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The Wall in the Hall

Monday, March 21, 2011

emoticonI finally framed and hung family photos in one of our halls. When I look at the photos of myself I see that I left out the ones in which I was really round. Instead, I hung ones where I was partially hidden behind objects or other people or when I was much slimmer than now. But, since I wanted a couple of my babyish photos up, there was no getting around showing how very round that little face of mine was. My DH is a doll. He says our daughter's baby pictures and one of our granddaughters look very much like I did. emoticon I have to agree that we do look quite a bit alike. Now, I don't know what that little granddaughter will look like when she's grown...she's only 15 months old now. emoticon But, I do know what our daughter looks like and she is beautiful. emoticon She struggles to keep weight on emoticon...a problem I can't even relate to at this point in life. emoticon Our son-in-law told me years go that she looks just like me. I can't say that I can see such a strong resemblance, but apparently others do. So, now when I look at my chubby photos or my slimmer self along the way, I remember emoticon the compliments I've also heard along the way. They echo through that self talk that can be so destructive. emoticonThis week I intend to recall emoticon those kind words each time I begin to think in negative terms about myself. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon>>>>>> emoticon emoticon emoticon After all, I am a beloved daughter of our Most High God and I know that He doesn't make junk! Praise God and please pass those carrot sticks. emoticon Have a great week all of you wonderful SP friends! emoticon

  
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MEADSBAY 3/22/2011 8:12PM

    Barbara- I think you are adorable!
How is little Ziva doing?
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TELLITFORWARD 3/22/2011 1:18AM

  Always remember that you are beautiful, and your are right. God doesn't create junk! Beauty comes from inside, and even round, it shows through when He is first. I'll join you in those carrot sticks! :)
Kate

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 3/22/2011 12:49AM

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Remembering when it all began...

Thursday, March 10, 2011

"Fatso", "Chubby", "Fatty", "Waddles" -- Those were the most common names that the mean kids called me when I was a little girl. Even my parents called me chubby as they continually loaded my plate with very unhealthy fare and told me to clean my plate and eat dessert every single day. It wasn't until junior high that I stubbornly refused some of what was put in front of me. I finally slimmed down and during high school and college I was not nearly the fat person I was as a child. Still, those names haunted me and it didn't really matter what the scale or the clothes said I saw fat when I looked in the mirror. The weight went up and down for a lifetime. I continue to struggle. But, now I'm trying to remember how it felt at my slimmest rather than at my fattest. Even when the doctor told me I was underweight I saw fat in the mirror. It has been a difficult journey, but I know I can be slim again. This particular time I'm bouncing around between a couple of measures and am eager to see another dive. But, this winter has brought me continual illness. The illness brought me to comfort foods. My DH brings home things I shouldn't eat, but I can't resist right now. So, I'm struggling a bit, but know that soon all will be back on track. I know I must remember what it feels like to be successful rather that continually hear the echos of those cruel names. I know I can do it better this time. emoticon emoticon

  
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JENNIW70 3/13/2011 12:27AM

    Hi Barbara,

Those words can be so hurtful! If only we would all realize how scarring what comes out of our mouths (either slipping out or intentionally blurted out)! I think the first step to ending the negative voices in our heads, is to recognize it in the first place. You are doing great! You are moving in the right direction. I think focusing on how you felt when you were slimmest and when you felt the most healthy is a good perspective to keep. Hang in there! You'll make it with God's help!

Hugs! Jenni, CWF team

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MEADSBAY 3/12/2011 11:01PM

    Sweetie- I feel your pain. My father started talking about my fat ass when I was about 13. I don't think I ever forgave him.
Try to forgive and forget.
Forgiveness is a gift we give ourselves.
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NURSNANA 3/10/2011 7:50PM

    So sorry to hear you are still struggling with illness. I hope the antibiotics help you this time to totally recover. I know what you mean about grandchildren coughing or sneezing in your face! We have gotten sick with whatever bug our grandchildren had many times. It seems to always take a lot longer for us to recover. Please take good care and get lots of rest! don't worry so much about losing weight, you will get back to losing weight and exercising when your health is restored. I will be praying for you Barbara!
Hang in there.....
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Spark Friends are the Best!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Every time I feel the least bit down and turn to blog or read from others at SP I am so encouraged. emoticon You give me so many good tips, so many great ideas, and so many positive strokes just when I need them most. emoticon Today I've begun my fifth course of antibiotics in four months. emoticon I just can't seem to get rid of this nasty infection that brings on the fevers, cough, pain and fatigue. emoticon The bad news is that it really plays havoc with my workout and other plans. emoticon The good news is that I end up catching up on quieter activities - reading, getting into SP, watching movies, writing cards and letters. emoticon I suspect I'll finally be done with this bronchitis and pneumonia cycle when the weather turns warmer emoticon and I get to be outdoors more. However, since I spend quite a bit of time with small grandchildren, emoticon I also suspect that I'll do better when their little immune systems are stronger and they stop coughing in my face. emoticon And....so it goes. Today I'm enjoying reading from all of you out there who share such interesting stories, blogs, tips and love. emoticon Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! emoticon You are the BEST! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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TELLITFORWARD 2/16/2011 9:04PM

  I did the grandma/childcare thing for eight years. I remember having a tough time getting over pneumonia then. Hope you feel way better very soon.

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MEADSBAY 2/16/2011 8:43PM

    Hope you feel better soon, Barbara.
Enjoying your quiet week?
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This Week is All Mine!

Monday, February 14, 2011

emoticonI just dropped my DH at the airport and he will not get to be back until a week from today. As much as I will miss him, I also look forward to accomplishing much more on a schedule totally of my own making. For example, I look forward to having time and energy to walk outdoors in this beautiful weather and also getting to my little gym a few floors below our condo. I do have several meetings and appointments this week, but I also have oodles of extra time when not having to think about meals or cleaning or laundry so much. I see it as a chance at yet another new beginning of sorts. For example, a friend and I just began a video and book weight loss series. We will compare notes again on Friday and spend some time walking together if the weather holds (snow is predicted, but a lot can change over time). It's also time to gather together all the tax info and this year it is especially complicated so I look forward to having it together for someone else to do. Meals can be very simple - small containers of light yogurt, oatmeal, cheerios, an egg here and there, fresh fruits and veggies and lots of water. I can graze rather than having to sit down to a big meal in the evening as my dh enjoys. I prefer to eat most of my calories during the day and just have something small and light in the evening. If I am successful in losing a few pounds while my dh is away perhaps he will join me in my desired eating plan. He says he wants to lose a few pounds so maybe he won't sabotage me this this around. I have high hopes. Yes, this is the start to a week that is all mine! emoticon

  
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MEADSBAY 2/14/2011 2:32PM

    I could have written this blog word for word!
We miss them, but...
Enjoy the respite and solitude, my friend.
xoxo
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MEGANBY2011 2/14/2011 1:58PM

    Enjoy! emoticon emoticon

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NURSNANA 2/14/2011 1:18PM

    Enjoy your week Barbara!! Sounds like you have some great plans! How is your mom doing now? Happy Valentine's Day my friend!

~hugs!
Nancy
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Life is Good

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I'm putting many of my stressors behind me and choosing to have joy in my life today. I catch myself in negative self talk and immediately go somewhere else in my mind. After all, I have myriad wonderful memories and so many and varied successes as I remember a lifetime that has already rolled out. Often I would be dreading the call from my mother this afternoon as it will once again remind me of how little anyone can do for her, how much she has chosen to be miserable and determined to make everyone around her just as miserable...if there was something I could do to help her I would do it in a heartbeat. But, after so many years of rejection I no longer choose to dwell on this being my responsibility. I get to live in a beautiful place with lovely views out of every window. I have dear friends and prayer partners. I have a partner to begin a weight loss program of accountability. I have a husband who always wants the very best for me and we actually worked out together a few days ago after many years of going our separate ways for that. Yes, life is good. I've been truly blessed with so many good things. The challenges that also are a part of my health and life seem small compared to all that I have to be thankful for. I choose to be thankful today. I choose joy.

  
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JULIAMOONCHILD 1/24/2011 9:30PM

    What a beautiful blog. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and painting a picture of joy, least any of us forget what it looks like.

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TRIGFROST 1/20/2011 11:58AM

    you make your self Happy each day...Your the only one that can in life emoticon

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MEADSBAY 1/19/2011 5:39PM

    You deserve to feel joy every single day.
You are a good person and have given of yourself for many years.
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NURSNANA 1/19/2011 4:57PM

    What a great blog Barbara!

I feel the same way! I could wallow in self-pity due to my loss of mobility and chronic pain. I choose LIFE, BLESSINGS and JOY! Life is GOOD! Focus on the good things in life, and surround yourself with positive people! God is so GOOD!

Your blog reminded me of that old hymn......"Count Your Blessings"?

Thanks Barbara!

~Hugs~
Nancy






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SEDONACAT 1/19/2011 3:46PM

    Yes, put those stressor away and do what you are doing-concentrate on the blessings and joy! Your blog reminded me to do the same.

Deena
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SKINNYPOWELL1 1/19/2011 3:40PM

    Happiness is the best choice for everything. Glad you are experiencing JOY !!!

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