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Friday, July 09, 2010

Just thought I would give an little update on what is going on in my life. In my last post, I said I was going vegetarian, just for a week, just to see what it's like. Well, it's been 18 days, and I feel great! I'm gonna keep with this for a while I think. It's not as hard as I thought it would be, and I made it through probably one of the hardest, most meat centered holidays, the 4th of July. I think the best part of this is the money we are saving. Not only is meat expensive at the grocery store, but also we have stopped going out to eat as much. Not knowing if a restaurant is going to veggie-friendly or not, it just makes it easier to stay in and cook!

Half marathon training is in full swing now. It feels great, and I finally feel like I am making progress in my pace and in my miles. In a matter of two weeks, I ran my worst 5K to date. Then turned around and ran my best 5K, AND PRd twice (unofficially) on my normal running route! So it's been a great past couple weeks for me :)

I've also been going over my tentative race schedule for the next few months, wondering if I can squeeze one more race without over doing it. I have a half on Oct 2nd, and as soon as I'm done with that I'm in full marathon training mode for Miami on Jan 31. There is a half marathon that falls two weeks before Miami (that fits perfectly with my training miles) that I plan on doing.

Here's the race I've been considering, there's a Ragnar Relay Series. 185 miles, 12 person team, 24 hours from Miami to Key West. Each member runs a total of 3 legs of the course. It sounds AMAZING! I would love to get a team together...but it's Jan 7th and 8th. (3 weeks before the full) I'm wondering if I go through with it, if I might upset my marathon training and not do my best there. Ah I just love racing so much! Too many options, so little time!

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CASSIECAT 7/9/2010 10:46AM

    Glad to hear switching to a vegetarian diet has gone well for you! Enjoy. :)

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EGRAMMY 7/9/2010 10:40AM

    emoticon Love your wonderful positive blog. Glad the veggies are going well. I have a begetarian guest now and was not prepared for her. Wish I had more notice to sort out some decent meals.

I am cheering for your racing. You have a fan. emoticon emoticon

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I'm gonna be a vegetarian!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Well - at least try it out for a week or so! I'm really excited about this and I feel like it's been a long time coming.

Since joining spark people, I have really cleaned up my eating. Like a lot. I never buy frozen foods anymore. If there is a hydrogenated oil listed in the ingredients, I stop buying that product. I make things from scratch like granola and marinara sauce. Well, as a result of me cleaning up my eating habits, I've just naturally started eating less meat. It wasn't really on purpose, just sorta happened. Now I say about 80% of my meals are vegetarian. So why not just cut out that last 20% and call it a day?

Well I'm going to experiment a little bit. I'm going to try it for a week. See - I still love to eat fish, and shrimp, and the occasional slice of bacon. So I don't want to set myself up for failure. Let's just get our feet wet for now.

In honor of this new quest, I went grocery shopping today to stock pile on meatless goodies. Man, grocery shopping as a vegetarian - It's fun! haha! I was in the produce section for at least 30 minutes, and by the time I left, my cart was nearly completely full! So I'm excited to try some new dishes, experiment and really see where I will go in this new meatless world of mine.

Oh yeah - you might be wondering why I am choosing to do this. Well, it's not just one reason. Obviously, I want to eat healthy and I think this is a great way to really incorporate more fruits and veggies into my diet. But also, the animal rights thing. It does bother me at times, I really just try not to think about it. I start to feel guilty otherwise and lose my appetite. And lastly, I am always up for a new challenge!

So if anyone reads this and is or has been a vegetarian and has any tips, comments, or recipes - Please share them! I'm eager to learn :)

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GOGETTERME 6/23/2010 9:32PM

    I love and NEED my proteins so this would be really hard for me. My husband and I were eating more soy and now I don't want to so much because I'm at high risk for estrogen based cancers and soy might contribute to this. We have given up red meat pretty much and stick to fish/seafood and chicken. Just remember that you need to find good protein sources like beans and I guess soy (although it scares me now). I get so hungry if I don't have adequate protein and I can't exercise as well if I don't have some serious protein in the morning. Good for you, I don't think I could give up the animals unfortunately. I'm a PETA fan too but I'm WAY too much a carnivore to give up all meat.

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OHIOBRIE 6/22/2010 5:49PM

    Good luck! I don't think I could do it, but I definitely commend you for trying!

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CASSIECAT 6/22/2010 11:08AM

    I'm vegetarian. It didn't happen overnight, and I will still occasionally eat chicken, but never at home. Good luck with your efforts this week. :)

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EGRAMMY 6/21/2010 10:13PM

    I suggest Travelnista blogs on vegetables, raw foods etc.

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Today, my self esteem was shaken up quite a bit.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

So this past week has been going really well for me. I had a bit of a cold so my appetite was not what it normally is. As I recovered from said cold, I decided maybe I would really start listening to my hunger and hear what it has to say. Well, I figured out, I must be over eating by a lot. Small meals, no seconds, no snacks all week. I haven't eaten out of boredom, or just because it was time to eat. I eat based only on what my hunger and appetite are telling me. The result: I lost three pounds this week! At first I was thinking, maybe it was water weight, or just a freak mishap on the scale. But three days in a row, my weight has been consistent at 160ish. So I felt like today should be the day I post it.

Well, 3 pounds lighter, and I had no problem stepping out in a two piece bathing suit on the beach today. It is all about self confidence anyways. My husband and I stopped and picked up some sandwiches and headed to the beach to have a little picnic in the sun. We picked our spot and started chowing down. No sooner do we get comfortable, and suddenly two guys decide to start tossing a football right by us. Now if they had decided to walk say 20 feet further down the beach, they wouldn't have been disturbing ANYONE. But no, they wanted to play their game right where we were. Whatever. A few minutes later, the ball comes soaring into us. I don't say anything, and they don't apologize. Whatever. A few more minutes pass, and it happens again - this time actually hitting my husband. I look at one of the guys and say, "Really? You don't think you could move down the beach a little bit?" He tells me to relax and it was an accident. Whatever. They stop playing for a little bit and go back to their towels which happened to be fairly close to ours. At this point I am lying down, soaking in the sun and relaxing, totally forgot about the guys. Suddenly I hear another guy join the group.

"Are we gonna play football"
"No, the chubby girl over there doesn't want us to."

Yeah - the chubby girl. I was referred to as the chubby girl.

I sat there for a few minutes, before I rolled over and told my husband I wanted to go somewhere else. We ended up walking about a quarter mile down the beach away from those A-holes.

When I told my husband what happened (he had been zoned out, reading a book, oblivious to what they were saying) he assured me I was beautiful, that the guys were [insert expletives here] and not to let them get to me. Then he asked if he should go punch them haha. While that would have been nice, I don't know what it would have accomplished.
But needless to say, my confidence was rocked. I went from feeling great to suddenly wanting to hide behind my towel. I know that guy was just being a jerk, but still - at what point is it okay for ANYONE to make negative comments on someones weight. Whether it be to their face or behind their back - why do people think it is okay?

So I know I will recover from this, but it is just amazing how insensitive people can be. I guess I've been spoiled by all my fellow sparkers, because obviously this guy hasn't got a clue.

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GOGETTERME 6/23/2010 9:22PM

    I probably visit the same beaches as you and the football jerks are everywhere. You are beautiful and an amazing person and don't let some idiot tell you different. They are CLEARLY meatheads! I used to worry about what others thought but I don't anymore since I KNOW I'm a worthy person. Sure I need to lose more and I'm still REALLY flabby at 178 and only 5'2". They are nobodies in your real world so don't let them hurt you. F**k them!

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EGRAMMY 6/21/2010 8:21AM

    Since I know you are and look lovely, I can say they are ridiculous. And who in the world raised them to think they can talk this way.

The basic issue is why do folks think they can bad mouth people over their weight, what ever it is. It seems in our society, being over weight is the worst thing to be.

PRAISE TO DELTA DELTA DELTA program to end fat talk. Check their site...

"Several public faces have started to openly speak about body image and reach out to the everyday girl. In the past year, former super model and talk show host Tyra Banks and pop singer Jessica Simpson have created campaigns of their own. Banks started the "B.I.O." campaign, which stands for Beauty: Inside and Out, in order to expand the typical definitions of beauty. B.I.O. encourages woman to stop looking at fashion ads, magazines, television shows and commercials, and other forms of media as guides to beauty.

Instead of letting women fall victim to the messages of beauty in American media, B.I.O. pushes girls to come forward and speak out about what beauty means to them by making videos and posting them online for the world to see."

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NINJACHEF 6/21/2010 7:44AM

    The old fashioned "they should have had their mouths washed out with soap" applies here.

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JUSTTRIING 6/20/2010 8:28PM

    Oh, I am so sorry. What a jerk? He was probably just lashing out because he knows they were being rude by playing football so close to where you and your husband were. He was embarrassed that you actually called him out about it. It was his way of making himself feel better.

How sweet that your hubby was going to go back and defend your honor. That is what you should be thinking about. He loves you. He thinks you are beautiful. He is willing to stand up for you.

Congrats on your #3 loss!

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OHIOBRIE 6/20/2010 5:19PM

    Losing three pounds is great and you should be celebrating instead of worrying about what those jerks said! I know it's hard to ignore, but you are doing a great job and just keep it up! emoticon

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TERIANA 6/20/2010 4:14PM

    Clearly these two immature morons were never taught common courtesy. However, if you frame this another way, it is better to be described as "chubby" than obese. All chubby means is that you are not yet at your ideal weight but you are on your way, right? And really the only opinions that matter here are yours and your husband's. Don't let this idiot live rent free in your head--forget this incident and chalk it up to deficient parenting in their households.

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CHERYLRUSH 6/20/2010 4:03PM

    Ugh. I hate people who think the ultimate insult is to call someone "fat" or "chubby". I used to do secret shopper and we were always warned to never EVER use that terminology to describe someone we had dealt with. Rude, rude, rude. No matter what you look like, you can change it, but they will always be ugly-minded little boys unless they get their comeuppance. Don't let them get you down.

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SONJAJONES1970 6/20/2010 3:57PM

    Basically, he knew he was wrong and needed to make himself feel and look good by saying that about himself. Don't let the words of others bring you down and no it isn't right for people to make fun of others weight. Keep up the good work with your weight loss. It sounds like you have a very supportive husband and that is all you need. Have a great day

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    You are doing a fantastic job. Don't let someone else's insecurities make you insecure about yourself. Those guys were just immature jerks. I think it is awesome that you learned your hunger signals this week and you need to keep up the good work! You rock!

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Recap of the last week

Sunday, June 06, 2010

Well, whether or not you read my last blog...I've been trying this new technique. It's called, going slow. All my life I've been rushing from one point to the next. For example, one day I found this neat looking coin in my wallet. I promptly ordered several coin collecting books hoping to develop a new hobby. Well needless to say, the books are collecting dust and I still don't know what happened to that coin. I like to commit without a plan; thinking I'll figure things out as I go. I am now learning - that almost never works. So I'm trying things slow this time around since I am so tired of pressing that 'reset button' anytime I feel like I've lost motivation.

So last week, I had very easy goals. I want to be aware of everything I am doing, healthy and not, so I can start adjusting to a lifestyle that really works for me. Last year I recommitted to spark at the new year. I did great, lost 15 pounds, really learned what I should and shouldn't be eating. I read all the articles, tracked all my food, and tried out new exercises. Then in May, I went through a tough patch and I feel like I never fully recovered. Now, I have this apathy in me that I just can't shake. I have the tools, I know exactly how to use them. But part of me is comfortable with myself. I already lost some weight, I don't look horrible in a bathing suit (though I may not be completely comfortable). As long as I'm not gaining, I'm not too eager to lose weight. While I have long term goals that I want to reach, I know that I have to give up part of my lifestyle to reach them.

So anyways, this past week was me trying to figure out how I can comfortably start losing weight again. What do I need to do to change my lifestyle, still enjoy myself and be productive, but have a better outcome?

A routine. That's what I need. Simple and easy. I need a routine. Right now, I am all over the place. Doesn't matter when I wake up, when I go to bed...I don't have a steady job. I just need to be active enough to be able to do the occasional race, and eat good enough foods to keep my guilt at bay. Well...that's not enough for me anymore.

I decided for the last week, that I would be awake by 9 am every day..regardless of how I felt. Proud to say I accomplished it, even when I had a glitch thrown my way. I had some promo work available, so I ended up working at a bar Wednesday and Thursday night. (I was handing out free samples of this new and upcoming vodka) Well, I didn't get home til late both nights. Normally I would have given myself a pass, but instead, I still pushed myself. Mostly cause 9 am isn't THAT bad. I set a goal that I knew I could achieve. It felt good to finally reach something, even if it was kinda easy.

Anyways, that's the basis for my new plan. I want to develop a routine around goals that I can accomplish. Goals that are already within my reach, I just have to push a tiny bit harder. This week, I want to figure those goals out, and come up with a plan that I am able to follow.

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EGRAMMY 6/11/2010 11:28AM

    Yes, like the idea of going slow. Have you had the chance to read any of Kaligirl's blogs on mindful meditation?

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JUSTTRIING 6/6/2010 10:05PM

    One week down. You were successful. Hopefully that will give you the motivation that you need to follow through again this week.

Best of luck to you.

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OHIOBRIE 6/6/2010 8:45PM

    Sounds like a great plan!

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Breaking the 'reset routine'

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Well it's the first of the month, and sure enough after abandoning Spark for the past week or so, I'm back ready to correct all the mistakes I've been making recently. This is a routine. I start off the month, or the year, or even the week with high aspirations. I want to achieve all that I've been trying for in the past, I want to succeed beyond recognition, I want it ALL and I have the motivation for it all on the 1st day. Then, a few days later it start dwindling and then I have a couple bad days in a row and suddenly I am standing on square one again; feeling like the only way I could get off of it is by the power of momentum...which is now lacking.

The 'boiling frog' story is the best way to describe my predicament. A frog that is placed in boiling water will immediately jump out, but it will sit still in a pot of cold water that is slowly heated. So I am attempting to lower my expectations and limits, and look for gradual and minor improvements. Here's my basic plan:

1. While I may not always be able to eat right, I can almost always eat less.
2. Tracking my food is something that should become a habit if I wish to see the scale move in the right direction.
3. I have control over the amount I exercise, and excuses not to, while some may be legit, still won't give me the feeling of accomplishment that I constantly long for.

So these are the basic ideas I want to follow for the next couple weeks, and perhaps I will update them accordingly, but for now...this is my focus. I have to stop waiting for the right time, the right day to make a change. Little changes can be made at ANY time and as long as I can remember that, I won't be discouraged and I will always have some sort of momentum to fall back on!

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OHIOBRIE 6/1/2010 11:19PM

    Very inspiring as I am often the same way. Way to focus on the little things and hopefully that will help you stay on track!

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-AIRYN- 6/1/2010 7:07PM

    I think that that is a great idea!! Start small and work your way up! Good luck emoticon

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JUSTTRIING 6/1/2010 6:49PM

    I think focusing on a few basics is a good idea. I personally have found for me that tracking is the key. Even if I eat horrible and go way over. Just "seeing it" helps me. Sometimes that is the motivation I need to do some exercise the following day, etc. Sometime, I ignore the overindulgence. Either way, it is "out there" and I can't hide from it.

I hope June is a great month for you. I will look forward to an update!


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