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Tuesday, June 01, 2010

It's June! How can that be? Wasn't I supposed to be skinny enough by now to put on a swim suit or a pair of shorts without all those jiggly bits flapping about? Haven't I thought this same thing at the beginning of a lot of Junes? So true, so true. However, this one is bound to be different. This time I've got such amazing support here at Spark and now even my sweet husband is coming around. I want to join a gym where I can swim a bit without being too noticed, where I can cycle a few miles without worrying that I will fall off in the middle of a road somewhere, where I can work this body at the rate it can do and not try to keep up with those healthy, strong young or not-so-young things. Even though I'm often awkward and slow due to multiple sclerosis, this year I'm not letting myself off the hook so easily. I may crash a few times, but I'll also get up over and over again. This time I won't let anyone tell me what I should or should not be doing. There was a time when my neurologist said to rest, rest, rest. Those days are long past. Now we know that exercise can be very helpful in keeping a body moving and as strong as possible wherever I might find myself in that nasty disease process. Too bad we didn't know back then, what we know now. I sure wasted a lot of time 'resting'. No more. Not today, anyway. There will be days or perhaps more than days that I will have to back off, but I refuse to be defeated this time around. Each time my body rebels, I'll do what has to be done to get it able to get going again. Now, my plan is to find the right gym for me before this week is out. That's my plan and I plan to stick to it. What's your plan this week? We are all different. We can't expect to fit into the same mold as someone else no matter how much we might want to do so. Let's just keep encouraging one another to be the best us we can be each and every day. That way, perhaps we won't face another summer of discouragement and disappointment. We are Sparks...hear us roar!!!

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ANNE-ELIZ 6/1/2010 11:40PM

    You are absolutely right! Each of us has his or her own challenges and timetable within which we can accomplish our goals.

For each of us, the important thing is to keep at it.

I remembered a proverb the other day which I quoted in a comment to another member, but I think it works here as well, "Fall down seven times, stand up eight."

It is extremely challenging to balance exercise and rest; to differentiate among tiredness, exhaustion, lack of motivation and depression.

We can do this with mutual support and persistence!
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MEADSBAY 6/1/2010 9:53PM

    Take the time to find the right gym- most will give you a guest pass to try it out a few times- mine let me come for THREE WEEKS!
Be sure to ask if they have any specials going on or discounts for any reason- like AAA.
Also, when you do join one- hold your head up high and be proud that you are there- on your journey to better health.
I LOVE that I am the oldest woman in the weigh lifting section of my gym most days. emoticon

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TAYLORCRAFTBC65 6/1/2010 7:00PM

    Progress is only a little motivation and dicipline away

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How'd I get here anyway??

Thursday, May 27, 2010

After reading another Spark blog I started recalling my own childhood influences. My mom liked to cook and bake. We were a meat and potatoes kind of family - lots of beef and chicken. We also grew most of our own produce. We had apples, plums, lemons, quinces, loquats, persimmons, walnuts, berries, squash, corn, green beans, melons and probably lots of other things that don't come to mind right now. I loved to garden with my dad - he focussed on the fruits and veggies. I also helped my mom with all of her flowers. I never thought about how many calories we burned in those gardens. The work was just a part of who we were. So, it was ironic that my mom continually told me she didn't think exercise was important and that she didn't care if I did poorly in P.E. as long as I got my A's and B's in the rest of my classes. Cleaning our plates was expected. And that always included desserts. I can remember a time when I was trying desperately to lose a few pounds and didn't want dessert. That night she got so mad that she took the whole thing and threw it in the garbage. We all sat there dumbfounded. I never refused her sweets again. I learned to starve myself all day when she couldn't see and then eat all that she set before me in the evening. It was kind of a weird way to live, but it worked for me at the time. And so began my lifelong food issues. Through the years my weight has fluctuated quite a lot. Yet, my roots continue to influence me for both good and bad. I still love fresh fruits and vegetables. So, now that summer is coming I am eager for the farmers' markets to open. I still have trouble leaving food on my plate, but I've learned to better manage that one. I serve myself now so can serve myself reasonably. I also make an effort to leave at least a bite or two uneaten as I train myself that it isn't a sin to leave something. When my husband and I go out (rarely) we usually order one meal and share it. If we don't do that, we always bring home at least half. Or, if it wasn't that yummy we sometimes just leave what's left.
I took up running for fun in junior high and added tennis in high school. I always loved to swim but that has always been less accessible to me. I belonged to a gym for a few years before the MS made it difficult to do anything for a few years. Now I'm thinking of joining a gym for the summer. I have a few things here to use (treadmill, stability ball, bands, weights), but I would enjoy being with other women while I can. I now understand that my parents really got a lot of exercise just by managing home and gardens. My mom never understood this connection so thought exercise was useless. She is now 96 years old. She didn't get to that age by sitting and eating cookies all day long. Weight was never an issue for her. She was blessed with good genes and an ability to naturally manage her portions regardless of what she ate. I was adopted and when I met my birth parents as a 30 something it was interesting to see that they had both struggled with weight issues forever. My birth mom died the day before her 75th birthday. My dad struggles with many health issues, but is now 80 years old. Hmmm. Yes, environment is important. Yes, genetics count. But, I know we can reach our goals. For me it includes finding the right motivation each and every day of my life. I won't live in the past. I want to be here for a long and healthy future! I thank all my Spark friends for your encouragement and support. Have a healthy day!

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MEADSBAY 5/27/2010 9:07PM

    You know, it's no wonder so many of us have issues with food- with all the crazy things some mothers put us through- my poor DH had to sit at the table for hours sometimes after dinner until he finished all of his vegetables- even if it was one he didn't like and it made him gag.
My mother was very cool about food- eat what you want, as much or as little as you want and (mostly) served healthy (not necessarily delish) food.
Dessert? hahaha- maybe on holidays or something. I think we had ice cream a few times each summer.
My daughter is adopted and I fear she will become a large woman like her bio-mom. She's 22 and I can't control what she eats anymore and am not too happy about her choices.


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Human Garbage Can

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Yuck! I ate some of the left over pizza from Chuck E. Cheese. Now maybe that wouldn't be an awful thing, but since I've now done that for the past three days it is pretty awful. I just can't bring myself to throw away perfectly good food, even when it's not so perfectly good for me. Does that make me a human garbage can? I think it is true. emoticon
Let me see what have a discarded into me these past few weeks that would have served me better to to into the actual trash can? Besides the pizza there was that order of fries the grand kids didn't eat, that last scoop of ice cream that was already suffering from a bit of freezer burn, those three little packages of cookies that nobody else wanted, that last bit of whipped cream, that pub mix snack stuff that nobody else likes, and those pieces of garlic bread that had already gotten a little hard to chew. Yes, I do believe I am a human garbage can.
As of this moment I resolve to no longer play that role for my family. Far better to throw it out than eat it up. Hooray, a new way to take care of me. emoticon

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ANNE-ELIZ 5/26/2010 9:57PM

    I think the resolve is great!

I hope, though that you're not getting down on yourself about this.

Many of us got a full dose of the "clean your plate" "waste not, want not" messages from our families down through generations. It is a very strong message that we need to examine and determine how it applies to us now. It looks like you are beginning to do that.

I agree with EWESCOTT!!

You do deserve good, healthy food, lovingly prepared and mindfully eaten.
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MEADSBAY 5/25/2010 10:56PM

    You DESERVE good healthy food, lovingly prepared and mindfully eaten.

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FITKAT2010 5/25/2010 9:58PM

    Sorry dear, but I think there is more to this than just eating leftovers. I would recommend that you get a food plan that you know you can stick to, track here on the Nutrition Tracker and stay within your allotment. When tempted to go off start writing your thoughts/feelings out on paper.


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MAMAFISH1 5/25/2010 6:01PM

    Sounds like my husband, He doesn't throw anything out. I don't care how old it is. I can eat junk, but it has to be fresh junk. Good luck to you on your goal. Once on the lips, forever on the hips. That's an old saying.

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TEXASFILLY 5/25/2010 4:22PM

    I feel your pain, Barbara! *hugs* Good for you in turning over a new leaf! ;)

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So Quiet, Time to Buckle Down

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Our daughter's family left early this morning for home. The baby is recovering from her brain surgery and we are so thankful that she is doing as well as she is. Her brothers got her giggling yesterday. That sound was music to our ears. It was exactly two weeks since her surgery and we'd all missed that overflowing joy that bubbles from those little babies. Such a blessing.
Today I feel more tired than I can remember. I'm trying to get over the yucky 'bug' our grandsons brought with them. My sweet husband and I have both been on antibiotics. I think mine has been helping, but he has continued to get worse. He got in to see his doctor yesterday and now has full blown pneumonia. So, a change in drugs to one that is equivalent to an I.V. antibiotic. If he doesn't improve significantly in the next day or so, he will likely go into the hospital. Still, here he is helping to put our house back together after all the company these past three weeks. He does rest a lot between the little jobs. His doctor says going to bed is not what he needs to keep that fluid from continuing to pool in his lungs. Our bodies are pretty miraculous. I feel confident he will turn the corner soon and knowing him he probably will be back at work on Monday. I think he does so well in part because he keeps himself in such good shape. Rarely does a day go by that he doesn't get to the gym to lift weights, run, bicycle or some combination. Even though he has two ruptured disks he somehow manages to keep going. He is able to fight through the pain and keep himself in the best shape possible. He is a great inspiration to me.
As I see my husband struggle with the pneumonia and still keep going, it convicts me to get myself going as well. So even though the house if finally quiet once again and even though I'm exhausted, I intend to buckle down and drink enough water, eat the right calories and keep this body in motion.
Time to buckle down. Time to get up from this computer and log some steps. I'll never have another today to do what I know I need to do.
It is a good day here. I hope it is a great day at your house!

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ANNE-ELIZ 5/22/2010 8:16PM

    Please get enough rest to really feel well!

I know you are determined and will do the water, calorie range and exercise,just soon a you can. You've done so much, so well, already.

I hope your husband quickly follows you into feeling better!

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MEADSBAY 5/22/2010 7:51PM

    You are in my thoughts, dear friend.

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That Water Thing...

Thursday, May 20, 2010

O.k. so here I am wondering once more just why it is that the scale refuses to budge. As I review the food logs I feel pretty proud of myself. I stay pretty much below the target calories. Then I look more closely at the reports and a big oops glares back. I've been consistently under my target calories for fact, pretty much the time I've been stuck. The other I realize is that I've been neglecting my water intake. Though I doubt I'm seriously dehydrated, clearly I'm not taking in enough to wash away all that yucky stuff. Granted, my mind has been filled to overflowing with other issues of life, but I'm determined to boost my health up somewhere near the top of my to do list. After all, if I want to be useful to others, I'd better make sure I'll be around to be of use.
So, chug, chug, chug, bottoms up everyone! emoticon

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MEADSBAY 5/20/2010 11:01AM

    You are so right about increasing your water- more-more-more!
And too few calories is almost as bad for us as too many, certainly as far as weight loss goes.

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