Thursday, July 15, 2010
Ouch! I seem to have awoken in a very low mood. No, wait, that's not true. I woke up hoping for a great day. Then I stepped on the scale. That changed everything for the worse. Why do I let that little thing cause such drama in my days? I know it helps me keep from really getting off track, but when it is stubborn and evil to me I just feel awful. Then begin the recriminations, that horrid negative self talk. As I began to spiral down, down, down I knew I had to find the brake. A few deep breaths. A few minutes of stretching. A bit of walking about the house and organizing some of my space. Opening the drapes. Coffee on my deck. Watching the birds and butterflies. Looking at the mountains. Little by little I shed the momentary depression and replaced it with new optimism. The self talk became more positive. I have hope for my day, hope for success. And, that success is not all about weight. So, why will that scale still dictate my immediate frame of mind when I step on it again tomorrow morning? It is a mystery. But, I won't think about that now. I have too many good plans for my day. Blessings to all my Spark friends. Have a great day!
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
It's another hot hot day here, but I got myself up and going very early for me and was thrilled to see a new day dawn. Then I read a bit and listened to the news while I organized my kitchen. After prayer and some study I actually got myself out the door. I should have gone much earlier before the world began to heat up. Pokey me took my own sweet time getting out, but once out I really moved...for me, at least. I'm not the fastest walker, but the walk to the park and the friendly greetings to and from others working in their gardens, walking their dogs, or out walking like me got those feel good chemicals circulating in this little brain of mine. The park was filled with children from various day cares and summer programs. There were moms with their little ones and their were older folks sitting in the shade and some younger ones playing tennis. I hopped on the trail and walked about two miles. So glad I brought water along. By the time I was on my way home it had gotten a little hotter than my multiple sclerosis likes me to move about in. When I opened my front door to the pleasantly air conditioned house, I eagerly downed even more water. It tasted sooooo good! I was tired, but so refreshed and pretty proud of myself. I know it doesn't sound like a lot, but for me it was. I may yet get on the treadmill to walk a bit later and I've been on my stability ball and will do more of that as I have a minute here and there. But, mostly, this afternoon I'm going to organize another area of my house. There is much to do to make room for my daughter's family of five to move in next month. I think I'll even take some time to look at more condos on the market. We really need to be on our way out of here so the kids can have the place pretty much to themselves. Every day holds so much promise, so many opportunities. When I think of the wasted days and hours of my life I get a little sad. But even those times had meaning in the great whole scheme of things. I'm so thankful that today I can move about. I will enjoy this day fully. I pray you will all enjoy your day completely as well. Blessings!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
So yesterday I walked. It was almost 80*F when I walked to mail something to my mom. It was nearly 90*F when I tried out a new path to my nearby park -- very steep and no tree cover where it was rerouted. No railing for me to pull myself up on or help me with balance on the way down, but I made it all the way up and back - not a long walk, but hard for me with the MS acting up a bit more in this heat. Then I walked on the treadmill and added a few short jog intervals for good measure. I was really good about keeping my calories in check and hit all my goal ranges for calories, carbs, fat, protein, and fiber. I downed all the water I was supposed to drink. So, why didn't the scale move down like I expected it would? Since I've battled with hypothyroid issues since my chemo days, I wonder if it is time for another adjustment??? I have a physical scheduled for next week. It should be interesting. If this weight keeps being stuck I'll have to look elsewhere for an answer. It can be discouraging when I do all the right things and still don't lose weight. I know I could drop weight if I cut way back on calories - starvation mode. There was a time when I only 'ate' tea and coffee for an extended period. But, all the best info says this is bad. That's the way I used to get rid of unwanted pounds, but no more. I will continue tracking and doing the right things and hopefully, results will follow. I have seen some non weight related benefits. Hooray! I'll keep watching for those - i.e. more energy , better sleep , better attitude . I just keep reminding myself that those things are important, too! Have a great day everyone.
Monday, July 12, 2010
The good news is that I didn't gain weight over the weekend that included a dinner out at Macaroni Grill with my husband on Friday, a lunch reception on Saturday, a jazz concert in a cocktail lounge that night, and a dinner party at a country club with 16 friends on Sunday. The even better news is that I lost a few ounces in the process. I actually made some pretty healthy choices while away from home and even got in some extra exercise. Since we almost never eat out this was a very unusual weekend for us. The extra exercise came in the form of an unplanned evening walk when we parked at the wrong place for the jazz concert at the Snowbird Resort. We ended up walking more than a mile uphill to get to the right building and there were lots of stairs to navigate along the way through the maze of buildings and trail systems. The return to the car was all downhill which was a good thing because I was really tired. I was sure that the glass of white wine and the cup of coffee with Kaluha would do me in, but the evening was kind. Sunday night I was sure that the orange roughy tostada followed by gelato and berries would be killer, but once again all turned out fine. We did go walking after that meal as we revisited a couple of the condo sites we are considering. It seems that each time I was afraid I would get myself into trouble there was some extra walking and the menu choices really weren't too bad. I ended up ordering Chicken Marsala at the Macaroni Grill on Friday and only ate half. The rest is still in my fridge which may be lunch and snack for today.
What did this weekend prove? Well, it proved that I can be social, have fun with food and friends, and still come home a winner!
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