Thursday, March 11, 2010
My weight has gotten stuck once again. However, being stuck is not necessarily a bad thing for me. I know that I have lost some weight. Success breeds success. I know the weight will start to move down again soon if I keep my resolve. I am thankful to know that I can be successful, I can get healthier. This will be a good day, a good week, a good year, a good life!
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Yesterday was not my best day. I didn't meet my nutrition goals and I didn't get in enough exercise. One of the outcomes was an interrupted nights sleep. The result of that has been a lazy morning without my usual energy and enthusiasm. And so the dominoes fall. It's another of those pull myself up by my bootstraps days. But, I can look to the past to remind me that I can do exactly that. I can make today a very good day. Nobody can do it for me, but I don't need or really even want that. It's a no excuse day. I won't think anymore about yesterday or last night. I will focus on this day. I am so thankful to be alive, so thankful to have options, so thankful to know that this day can be just what I want it to be, this day WILL BE exactly what I MAKE IT TO BE!
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Well, since I celebrated 37 years of marriage yesterday, I see today as another new year. There have been so many ups and downs, but we have so very much to be thankful for - two beautiful children, two wonderful children-in-law, four adorable grandchildren. After over 30 years with one company, my dear husband just changed jobs to take advantage of his early years of military service. Since that change just happened in the last month - leaving one position, taking a couple weeks off, and starting the new one - we are still sorting it all out. But, my weight has been more challenging and a constant one at that. From average weight at wedding, to too much when I delivered our son, to too light after our daughter was born, too much when our son got married, too light after breast cancer treatment and our daughter's wedding, too heavy after rounds of steroids for multiple sclerosis....to the present. I gained the last time last year in sync with treatments and frustrations so I'm in yet another new beginning. I gained 10 pounds, but have now lost 11 so my progress looks like I only lost one pound on my chart for Spark People.
I suspect others have similar stories of ups and downs of life. We all do. Though it is hard getting back on track, it is what I do. It is what I always do. It is my hope and prayer that this time I will stay on that track. But, in life we never know what might be around that next corner. We have a new granddaughter who needs major surgery in a couple of months. The docs will remove a 2 inch swath of her skull from ear to ear to make room for her brain to grow. They will also move her forehead forward and perhaps adjust her eye sockets. All this for a little person who will be just under 5 months old at the time. Such a doll. Such a sweetheart. So much to have ahead of her. As I try to keep my daughter as calm as possible through this most trying time, I also try even harder to keep my diet and exercise on track to be the strongest I can possibly be. I will care for her other two children during and after the surgery. They can be a handful so I feel so blessed to have such encouragement from Spark People to keep my days on that track.
Yes, it is a new year. There is so much promise and potential. I know some of the bumps ahead, but I don't know the outcomes. I only know that I want to be the best me I can be for whatever might be out there on that big horizon!
Friday, February 26, 2010
I'm helping with a lady recently diagnosed with Alzheimer's. I've known for about 2 years that her dementia was progressing. Now she needs someone to come in four hours each day so she is not alone and remembers to eat. She doesn't understand why people are visiting every day. I tried to explain and she seemed to understand. Yet, I wonder how many others have also explained.
Sometimes trying to lose weight is like this. I forget what I'm trying to do and i make a mistake. Just like my friend, I try again and again. Others might remind me, too. For that I am ever thankful. Buddies are beautiful! My husband is my biggest fan. As i grow older I know it may be that I will someday need similar help as my friend. I hope someone will reach out to me, too. I hope I can always step outside of myself and my struggles to help others around me. As I help someone today, I am so encouraged and blessed through the experience. And a bonus is that while I assist a friend or loved one or even a relative stranger, I am not at that time eating mindlessly as I might do on my own. Win, win, win!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
My community offered a challenge to maintain weight between Thanksgiving and New Year's. I signed up as I had slipped terribly. I had gained 10 pounds over the previous six months or so. Between needing an adjustment to my thyroid medication and having to take a course of steroids for my multiple sclerosis, I gave in to extra hunger and a little bit of depression. However, once I took on the challenge I not only didn't gain weight, but I actually lost a few pounds during that season - probably for the first time of all the holiday seasons I've eaten my way through. When my youngest grand child was born in mid December with a badly fused skull I thought I might drift back into my negative eating habits. But, with her struggles and major surgery to reconstruct much of her head looming on the horizon for early May, I redoubled my efforts to better take care of my own health. I've been so blessed to spend time helping my daughter with this darling little baby, her third child, while my daughter managed her household, held a grand re-opening for the martial arts dojo they recently took over, and supported her though many challenges as her neurologist husband had to travel to take boards pre-test course and then the oral boards (which he passed, awesome!). Since this little family lives in another state it can be challenging to be there as much as needed, but I help whenever possible for a week or so at a time. But, even with being away from my home, I was able to watch my diet and certainly got more exercise at her house that at mine. I think I may have finally gotten to a point where I can eat to live rather than live to eat. I don't mind not finishing every bit and I don't cringe as much when I throw out some of the food. I've been keeping a food diary in a little notebook to remind me where I am throughout the day should I really think about eating something out of boredom, stress, or social event pressure. When I think of my tiny granddaughter and the fact that she might not even survive through her first year, I remember how very precious life is. It is such a gift to witness each new day. To honor this little one, who so far has been such a fighter, I recommit myself as often as I need to. I will take good care of myself so I can be a grandma who can make her proud. I look forward to tea parties, dress up days, cookie baking, ballet, tae kwon do competitions, piano recitals and/or whatever else her future might hold. I want to be a part of it all.
Oh, yes, my community has just put out another challenge that will take me through summer. I think I will register for this one as well. We will walk together one evening each week - in a different park around our city. I may not be in town for all the walks, but when I am I know I will enjoy the company as much as the beauty and the exercise. Keep those challenges coming from any source that makes sense!
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