Monday, April 12, 2010
After a beautiful beginning to the week, I am sad to feel the windstorm today. Perhaps another real storm is on its way. We'll see. But, I'm using the day to get caught up on so many jobs around here. Bills are calling to me, laundry is not quite finished, ironing awaits and correspondence continues to pile up. There are many phone calls and emails to be returned. But, when my daughter called from far away, I stopped everything. She was back in the hospital over the weekend fighting response to surgery she had two weeks ago coupled with some kidney stones. She went home after they flushed her kidneys and got her pain under control. Meanwhile, I sit here too far away to be of much help. I offered to come, but she thinks she can manage still. With her three young children including a 3 1/2 month with some birth defects all wanting her attention, I can only imagine her current stress level. Still, this is her family now, not mine. I must remind myself that she will tell me to come when she needs me. I was there for her surgery and then she came here after I came home so I could help her some more with the children. She knows I'm here. She knows I'll be there in a heartbeat if she calls for me. So, I wait and pray that all will soon be well once again. My little eaglets left the nest some years ago. They can fly on their own. And, I know they must. There may be a storm on the horizon, but right now it is not my storm. I will sit tight and not let the wind blow me over today. I may bend, but I don't think I'll break any time soon. How are you doing as the winds blow in and through your life today?
Saturday, April 03, 2010
I just spent a week with my daughter's family while she had some surgery. I took care of her three children (7, 5 and 3 months). It seemed I never stopped moving from early morning until late in the evening. Still, it was such fun and so fulfilling. I drove home exhausted - a seven hour drive that really finished the process of total exhaustion. I have multiple sclerosis and am so pleased that I was able to do what was needed and still get myself home. Children have such enthusiasm, such energy. The enthusiasm is contagious. I wish the energy was as easily caught. If they could bottle and sell it they would be millionaires in no time. Anyway, I was home for two days catching up on some rest, but also catching up on all the things I usually do here. I hosted a large study group the evening after my return. So, it wasn't until he second day that I could actually put my feet up for a bit. Then early the following morning my daughter called to see if it would be o.k. if she brought the children to our home for a few days of their spring break. So, it was hurry, hurry, hurry to get the house ready, plan and prepare for an Easter egg hunt, and find fun little gifts and games for the kids. About eight hours after her call, they were here. We had such fun again. This time my husband got to join in some of the fun after work and on Friday when he could be off for the day. Then early today they were off once again for their own home in time for the Easter bunny to visit there and for all of us to be able to look forward to worship tomorrow in our own churches. I am so exhausted. The day after tomorrow my husband will head off on a business trip and I will once again try to catch up with myself. I may go out of town myself for a couple of days just to get away from the phones and the door and some responsibilities. Yet, as exhausted as I am and despite the many places in my body that suffer pain overload, despite trying recover from two falls while the kids were here... still I feel so completely blessed and happy. So completely satisfied. Family does that. I pray it does the same for all who read this.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
My weight has gotten stuck once again. However, being stuck is not necessarily a bad thing for me. I know that I have lost some weight. Success breeds success. I know the weight will start to move down again soon if I keep my resolve. I am thankful to know that I can be successful, I can get healthier. This will be a good day, a good week, a good year, a good life!
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Yesterday was not my best day. I didn't meet my nutrition goals and I didn't get in enough exercise. One of the outcomes was an interrupted nights sleep. The result of that has been a lazy morning without my usual energy and enthusiasm. And so the dominoes fall. It's another of those pull myself up by my bootstraps days. But, I can look to the past to remind me that I can do exactly that. I can make today a very good day. Nobody can do it for me, but I don't need or really even want that. It's a no excuse day. I won't think anymore about yesterday or last night. I will focus on this day. I am so thankful to be alive, so thankful to have options, so thankful to know that this day can be just what I want it to be, this day WILL BE exactly what I MAKE IT TO BE!
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