Saturday, September 04, 2010
As I watched reports of Hurricane Earl these past few days a number of things popped into my brain. Lately my life has felt a bit stormy. There is so much chaos around me with our daughter's family living with us, with us buying a condo and preparing to close on that and start moving these boxes I've been packing, with my 96 year old mom whose medical care I'm trying to manage from a couple of states away, with several groups counting on my volunteering, etc. etc. etc. Add to that the chaos of my body that always wants to rebel in response to migraines, fibromyalgia, multiple sclerosis and a thyroid that seems to need constant supervision. It does feel stormy at times. But there are other times, like this very moment when I feel the peace and calm in the eye of that storm. My daughter's family went to work on their house in another state that they are renting rooms to students in while they are here. It is a huge mansion and they didn't feel they could sell it just now. They left their German Shepherd with us and he has been a fun resident. All is ready for our condo close according to our funding agent and realtor, but we're opting only to close a week earlier than originally set. I need the time to pack. We could be camping with a big group this weekend, but with the dog here we decided to just go up for this evening and then for the day tomorrow. Again, less storminess of weathering cold night and setting up all the camp stuff. It will just be peace and beauty and friendship. I continue with my many volunteer endeavors, but for whatever reason each of those is in a calm place at the moment. Praise God. Each brings a different joy to my life and what can sometimes be difficult and stressful is so peaceful today. It is lovely to be resting in the eye. But, I know it can't last. I will use this time to catch my breath, get some exercise, get some sleep, pack a few boxes and enjoy my husband and friends. I know the storminess will be here soon enough. Sometime Monday afternoon the other side of that hurricane will be upon us. And so it goes. Storms come and go and if we and our loved ones survive we have much to be thankful for. I hope you are having a day that brings you whatever it is that you need the very most just now. Blessings
Thursday, September 02, 2010
We're downsizing to a small condo soon and we've just gone through the inspection process. So many little details that add up to a lot of dollars. Will the seller agree to pay or will it all fall to us? I don't know, but it got me to thinking about the inspection process of myself. I do look at myself and pick at all the little flaws.
I focus on all the details that are wrong - those few gray hairs, the dry skin, the lack of coordination and energy, those stubborn pounds, the bad choices, the fitful sleep, etc. etc. etc. Negative, so negative. All this negative thinking brings me to unhealthy places.
When I look at what will soon be my new home I see a beautifully remodeled space all on one level. I see the roof garden and amazing views. I see the exercise room, the hot tub, the sauna, the lovely clubhouse space. I can also look at me and see the wife, the daughter, the mother, the sister, the friend, the volunteer, and the GRANDMA. I see the years of wonderful memories and the wonderful memories yet to be made. I see the healthy foods and water that have given me enough energy for this day. I see the results of a decent number of sleep hours. I see the gifts and blessings that flow into and through my life. Yes, I think...there is a time for inspection. And there is a time to give thanks and a time to enjoy this moment. I pray you have many joyous moments today as you see the wonderful you that you are right now!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
I am so exhausted. Everyone in my household has been sick. That's part of the 'joy' of having grandkids living here and returning to school. They left for their house this morning for a weekend with daddy who isn't able to move here until March due to his practice contract (neurologist). Anyway, we have four days and nights without the little ones so I'm hoping I can get some things done that need doing. But, I also hope we can get healthy here as there is a move in our future in about 4 weeks. I must spend time each day sorting and discarding. I'm glad there is so much to co that is so physical. I know this is good for me on so many levels. But, still it is hard, very hard. I look forward to the weekend when my husband will be here to help. I think we can accomplish a lot if we just determine to do so. Yes, I'm worn out...again! But, I do see the light at the end of the tunnel and am thankful for every moment of extra movement this allows me to do. Have a great day everyone!
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