Saturday, March 26, 2011
This has been a lousy week. Or, at least that's what I thought until I actually recalled the good things and stopped stewing about the bad. Those bad did include stuff I'd rather not fess up to, like eating several servings of candies, caramel popcorn, some ice cream, and some real cream in my coffee a couple of days .... My exercise routine never kicked into gear as it should have. When I shopped for a hat for my 15 month old granddaughter I couldn't make up my mind and ended up buying eight! I gained back the few hard lost pounds from a couple weeks ago...ouch!
However, I also had some very positive moments. I took a long walk around town when I missed my train. I wasn't really going all that far anyway so when I realized it was either hoofing it or waiting for 20 minutes I decided the walk was a better choice. Unfortunately, my body didn't really agree and I could hardly move the next day. - still it was oh-so-much worth it! I got in some odd minutes of stretching and balance work standing first on one foot for as long as I could and then on the other. The blessing from doing more of this recently really hit me this morning when I caught my foot on a brass door stop as I was about to enter a building and though I stumbled forward several steps and was pretty sure I would end up on the pavement, I actually regained my balance. I can't remember when the last time was that I was able to do that (MS has been very challenging that way). I was so excited not to have fallen that I think I had a smile on my face for the whole next hour ...maybe longer!
Even though I bought far more hats than any baby needs, I know how much Ziva loves playing dress up already, especially with my and my dh's hats. I know she will love a basketful of hats that are not so much bigger. Can't wait to watch her play!
Yeah, I did gain some pounds, but I know that I also have lost some and will lose some again. In fact, if I can just find those bootstraps, I think I'll pull them up really hard and see if I can work off some extra calories this weekend. Maybe another little hike will fit in nicely. I've been looking for some lightweight hiking boots now that I can walk a little farther. Maybe I should look for a pair with some really sturdy straps so I can pull on them whenever I find myself stewing over poor choices!
Have a great weekend!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wow, I was so excited that I could earn up to 50 points each day for taking five quizzes. However, after taking five today I realized that now each quiz is only worth 5 points and we can only earn 5 point total per day. Oh, well, it was fun taking the tests. I learned some things. But, I sure do miss those extra 45 points that were there for awhile!
Monday, March 21, 2011
I finally framed and hung family photos in one of our halls. When I look at the photos of myself I see that I left out the ones in which I was really round. Instead, I hung ones where I was partially hidden behind objects or other people or when I was much slimmer than now. But, since I wanted a couple of my babyish photos up, there was no getting around showing how very round that little face of mine was. My DH is a doll. He says our daughter's baby pictures and one of our granddaughters look very much like I did. I have to agree that we do look quite a bit alike. Now, I don't know what that little granddaughter will look like when she's grown...she's only 15 months old now. But, I do know what our daughter looks like and she is beautiful. She struggles to keep weight on ...a problem I can't even relate to at this point in life. Our son-in-law told me years go that she looks just like me. I can't say that I can see such a strong resemblance, but apparently others do. So, now when I look at my chubby photos or my slimmer self along the way, I remember the compliments I've also heard along the way. They echo through that self talk that can be so destructive. This week I intend to recall those kind words each time I begin to think in negative terms about myself. >>>>>> After all, I am a beloved daughter of our Most High God and I know that He doesn't make junk! Praise God and please pass those carrot sticks. Have a great week all of you wonderful SP friends!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
"Fatso", "Chubby", "Fatty", "Waddles" -- Those were the most common names that the mean kids called me when I was a little girl. Even my parents called me chubby as they continually loaded my plate with very unhealthy fare and told me to clean my plate and eat dessert every single day. It wasn't until junior high that I stubbornly refused some of what was put in front of me. I finally slimmed down and during high school and college I was not nearly the fat person I was as a child. Still, those names haunted me and it didn't really matter what the scale or the clothes said I saw fat when I looked in the mirror. The weight went up and down for a lifetime. I continue to struggle. But, now I'm trying to remember how it felt at my slimmest rather than at my fattest. Even when the doctor told me I was underweight I saw fat in the mirror. It has been a difficult journey, but I know I can be slim again. This particular time I'm bouncing around between a couple of measures and am eager to see another dive. But, this winter has brought me continual illness. The illness brought me to comfort foods. My DH brings home things I shouldn't eat, but I can't resist right now. So, I'm struggling a bit, but know that soon all will be back on track. I know I must remember what it feels like to be successful rather that continually hear the echos of those cruel names. I know I can do it better this time.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Every time I feel the least bit down and turn to blog or read from others at SP I am so encouraged. You give me so many good tips, so many great ideas, and so many positive strokes just when I need them most. Today I've begun my fifth course of antibiotics in four months. I just can't seem to get rid of this nasty infection that brings on the fevers, cough, pain and fatigue. The bad news is that it really plays havoc with my workout and other plans. The good news is that I end up catching up on quieter activities - reading, getting into SP, watching movies, writing cards and letters. I suspect I'll finally be done with this bronchitis and pneumonia cycle when the weather turns warmer and I get to be outdoors more. However, since I spend quite a bit of time with small grandchildren, I also suspect that I'll do better when their little immune systems are stronger and they stop coughing in my face. And....so it goes. Today I'm enjoying reading from all of you out there who share such interesting stories, blogs, tips and love. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! You are the BEST!
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