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Monday, July 19, 2010

emoticonKlutziest kid on the block so long ago...ME! emoticon
-I managed to break my toe walking home from kindergarten. emoticon
-I wrecked my bike by running it into a metal railing on my first ride by neglecting to turn emoticon
-I fell down the escalator on my first ride emoticon
-I fell down in the department store by standing still as instructed by my mom emoticon
-I broke my wrist the first (and only) time on ice skates emoticon
emoticonKlutziest kid on the block today....STILL ME! emoticon
-Fell off kitchen stool when I forgot which step I was on - just last week emoticon
-Got all scratched up falling into a rose bush - also recently emoticon
-Fell over my daughter's dog emoticon
-Dropped dinner on the kitchen floor emoticon emoticon
...and so much more

You would think I would learn from some of these experience and the many, many other similar not-so-fun things in my life. But, for some unknown reason I seem to need to continually relearn. emoticon Either I'm a slow learner - possibly. emoticon Enjoy embarrassment and pain - not so much. emoticon Am innately uncoordinated - perhaps. emoticon Or could it all be related to my weight issues? emoticon That is the answer that many folks around me through the years decided was the right one. emoticon I've been an easy target emoticon for abuse and name calling in general. It's tough enough picking myself up off the sidewalk when nobody is watching. emoticon It is death to do it when onlookers point and laugh. emoticon Junior high boys have probably been the worst offenders, but they are certainly not the only ones. emoticon
The sad part is that when someone has a mishap we should be first in line to offer assistance. I wonder why so few are willing to go out of their way to help another. None of us is perfect. All of us need help now and then. All of us can help now and then. emoticon
I have multiple sclerosis and probably the most emotionally devastating fall happened when I tumbled while carrying a big pile of clothing I was about to purchase. When I fell I had to crawl quite a distance to find something to push up from. I really struggle to get off the floor without some sort of assistance. emoticonIt was just before Christmas and the store was packed. I think that more than 50 people walked by me as I struggled. Not one offered to help. When I finally did get up, gather my items back into my arms and got through the check out process, I went to my car and just cried. emoticon Where has our humanity gone? emoticon Where is the empathy and sympathy? emoticon What gives anyone the right to abuse another human because of weight, or illness, or because of anything else?
I will always be klutzy. emoticon That's just how it is. I pray that I will never just walk past someone in need. I imagine many of my Spark friends have also endured similar sad and disappointing moments. I also imagine it has made each of you stronger and more eager to help wherever you see the need. God bless you for every kindness. For every kind of empathy, sympathy, kindness and assistance....The Award Goes To YOU!

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ANNE-ELIZ 7/20/2010 12:59PM

    I wonder if at least some of the incidents you ascribe to "klutziness" might not be due, in part, to symptoms of your MS? (Before I was diagnosed, I used to say that I tripped over dust! emoticon)

I've noticed from some of your other blog posts how active you are and how much you do, for your family and others.

Sometimes that can keep us from paying attention to our own needs and extending ourselves beyond what we should do. I only say this because it is a pattern that I recognize in myself. We justify overextending ourselves because we tell ourselves that others' needs are greater, or we can rest later, but "later" rarely comes...

I gather that you are mostly ambulatory, but I'm sure that you have some symptoms and that these might interfere with coordination and balance. I'm also sure that fatigue (and heat) makes any symptoms you do have worse. Also, with too much to do, we sometimes don't have our full attention on our current task.

Also, things change; symptom patterns vary. Have you had an evaluation by a physical or occupational therapist? Your doctor can refer you. Once you know if there is a specific issue you can address it. Specific exercises and rest at appropriate times can help. If you have a foot drop that's causing you to trip, there are orthoses that can help.

However, no matter what the situation, the cause of the incident,or the preconceptions they might have, for people to just stand by when someone clearly needs help, is just wrong! I'm so sorry about your experiences with people who seem to lack even the slightest bit of empathy. I apologize on their behalf, because they clearly have no clue!

I have been lucky in that I have not had such experiences, but they could not be anything but hurtful. emoticon emoticon

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MEADSBAY 7/20/2010 8:59AM

    As a famous klutz myself, I started out reading your blog laughing! emoticon

But by the end I was tearing up. emoticon

I cannot imagine walking past a person who has fallen.


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TIME2BLOOM4ME 7/19/2010 10:20PM

    I can relate. I fell outside of the grocery store. People stopped and stared at me and no one offered to help me up.


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NURSNANA 7/19/2010 8:27PM

    I can sure relate to your problem! I have always been a klutz too. It is not so funny to fall down, and worse if no one tries to give a bit of assistance. I am so sorry no one helped you in that store. I put off using a scooter in the big stores because I was embarrassed to be seen on one, and felt people could make fun of me. My experience has been totally the opposite! Everyone has been so kind to me, and even offer to get items on the top shelf, and offer to unload my groceries at the checkout! I have to park in the handicap parking and I have had people come over and offer to put my groceries into my car! It has been amazing how kind I have been treated. I can fall easily because my legs are so weak and my balance is not good. I have started using a cane some days to prevent me from falling down. It has really helped me! Thanks for sharing your experiences, and for all the good blogs!!

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Goal: Blog Daily this Week, Day 7

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Day 7...I made it! emoticon Today has been filled with gardening emoticon and house cleaning in prep for our kids arriving Tuesday night. I am drained, but it feels so good to get some things accomplished. emoticon After my tumble on Thursday I decided no more climbing on things for awhile. I think I will sleep well tonight after all this activity. emoticon I did make a batch of cupcakes emoticon for a picnic tomorrow up one of the canyons with a bunch of friends from church. Seemed so strange to be making something so sweet after all my healthy cooking of late. Hopefully there won't be any leftovers for me to bring home. I don't need the temptations. emoticon Hope this finds all of you enjoying a wonderful weekend. emoticon Blessings. emoticon

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 7/18/2010 5:26PM

    Goto love that Gardening !!! emoticon

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BALLOUZOO 7/17/2010 7:17PM

    Great blog, fun to read.

Best wishes on your wellness journey!

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Goal: Blog Daily this Week, Day 6

Friday, July 16, 2010

emoticonI sort of fell off the wagon. Well, not exactly the wagon. emoticon Actually I fell off the top of a little step stool in my kitchen yesterday. I was climbing up to get some things from the cupboard above the fridge. It's as deep as the fridge and I needed to reach to the back almost. That part was fine. But, when I went to come down for some reason I thought I was on a lower step rather than on the top of the thing. I think that has to do with the MS a bit. I tend to forget important details as easily emoticon as I forget minor ones. emoticon Anyway I flew across the kitchen tile and landed mostly on my left elbow and my lower back on the right side. I bumped my head a bit but nothing serious there. emoticon So, I have some pretty vivid bruises to show for my stupidity. As the day wore on I started hurting more and more - neck on fire, back wrenched, hip pain is especially bad when I go up the stairs. emoticon Fortunately, I suspected the pains might set in so I quickly got into my car emoticonto do the grocery shopping while I could still maneuver. emoticon It was difficult to raise my right leg to work the gas and brake, but otherwise no problem. This is certainly not the blog I had intended to write, but here it is. Today I did get to a coffee emoticonwith about 25 friends this morning followed by a memorial service. emoticon Then I went shopping for some matching outfits for my little cousin grand daughters (21 months and almost 7 months) emoticon emoticon for our reunion next week. I'm hoping their moms will consent to having them dress alike for some photos. emoticon I hit an amazing sale and ended up buying three outfits for each of the girls and a couple of outfits and a pair of really cute shoes for myself. emoticon I spent about $140, but got retail value of about $450. I felt really proud of myself even though the physical experiencing of all the driving and walking was pretty uncomfortable. I was proud of myself for getting out there and moving about when my body kept yelling at me to stay still. emoticon I know I will recover faster by moving than by staying too still. Everything hurts, but everything still moves. My nemesis, emoticonthe scale greeted me with a 2 pound weight loss. Not so sure I believe it, emoticon but maybe. Actually, that would take me back to what I have on my page from my last update. emoticon Up and down and up and down I go. However, it also tells me that I've lost some of the body fat. emoticonI thought that might be the case since my watch just spins around my wrist now. I need to make another hole for the buckle. My wrists aren't exactly where I need to lose weight, but at least it's an indicator of good things. emoticon I pray all of you have a safe, happy and active weekend. Blessings Friends! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MGONSER 7/16/2010 10:05PM

  OUCH! It doesn't take many of us MS'ERS to turn suddenly or trip over the littlest things like in my case, ants : ) but we do and then i know I eventually get used to the color purple all over, it's time when i do that to remind myself just slow down and think what you are doing. You were smart to do your chores fast before u really started hurting and I hope u don't hurt too badly tomorrow. Congrats on the good shopping deals too, what a buy....good for u! Have a restful and happy weekend.
emoticon on the weight loss too!!!

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MEADSBAY 7/16/2010 9:11PM

    Yikes- hope your bruises are only skin deep and heal fast.
I thought your wrists were looking skinnier!

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Goal: Blog Daily this Week, Day 5

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Ouch! emoticon I seem to have awoken in a very low mood. No, wait, that's not true. I woke up hoping for a great day. emoticon Then I stepped on the scale. emoticonThat changed everything for the worse. Why do I let that little thing cause such drama in my days? emoticon I know it helps me keep from really getting off track, but when it is stubborn and evil emoticon to me I just feel awful. emoticon Then begin the recriminations, that horrid negative self talk. As I began to spiral down, down, down I knew I had to find the brake. A few deep breaths. A few minutes of stretching. emoticon A bit of walking about the house and organizing some of my space. Opening the drapes. Coffee on my deck. emoticon Watching the birds and butterflies. emoticon Looking at the mountains. Little by little I shed the momentary depression and replaced it with new optimism. emoticon The self talk became more positive. I have hope for my day, hope for success. And, that success is not all about weight. So, why will that scale still dictate my immediate frame of mind when I step on it again tomorrow morning? emoticon It is a mystery. emoticon But, I won't think about that now. I have too many good plans for my day. emoticon Blessings to all my Spark friends. Have a great day! emoticon emoticon

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MARY1618 7/16/2010 10:56AM

    I think both of the last two people are right on. Just weigh in once a week will help.
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VIVIANJ5 7/16/2010 2:33AM

    Okay, I have the solution: Chuck the scale! Or at least hide it...

I have struggled for years with trying to get past letting the number on the scale dictate my mood/attitude/self-image. And have finally been having some success. But then there are the days when that number just throws me so far off, especially when I feel like I've done everything right (eating, exercise, positive mood) and the number either stays the same or goes up!!

I'm finally going to listen to everyone (my husband, my sister, my therapist!) who have been telling me to get rid of the scale. I'm asking my husband when he gets home from his business trip to hide the scale (somewhere high, since I'm short!) . And then I'm going to focus on all the good things that are happening: the increased activity, the better food choices, the lessening of emotional eating episodes. All of this leads to better health, even if the scale isn't showing any of this.

Will you join me? We can do this, without the scale. Plus, our clothes will tell the real story, anyway!

Take care!

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MEADSBAY 7/15/2010 9:12PM

    The same thing happens to me some days.
You handled it exactly the right way!

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Goal: Blog Daily this Week, Day 4

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

emoticonIt's another hot hot day here, but I got myself up and going very early for me and was thrilled to see a new day dawn. emoticon Then I read a bit and listened to the news while I organized my kitchen. emoticonAfter prayer and some study I actually got myself out the door. I should have gone much earlier before the world began to heat up. emoticon Pokey me took my own sweet time getting out, but once out I really moved...for me, at least. emoticonI'm not the fastest walker, but the walk to the park and the friendly greetings to and from others working in their gardens, emoticonwalking their dogs, or out walking like me got those feel good chemicals circulating in this little brain of mine. emoticon The park was filled with children from various day cares and summer programs. emoticon There were moms with their little ones and their were older folks sitting in the shade and some younger ones playing tennis. emoticon I hopped on the trail and walked about two miles. So glad I brought water along. By the time I was on my way home it had gotten a little hotter than my multiple sclerosis likes me to move about in. emoticon When I opened my front door to the pleasantly air conditioned house, I eagerly downed even more water. It tasted sooooo good! emoticon I was tired, but so refreshed and pretty proud of myself. emoticon I know it doesn't sound like a lot, but for me it was. I may yet get on the treadmill emoticonto walk a bit later and I've been on my stability ball emoticon and will do more of that as I have a minute here and there. But, mostly, this afternoon I'm going to organize another area of my house. There is much to do to make room for my daughter's family of five to move in next month. emoticon I think I'll even take some time to look at more condos on the market. We really need to be on our way out of here so the kids can have the place pretty much to themselves. Every day holds so much promise, emoticon so many opportunities. When I think of the wasted days and hours of my life I get a little sad. emoticon But even those times had meaning in the great whole scheme of things. emoticon I'm so thankful that today I can move about. I will enjoy this day fully. emoticon I pray you will all enjoy your day completely as well. Blessings! emoticon

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LORIAPO 7/15/2010 1:00PM

    I do not have ms, but I can identify with you & your feelings about what you had to say at the end of your blog.
I sounds like you are very strong & fighting the good fight to keep going & be active & productive.
I pray you have a very successful day.
emoticon Spark on!

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LOVE_2_LAUGH 7/15/2010 12:35PM

    I'm tired just reading about what you've done already today! But it does sound like a very pleasant day. I hope it continues to be a great day!

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ANA_BLOGGER 7/15/2010 11:43AM

    What a wonderful sounding day!
And that walk seemed emoticon to me! :)
Keep up the great work, and i'm glad ur getting ur water in! It's important in all this heat!


Enjoy your day today! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 7/15/2010 1:32AM

    You are doing such a good job exercising. Keep it UP !!! emoticon

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