuel and we are becoming like the hybrid cars and require much less fuel to be more efficient. I do not want to struggle with my health for the rest of my life. I want to be excited in every moment my God and angels bring me. So, for now, this is helping and I will continue to educate myself and try new things. Keep sparking friends.

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ESHARA43 6/4/2014 11:56PM

    How can I say this but here it goes, Wow, Awesome and it is truly motivating, You have a great perspective on life. Your Blog is really and truly full of Determination and I will read more from you. Thank You so much for sharing your wonderful Blog with all of us

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IMGLAMRUS 5/21/2014 6:54AM

    What a GREAT a blog!!! Thanks for mantras, you're such a positive person and such a great motivator. Keep working for the prize....A healthy lifestyle!!!!

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FOXXYROXXYD 4/26/2014 12:08PM

    Right on my friend! YOU are an inspiration and you are ROCKING this journey!

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FANNYMANSON 4/26/2014 12:33AM

    Yes. Weight loss is a mind game as much as a food/fitness game. You are on the right path! Keep pushing!

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TROOPER1961 4/24/2014 7:48PM

    I am so proud of you 2!! Keep up your focus,, you are doing awesome!! emoticon

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TAMNIOWA 4/24/2014 12:24PM

    I so get this blog. You and I have a lot of the same thoughts. We can do this we are worth it. Never give up.

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JCARR75163 4/23/2014 1:20PM

    Daughter - What a terrific blog!! When you lost all that weight years ago I was so proud because you became so pretty on the outside (always were beautiful on the inside). But most of all I was relieved that you were getting healthy and active, giving me hope that you wouldn't end up with the health problems I have. When you regained the weight I worried constantly about your health and inability to be active comfortably. You have always been very generous and I am proud you have given away over 50% of your former weight. (I'm sure there are many people who actually could use some of that weight!) You have been such an inspiration to me. Thanks to you, I have lost 40 lbs., have brought down my cholesterol & BP and am able to walk more than 10 ft. without getting out of breath. You have a great attitude toward living a healthy life and judging by the other comments it is infectious! I hope there is no cure for it :) Love you, Mom

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BOOBERRY 4/23/2014 10:39AM

    Great blog TC You are doing so good keep the positive thoughts going and stay strong you can do this , we all can just one meal one day at a time. And enjoy the life God has given us to the fullest. Thank you for the great Blog & sharing your thoughts with us emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PANFRIEDTROUT 4/23/2014 1:05AM

really good blog. it can be discouraging to lose weight just to have it come back but it sounds as if you've had a big reality check in your life. sometimes that's what it takes to get going & not look back.

it helps that you have goals and a plan for those moments of weakness.

keep going!!

Marie (Legendary Lemon & Determined Daisy)

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STARLITNIGHT 4/22/2014 7:07PM

    I liked your Blog! You are fierce, you are strong, and you are one of my most favorite sparklers! Thank you so much for this blog. I have my target back in sight. Because you kicked my bottom into gear last night, I have almost 5 miles in already today. You ROCK!

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CHALLENGER15 4/22/2014 6:22PM

    TC, I hope this gets enough "Likes" that it makes a Blog of the Day post.

Very, very, very good, my friend.

Zipline - they do have some in Branson..... emoticon I will ask my students which one has the most training of the attendants....

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RX_2_RV 4/22/2014 12:42PM

    Thanks TC. I needed to hear all the things you said just now. Isn't it funny how the guidance shows up, when you need it, if you are paying attention.

I can feel the fire and determination in your words. It is practically jumping out of the page! Thanks for sharing your enthusiasm, your struggles, and your determination to do whatever it takes to have the life you want. You are right. It IS your choice. It IS my choice. We have the power...we make the life we choose through a combination of our actions and our inactions.


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BSTMAMAS 4/22/2014 12:42PM

    What a wonderful blog TC. I can so relate

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SHARONSPARKLE 4/22/2014 12:22PM

    TC - thank you so much for this blog! I feel like you were writing it for me. I see myself in all you say. BUT, I am also tired of being obese and unhealthy. You give me hope that I can also change my destiny! I will take it one day, one meal at a time and enjoy the journey along the way to my final destination.

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Still on track & celebrating me

Thursday, April 10, 2014

I am feeling so blessed. The past few months have been a whirlwind. There has been so much happy today, I can hardly stand it. I am celebrating me by sharing my blessings. I hope you do not take it as bragging. I am learning it is ok to celebrate me some times, so while it is a new feeling, it is also a good feeling.

When I joined The Living healthy Iowa Challenge through work, i never imagined we would win (my 72 year old mom & I). I did not even know they had prizes. I just knew I needed something to keep me motivated to continue on my healthy path and I had to have another person to make a team.

Mom was wanting motivation to change also so I added her as my teammate, introduced her to Spark and we got started. I never knew how motivated she could be when she had a goal in mind. Well, she sure showed me, and a lot of others. She is down 38# and 3 dress sizes in 10 weeks.

I "relearned" that there is a direct relationship to how much you lose, how much you move, and how good you can feel. I knew this. I needed a reminder because I was only doing 30 minutes of easy exercise. I am still doing only moderate exercise but now 60-90 minutes, and I am being more consistent with strength training. I am happy with the energy I have now. I still get winded easy but not as fast. I walk faster and definately farther.

I have worn sweats for the past 2 years because of my weight. I bought size 32 jeans but did not like that they were being pulled down in back by my hiney being so big so I never wore them. Today, we get our prizes so I tried on my jeans. Since I am down 71#, I decided to try the size 28 first, 26... nope, 24...FITS !!! OMG, IT fits and I can sit, I can breathe. I am so happy. Talk about NSV. That is anawesome one.

I started my day attending a mindful eating class through work (part of a decrease in insurance rates). I learned more than I thought I would. I had my snack questions answered since I struggle with what is a good for me vs. what sweet do I want. was recommended by the dietician as a very informative site. I will check it out tomorrow.

I had some time before my health coach meeting (also through work), so I went to the mall and walked 45 minutes. Lots of people there and they were all smiling, happy, and EXERCISING. Go figure... another direct relationship.

Health coach meeting went well. My weaknesses are sweets (duh !) and I need to do more ST. I have a plan, I have the support of work, family, and Spark family. How can I fail ? I won't.

This time around, I am doing this for me, not to meet a guy, not to be promoted at work, not to fit in an airplane, and not to keep up with skinny friends. I want health and if that means I will still be overweight by BMI standards, then so be it. I can live with fluffy as long as I can move, breathe easy and still be active and have fun with the rest of my life. So today, I celebrated me and I feel good about it.

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TAMNIOWA 4/11/2014 10:08PM

    Way to go! I love NSVs. Keep it up you are doing great.

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SHARONSPARKLE 4/11/2014 12:44PM

    Have I told you lately how proud I am of you! Both you and your mom continue to be an inspiration for so many. I have no doubt that with all the support and knowledge you are gaining through these classes, you will reach your goal and we will be their to help encourage you along the way!

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TROOPER1961 4/11/2014 6:40AM

    emoticon Amazing job TC!!!

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SOON2BCOURTNEY 4/10/2014 11:37PM


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BOOBERRY 4/10/2014 11:19PM

    Congratulations TC I am so happy for you sound like you have a good plan and advice from work that is so helpful.. again congrat s and I love your positive attitude keep up the good work emoticon Brenda

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MARAGRAM 4/10/2014 11:10PM

    emoticon You are making fantastic changes and are improving your outlook as well as your health!

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STARLITNIGHT 4/10/2014 9:16PM

    I know you will get there, you have the right priorities and attitude! I am doing the same and it feels so much different than any other time I have tried. Because this time it is about increasing health into every part of our lives.You are an amazing person!

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RX_2_RV 4/10/2014 9:16PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon
Thanks for sharing your joy! It really comes through the page. I am soooooo happy for you. You earned this!
Keep up the good work!

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