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A week to Prepare

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I just returned from a rush trip to help my daughter with her family of three children and one husband. My daughter had been in the hospital for the third time in as many weeks due to surgery, kidney stones, lithotripsy, stents put in and stents removed. She is a trooper and my hero these days. Her youngest is just 4 months old and will have brain surgery in 9 days. She will come to the children's hospital here so the family will be able to stay with us and I can help as much as possible. My heart is so broken about all of this and yet I know the Lord had purpose and will use it all for good. The baby is strong and so very cute. She is ahead of the curve in everything except growth. Her brothers are so crazy about her as are the rest of us. So, since my return two days ago I've been trying to get things in order here in preparation of their arrival a week from today. Though I love having them here anytime, this time is certainly different. Other family and friends will also arrive for support so it will be a wild few days. Then there will be a time of healing for everyone. As I look forward to all of this I pray for strength for everyone and wisdom for the docs. My daughter's husband is a neurologist so he is keenly aware of all the possible things that could go wrong. I'm focussing on all the things that have and will go right. But, when I do succumb to stress, I add a bit to my workout and activity levels. I sip a glass of water or a cup of tea and I munch on some carrots, a handful of nuts or an apple. That seems to be the very best medicine for me these days. When I sit too much I know it is not good for me in any way. My mind wanders where I don't want it to go. My energy dips. My sleep suffers. Life in general is less satisfying for me and anybody near me. So, I remind myself to keep moving, keep praying, keep an eye towards good nutrition, spend time with encouraging people, and read uplifting words. I know that the best way to help take care of my family is to take care of me. How I feel next week is intimately related to what I do this week. May all your tomorrows be filled with blessings pouring out of your choices for today.

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MEADSBAY 4/28/2010 6:21PM

    Oh, me, oh, my- what a difficult time for you and your family!
I am sending you all the positive energy and uplifting thoughts this medium will allow. You are a very wise woman to take very good care of yourself right now so you are in the best possible condition to care for your loved ones.
Best wishes,

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FANAMAMA 4/28/2010 3:52PM

    I am sending up prayers for your family and the health care providers that will surround you all next week. You have a great attitude and mind set. Take one day at a time.

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One of those days

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

I woke to a smattering of fresh snow. I left the house for a prayer meeting to sunshine and blue skies. I left the church to overcast and drizzle. Those conditions remind me of my own feelings this day. I've been down and up and then down again. I think most of our lives share a thread that is common. When I get overly optimistic and expect to accomplish something important by a particular date and in a particular way, it seems there are often demons of many kinds ready to plant obstacles in my path. It may rain on the day I want to garden or walk at the park. It may blow far too hard for me to trim the shrubs. A migraine may prevent me from finishing that book. The multiple sclerosis I battle may flare in a very unwelcome way that conflicts with everything I had planned for the day. Yet, I know tomorrow will come. I also know that I am quite smart enough to substitute another activity for the one that isn't going to happen. I find that I only really get down when I give in to disappointment. A pity party is not much fun. I'd much rather take a bubble bath, walk on the treadmill, listen to music, pray in a quiet dark place, write a letter, call a friend or any of the countless other things that can easily replace the 'plan'. Goals are awesome. Flexibility is healthy. Life is good!

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MEADSBAY 4/13/2010 10:07PM

    How uplifting this blog is!
We are happier when we are at peace with our lives just as they are and understand what we can control and what we cannot.

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SASKATIA 4/13/2010 9:02PM

  I love to deviate from my plans at times to reward myself.

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ERINLINDSAY83 4/13/2010 6:45PM

    What a positive blog to read! Thanks for sharing! It is a good thing to remember...that you NEED to be flexible in life, because there are always things you cannot control.

Good luck on your journey!

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Another storm or just a little more wind?

Monday, April 12, 2010

After a beautiful beginning to the week, I am sad to feel the windstorm today. Perhaps another real storm is on its way. We'll see. But, I'm using the day to get caught up on so many jobs around here. Bills are calling to me, laundry is not quite finished, ironing awaits and correspondence continues to pile up. There are many phone calls and emails to be returned. But, when my daughter called from far away, I stopped everything. She was back in the hospital over the weekend fighting response to surgery she had two weeks ago coupled with some kidney stones. She went home after they flushed her kidneys and got her pain under control. Meanwhile, I sit here too far away to be of much help. I offered to come, but she thinks she can manage still. With her three young children including a 3 1/2 month with some birth defects all wanting her attention, I can only imagine her current stress level. Still, this is her family now, not mine. I must remind myself that she will tell me to come when she needs me. I was there for her surgery and then she came here after I came home so I could help her some more with the children. She knows I'm here. She knows I'll be there in a heartbeat if she calls for me. So, I wait and pray that all will soon be well once again. My little eaglets left the nest some years ago. They can fly on their own. And, I know they must. There may be a storm on the horizon, but right now it is not my storm. I will sit tight and not let the wind blow me over today. I may bend, but I don't think I'll break any time soon. How are you doing as the winds blow in and through your life today?

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MEADSBAY 4/12/2010 9:07PM

    You have the right attitude- it's hard to watch your kids struggling.
Sounds like you have done a lot already and your daughter knows you're just a phone call away. I hope she's feeling better soon!

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Spring is really here!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I can hardly believe that another winter has gone to sleep and spring flowers are raising their lovely heads everywhere I look. This change of season encourages me so much. I know that I can put away my winter wardrobe and begin wearing those bright and lightweight things that have been sleeping in storage. I somehow wonder if I will fit into those brightly colored clothes this year. I'm continuing to have my ups and downs with weight and exercise, but overall I think I'm headed in a healthy direction. I'm eager to make the time to dig through the drawers and closets and start a new season in earnest. I will trade in my treadmill most days for walks in the beautiful nearby parks. I will trade in my comfy chair for outdoor projects and indoor sprucing up. I look forward to finally buying the glass tiles for my kitchen backsplash and the paint to compliment the job. Everything feels better when the seasons change. Somehow, there is more hope and I become a more positive person as I look around me at all that is in the offing. I may dream big. I may never accomplish all I hope. But, I will never accomplish anything if I don't start by dreaming the possibilities. I hope you are dreaming big this spring!

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NITEMAN3D 4/10/2010 5:44PM

    Reach for the stars. You might not make it, but you could get to walk on the moon a couple of times in the attempt. The cool thing about Spring is that it comes back every year.

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HOPE2BE 4/10/2010 5:20PM

    I love your idea about spring. If we don't dream we don't realize what we can change and make possible. Changes are good. Very good blog.

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REDHATLADY9 4/10/2010 4:37PM

    Spring is here and it brought the pollen with it.

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BECKYCRAFT 4/10/2010 4:23PM

    I loved your post about spring. I have already painted the living room, dining room and hallway area. My hubby went out and mowed and cleaned up the yard today. I am seeing flowers all over my nightly paper route and they are so gorgeous. I love the ones that are pink and purple and lavender and white and look like little bunches of blooms...hyacinth i think.

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Exhausted, but Satisfied

Saturday, April 03, 2010

I just spent a week with my daughter's family while she had some surgery. I took care of her three children (7, 5 and 3 months). It seemed I never stopped moving from early morning until late in the evening. Still, it was such fun and so fulfilling. I drove home exhausted - a seven hour drive that really finished the process of total exhaustion. I have multiple sclerosis and am so pleased that I was able to do what was needed and still get myself home. Children have such enthusiasm, such energy. The enthusiasm is contagious. I wish the energy was as easily caught. If they could bottle and sell it they would be millionaires in no time. Anyway, I was home for two days catching up on some rest, but also catching up on all the things I usually do here. I hosted a large study group the evening after my return. So, it wasn't until he second day that I could actually put my feet up for a bit. Then early the following morning my daughter called to see if it would be o.k. if she brought the children to our home for a few days of their spring break. So, it was hurry, hurry, hurry to get the house ready, plan and prepare for an Easter egg hunt, and find fun little gifts and games for the kids. About eight hours after her call, they were here. We had such fun again. This time my husband got to join in some of the fun after work and on Friday when he could be off for the day. Then early today they were off once again for their own home in time for the Easter bunny to visit there and for all of us to be able to look forward to worship tomorrow in our own churches. I am so exhausted. The day after tomorrow my husband will head off on a business trip and I will once again try to catch up with myself. I may go out of town myself for a couple of days just to get away from the phones and the door and some responsibilities. Yet, as exhausted as I am and despite the many places in my body that suffer pain overload, despite trying recover from two falls while the kids were here... still I feel so completely blessed and happy. So completely satisfied. Family does that. I pray it does the same for all who read this.

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MEADSBAY 4/4/2010 9:38AM

I'm exhausted just READING this!
I know what you mean, though.
I babysit one day a week for my first grandbaby, Lucy, and I'm exhausted by the end of the day- and she's not even walking yet!
It's wonderful.
Please take care of YOU, though.
Happy Easter.
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