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In the Eye of the Storm

Saturday, September 04, 2010

emoticonAs I watched reports of Hurricane Earl these past few days a number of things popped into my brain. Lately my life has felt a bit stormy. emoticon There is so much chaos around me with our daughter's family living with us, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon with us buying a condo and preparing to close on that and start moving these boxes I've been packing, with my 96 year old mom whose medical care I'm trying to manage from a couple of states away, emoticon with several groups counting on my volunteering, etc. etc. etc. Add to that the chaos of my body that always wants to rebel in response to migraines, fibromyalgia, multiple sclerosis and a thyroid that seems to need constant supervision. emoticon It does feel stormy at times. But there are other times, like this very moment when I feel the peace and calm in the eye of that storm. My daughter's family went to work on their house in another state that they are renting rooms to students in while they are here. emoticon It is a huge mansion and they didn't feel they could sell it just now. They left their German Shepherd with us and he has been a fun resident. emoticon All is ready for our condo close according to our funding agent and realtor, but we're opting only to close a week earlier than originally set. I need the time to pack. We could be camping with a big group this weekend, emoticon but with the dog here we decided to just go up for this evening and then for the day tomorrow. Again, less storminess of weathering cold night and setting up all the camp stuff. It will just be peace and beauty and friendship. I continue with my many volunteer endeavors, but for whatever reason each of those is in a calm place at the moment. Praise God. emoticon Each brings a different joy to my life and what can sometimes be difficult and stressful is so peaceful today. It is lovely to be resting in the eye. But, I know it can't last. I will use this time to catch my breath, get some exercise, emoticon get some sleep, emoticon pack a few boxes emoticon emoticon emoticonand enjoy my husband and friends. emoticon I know the storminess will be here soon enough. Sometime Monday afternoon the other side of that hurricane will be upon us. And so it goes. Storms come and go and if we and our loved ones survive we have much to be thankful for. I hope you are having a day that brings you whatever it is that you need the very most just now. Blessings emoticon

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ANNE-ELIZ 9/5/2010 10:29PM

    Enjoy the calm!... whether it's the calm before the storm or that inside the eye...

It's important to know whether to batten down the hatches or run for cover...

but for now, just enjoy! emoticon

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ANNTORR53 9/5/2010 7:37PM

    You life has similarities to mine. I have been a live in caregiver for my mother and I work a full time job. I also just have to ask God for discernment and strength to continue. When my stress level is high it is very hard for my body to let go. I need the calm time now. I am in the process of moving out of my mom's. I have to take care of myself which is not an easy thing for me to do. I am a caretaker and I am too codependent.

Humm..... I think I needed to say that. Codependency.

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SARAHTAIT 9/5/2010 7:46AM

    I can totally relate-my life has been once big storm yet I seek His face during it and find my peace and try my best to stay sane during these times when all chaos is breaking things apart. Thank God for sending us His Son to give us Rest when we are weary.

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DEE107 9/4/2010 10:42PM

    Hope the storm passed you by as it did us too Hugs

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SMIDGON 9/4/2010 6:11PM

    I too have migraines, fibromylgia, chronic fatique. When all these ravage us at the same time, it is very dramictic. We just do what we have to do. It's hard, very hard.
God Bless and keep up the best you cn do.
smidgon emoticon

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MEADSBAY 9/4/2010 5:14PM

    We really have to just pause and make the time to appreciate those peaceful moments in our lives.

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JUDY4652 9/4/2010 4:10PM

    You are juggling everything extremely well at the moment, and making the right decisions to still be able to join in things with your friends without upheavals. Well done!! Enjoy your weekend, and stay safe!

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KSHAGGY 9/4/2010 4:02PM

    Very nicely said....enjoy your weekend!

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Thursday, September 02, 2010

We're downsizing to a small condo soon and we've just gone through the inspection process. emoticon So many little details that add up to a lot of dollars. Will the seller agree to pay or will it all fall to us? I don't know, but it got me to thinking about the inspection process of myself. I do look at myself and pick at all the little flaws. emoticon
I focus on all the details that are wrong - those few gray hairs, the dry skin, the lack of coordination and energy, those stubborn pounds, the bad choices, the fitful sleep, etc. etc. etc. Negative, so negative. All this negative thinking brings me to unhealthy places.
When I look at what will soon be my new home I see a beautifully remodeled space all on one level. I see the roof garden emoticon emoticon and amazing views. I see the exercise room, emoticon the hot tub, the sauna, the lovely clubhouse space. I can also look at me and see the wife, the daughter, the mother, the sister, the friend, the volunteer, and the GRANDMA. emoticon I see the years of wonderful memories and the wonderful memories yet to be made. I see the healthy foods emoticon and water that have given me enough energy for this day. emoticon I see the results of a decent number of sleep hours. emoticon I see the gifts and blessings that flow into and through my life. Yes, I think...there is a time for inspection. And there is a time to give thanks emoticon and a time to enjoy this moment. emoticon I pray you have many joyous moments today as you see the wonderful you that you are right now! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ANNE-ELIZ 9/3/2010 9:58PM


What a great blog!

Thank you. emoticon

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MEXGAL1 9/2/2010 10:39PM

    great blog. thanks for sharing.

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MEADSBAY 9/2/2010 9:05PM

I loved this blog.

(btw- home inspectors always feel like they have to find things to justify their fees- negotiate w/the sellers)

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NURSNANA 9/2/2010 8:34PM

    Good reminder for all of us! You are not alone when you slip into negative thoughts! Your condo sounds so lovely! I hope someday we can move into a condo! Thanks for all of your thought provoking blogs! Hugs, Nancy emoticon

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KAREN42BOYS 9/2/2010 6:31PM

    what a beautiful and fresh way of looking at this!

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JUDY1676 9/2/2010 6:07PM

    What a great reflection! Thanks for sharing!

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GRANPATTIE 9/2/2010 3:45PM

    This was such a nice blog. We sometimes get trapped into all those "little things" about ourselves and forget about all the blessings. When I count mine today, you'll be one of them! Thanks for posting this.



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SPEEDY143 9/2/2010 3:26PM

    emoticonI'll be counting my blessing today... and naming them one by one emoticon

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Worn out --- not again!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

I am so exhausted. Everyone in my household has been sick. That's part of the 'joy' of having grandkids living here and returning to school. They left for their house this morning for a weekend with daddy who isn't able to move here until March due to his practice contract (neurologist). Anyway, we have four days and nights without the little ones so I'm hoping I can get some things done that need doing. But, I also hope we can get healthy here as there is a move in our future in about 4 weeks. I must spend time each day sorting and discarding. I'm glad there is so much to co that is so physical. I know this is good for me on so many levels. But, still it is hard, very hard. I look forward to the weekend when my husband will be here to help. I think we can accomplish a lot if we just determine to do so. Yes, I'm worn out...again! But, I do see the light at the end of the tunnel and am thankful for every moment of extra movement this allows me to do. Have a great day everyone!

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ANNE-ELIZ 9/1/2010 10:21PM

    How familiar is that refrain!? Feel a bit better, work really hard, get really exhausted, rest a bit, feel a bit better, work a bit harder get even more exhausted.

That's not to say that there's not a vast amount of stuff to do.

Maintaining balance when the ground keeps changing beneath us is no easy feat.

Figuring out the difference between being tired and being EXHAUSTED and what it takes to get back from each of those states, is a very difficult proposition. emoticon

I second the motion for rest! emoticon

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DJ4HEALTH 8/26/2010 4:08PM

    Make sure that you get plenty of rest. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NKBEAUTY 8/26/2010 4:00PM

    Sorry to hear that you are tired...I know EXACTLY how you feel. Wishing you a nice rest...take care,

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One step forward...

Monday, August 23, 2010

I got to spend a couple of hours tending two of my grandchildren emoticon this morning while my daughter took the oldest one off to the first day of school emoticon and then went for her regular run. emoticon She is always on the move. I remember a time when I could be much more like her. Now, with the multiple sclerosis and fibromyalgia dictating some of my life, emoticon I am most thankful that I can still play with the little ones. Since they moved in about two weeks ago it does seem like I have a little more ability to move more. emoticon Add to that the push to start discarding lots and packing up some things for our upcoming move emoticon and I see myself on a pretty healthy track. One change that has not been positive is the acute and complete fatigue that overwhelms me several times each day now. emoticon I think it is the ms telling me to slow a bit. I just remembered the medication I used to take to be able to drive to and from work years ago and found I still had some. So, took some provigil this morning and am eager to see if that will thwart the fatigue episodes. I hate to have to take time out from an other wise fun and productive day. emoticon I'd much rather keep putting one foot in front of another emoticonand take that one step forward each day emoticon....maybe more that one step forward today! emoticon emoticon emoticon Hooray. Have a blessed week everyone! Thanks for stopping by. emoticon

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SMILEYBEE 8/23/2010 10:56PM

    Hi there! Hope your energy level goes up and your pain level goes down! Keep up that good attitude!

I was in Park City all weekend celebrating the finalization of our grandson's adoption. I'm headed back down there tomorrow so I can babysit him on Wednesday and Thursday. His big sisters start back to school on Thursday. How fun to get to be a part of all that ... hope my energy holds out!

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JMELLISSA 8/23/2010 1:34PM

    Hi there, was looking though the top blogs and seen yours. First I love the way your write with all the little pic, just too cute (-:

I love your attitude towards keeping your self moving...
emoticon keep up the good work.

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Birthday Goals

Saturday, August 21, 2010

I don't remember when I last set goals to accomplish by my birthday so thought to myself early this morning...there's no time like today! So here's my hope for that magic date - 10/5:
1. Walk a 5K
2. Find a condo to downsize into
3. Lose 5 more pounds
4. Finish clearing out debris from all my closets and cupboards: Debris = clothes I don't/can't wear, expired foods, duplicate appliances and tools and such, useless papers, books I won't use again, etc. etc. etc.
5. Finish one of my crochet projects or my granddaughter's Christmas stocking
6. Start packing to move

If I can hit these marks I will feel pretty successful! emoticon

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SARAHTAIT 8/22/2010 12:17PM

    Wonderful goals....sounds like you are simplifying your life and what greater goals can there be than that?? Walking that 5K race is a great goal also...I am so proud of your accomplishments. When is your birthday??? How long have you given yourself to accomplish all these goals or do you have a time limit set??? Just wondering!!! So awesome!!

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KAREN42BOYS 8/21/2010 9:38PM

    these are great goals! i really like them a lot, and i've worked through many of them myself.

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