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Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I am so blessed by you who sent encouraging words in response to my last blog. With blood pressure at 51/29 and respirations of about 6, I know the end is near for my brother. Now, at the end I've seen glimpses of that sweet little boy who was adopted into our family when he was 13 months old. So cute! I was 4 1/2 at the time and loved to mother him. I pray that what he is going through can touch others who may yet escape the dark downward spiral of alcoholism. Meanwhile, our mom is so stressed that she has had to use quite a few of her nitro tablets under her tongue the past few days.
On a lighter note, I tasted some of the hospital food and then decided not to push it onto Chris. One could certainly lose weight on this stuff! Have a great day everyone, and thank you so much. emoticon

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BETHJRN 1/14/2012 8:21AM

    Dear Barbara, I am so sorry to hear of the sad time you are going through. My prayers are with you, your poor brother, his wife, your mother, and the entire family. God is with you during this horrible time. Lean on Him, let Him be your strength.

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JENNIW70 1/12/2012 12:37AM

    Prayers and hugs for you Barbara!

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NURSNANA 1/10/2012 8:10PM

    Barbara, I am so sorry to hear about your brother. I know from experience as a nurse that liver failure is a miserable way to die. I pray he doesn't have to suffer much longer.

I hope you are doing well. I will be praying for your brother and all of you at this sad time.


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Sad outcome coming!

Monday, January 09, 2012

Why do we so often persist in doing things to ourselves that can't possibly have good outcomes? My 'baby' brother's drug of choice has been alcohol for over 35 years. Now he is soon to succumb to liver failure, renal failure a d blood that no longer clots properly. As I helped him get more comfortable at the hospital for the umpteenth time today I prayed and wondered why he had come down this road. Helping him through this has presented me with an odd sort of diet. It has made me desire less of my drug of choice - food. perhaps I will meet a goal or two as we travel together down this difficult path. Disappointment and sadness are tempered by love, but any hope for a different outcome has flown away. I pray this will remind me often that we have just this one body and it is up to us to treat it as the temple it was intended to be. I wish us all much success in our own personal journeys of 2012!
Blessings and hugs to you all!

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1_AMAZING_WOMAN 1/13/2012 5:47PM

    I am so sorry about your brother. My brother died at 38 years old from alcoholic cardiomyopathy. He killed himself with alcohol as many of my relatives have done. It's really sad that people do this because they are in so much emotional pain they feel the need to dull the pain with something.

Some of us do it with food. Food seems 'the socially acceptable addiction', yet it is just as deadly and toxic as alchohol. I get so disappointed in myself cause I try so hard to stop my food addiction and over and over again find myself turning right back to it. I so hope both you and I can succeed in managing our food addiction in a healthy, constructive manner and make all our goals.


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SARAHTAIT 1/12/2012 10:28AM

    I'm so sorry to hear about your brother. I totally understand how addictions, alcohol, drugs, sex, etc. So many of us have an addiction to something.
I'm glad to know that seeing his struggle with his addiction has helped make you aware of yours. I think food is the sneakiest addiction of have to eat to live and can't give it up all together like you can drugs or alcohol.
Your brother is blessed to have you there to help him!
God Bless you!

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BAMAJAM 1/10/2012 11:26AM

  In terrible adversity, there can be valuable lessons learned. I too have seen "demons" destroy my family members. With unwise choices, our lives can be ruined. Physical and emotional health can be wrecked--- and loved ones suffer the severe consequences. No love can "fix" the damage, so the family pain is just heartwrenching! I have watched the program, "intervention"-- and the family of the "diseased" person, are innocent victims!

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MJ7DM33 1/9/2012 10:32PM

  You and your family are in my prayers!!! emoticon

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LITTLEBO 1/9/2012 10:23PM

    Thank you for sharing your story.

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MEADSBAY 1/9/2012 8:04PM

    I am so sorry to hear about your brother, my friend.
He has a disease and, imho, he lost the ability to make it a choice long ago.
He must be in so much pain.
I lost a sister, 54, mother of 5, grandmother of 3, and a brother, 40, father of 4, to alcoholism.


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LITTLELENNA 1/9/2012 7:32PM

    So sorry to hear about the heartache you are dealing with. I guess out of every bad thing, something good is supposed to come. It sounds like you are handling things very well. I pray for you and your family. emoticon emoticon

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Too Much Weekend!

Monday, December 19, 2011

Today I have lots of cleaning up to do ... I also need to res a bit from a really full weekend. It was such fun. Friday was a lot of racing around to plan a birthday party for our two year old grand daughter. Decided on Dora the Explorer and fond all sorts of decor, puzzles, blanket, pjs, socks, panties, toys and dolls. I'd already gotten her too many presents so this was a bit insane, but it all made for an amazing sight when she arrived for dinner party. I also did a cute cake all about Dora using bath toys, adding some cupcakes, candles and the actual cake was not too big. I cooked tur-duck-hen for the first time and filled out the meal with broccoli, green salad, sugar free jello with berries, mashed potatoes, pumpkin rolls, cranberry sauce and choices of light ice cream. Yum! Saturday I went to 2 basketball games to watch grandsons play, went to dojo to watch their tae qwon do class, and shopped for a fridge for our house that our daughter's family is living. Though not very old, the other one died on Friday ... Ouch! After that it was party time and so much fun. Ziva loved that it was all for her! Late that night we had bed and breakfast guests arrive after a wedding. I was so tired, but managed to be sociable and visit with the lovely couple before we all crashed. The money paid for this goes to scholarships tha a women's group I'm part of helps fund. Sunday morning I had to be up before our guests to get offe going and a nic breakfast prepared. The timing was such that I had to midd worship which felt like such a loss. I rested a little by starting a Christmas jigsaw puzzle while watching football with my dh. But the quiet didn't last as we had committed to babysitting 3 grandkids for the evening. We never expected that we would be stuck there until nearly 3:00a.m. Dh had to arrange to take the morning off from work to sleep. He is very unhappy with our daughter and son-in-law right now. Oh well, it was a fun weekend. Now it's onwards to Christmas ... Party and dinner here on Friday and a late flight out that night to spend a week with more family. Can't wait! emoticon

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MEADSBAY 12/20/2011 10:34PM

    Well, I hope you have rested up from your fun but busy weekend, Barbabra, and are feeling up-and-at-tem again.
Merry Christmas!
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Yo yo no more!

Monday, December 12, 2011

I never realized that I've been ruining my metabolism and losing all my muscle by all my yoyo dieting through the years. Now I wonder if I will ever have optimum fat/muscle ratios to best burn through the foods I eat. This is so discouraging. However, knowledge is power so I will investigate how I can turn this around. I know I must give up the yoyo life I've lived for all my adult life. I hope I can truly turn this around and repair the damage I've no doubt done. So, today has begun a hopeful new chapter in which I will focus on strength training more than aerobics for awhile. Hopefully, I will see a difference in how my body uses fuel in the not too distant future. Some may think this is an odd time to begin with Christmas right around the corner, but I say there is no time like the present and tomorrow will only be better if I begin today. As that little engine so eloquently put it, "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can!" emoticon

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JENNIW70 12/13/2011 1:11AM

    I think before Christmas is the best time to start doing what's good for your body! Way to go!

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LIVINGFREE19 12/12/2011 5:52PM

    I have also been on the rollercoaster of weight loss/gain.
It seems my metabolism is in tough shape too but I will keep trying!
Enjoy your week!

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KGWINDER 12/12/2011 4:31PM

    If you don't already have one, I have a great suggestion. Get a scale that showed BMI - they aren't completely accurate (they reflect lower body more than upper body), but it does give you feedback of increasing muscle.

I'm 52 and I can tell you that even while being overweight I can see changes to my muscle mass - it is pretty motivating. So never to late to get better. P.S. love your exercise with making decoration it in, how you can!

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MEADSBAY 12/12/2011 4:19PM

    I've learned this sad fact recently, too.
I bet I have lost and gained and lost and gained and lost and gained 10-20-30 lbs ten or twenty times in the last 30 years.
My metabolism is totally screwed up.
I can't lose wt on 1200 calories any more so I, too, am focusing on building up my muscle with lots of ST.

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Here and There Exercise today

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

For the next few weeks I will be very busy making decorations for a special tree we're donating in honor of our granddaughter. So, to fit in a bit more exercise I do some stretches, squats, jumping jacks and balance work every time I finish an ornament, thread a needle, answer the phone, etc. Whenever there is a break in activity I use that to get a little extra exercise into my days. It is a different way of managing my time so it will take some practice to become habit, but my hope is that it will become a habit that will stick. We'll see. Have a great day everyone. emoticon

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MEADSBAY 12/4/2011 10:49AM

    Grrrrrrrrreat idea!
How's this working for you?


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LOSE4LIFE47 11/8/2011 12:07PM

    That is a great idea!!

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