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Almost 2 years! What a difference!

Monday, August 06, 2012

My last blog was in October of 2010. A lot has changed in my life since then. I was diagnosed with cancer in November of 2010. My life seemed to spiral out of control. I had taken my mother to get her mammogram and decided to get mine at the same time. It was mom I was concerned for. Had her cancer come back? Was she going to be able to fight it again?

No she did not have cancer again but I now had cancer! They were almost positive just by reading the mammogram. The biopsy happened in December. Yes it was cancer and no they did not get it all in the biopsy. The good news was that it was a slow growing type. The bad news is that it was the size of a hot dog bun in circumference and half the length. This meant another operation but not before some more test to make sure it had not spread. Not before seeing a plastic surgeon to plan a reduction and a reconstruction. Not before seeing a radiologist oncologist. Not before seeing an oncologist. Everything was then in place. Then the big operation. Lymph nodes taken and then the wait. Was there clear margins this time? Were the nodes clear of cancer or had it spread to them?

But while I waited I had to have another surgery a week later. Then nodes came back clean and yes there is a clear margin!!! Yes, now to regain my strength and take control of my life again! But no, not yet! An infection sets in! Another stay in the hospital that is even longer than after the mastectomy and reconstruction. They cant seem to clear it up with medication so its under the knife again! Then just when I think it is starting to heal I find a new lump! It very painful! Another infection? Cancer? Under the knife again to find out! No caner, No infection! Its scar tissue build up that is pushing into a nerve.

I had all the emotions. FEAR Anger, self pity, depression. The weight came on.

Well all that is behind me now! I am LUCKY! I am alive and have decided to live! I am eating healthy and exercising! I treasure every day that I can spend with my family. OOOOh yeah there was just a biopsy a week ago today! No cancer just fatty scar tissue! I am on a plateau right now! Who cares? This isn't about the scale! Its about me being alive to live a healthy life!

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PATSYB7 8/26/2012 8:14PM

    Congratulations on making it through that tough time! Keep Sparking! emoticon

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TEXGRL 8/19/2012 1:18PM

    Wow, that's a lot to take in especially in such a short blog entry. You go girl and take care of yourself! I'm going to say something that I have to tell myself, the scale isn't the only indication of eating right.

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TXLADY110 8/8/2012 10:40PM

    COngratulations on 18 months free!!

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BLACK741 8/7/2012 7:21AM

    Wow, what a roller coaster ride you have been on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats for all of the good news and for coming through all that with a great attitude. Hope all the "new lumps" are like the last one, nothing to worry about.

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Wow 2 months of going backwards!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

I managed to go on my cruise and not only maintain but lose a pound. The next two weeks after the cruise I did well. That was until my mother who is 81 years old fell and laid in the hall for 31 hours. My life seemed turned upside down from that point on. It was my first day back at work( I teach). I stayed with her for a week and my siblings and I started remodeling her home to make it easier for her to get around. In the mist of that we had to move out of the home we rented. We had not closed on our HUD home yet so we lived in a hotel for 2 weeks. We packed all of our belongings into a PODS and lived out of suitcases. We then closed on our home it took another week to get all of the inspections done so that all of the utilities could be turned on. Then the first thing we did was take down a wall to make 2 bedrooms into one. A week after that my husband was ill and took a week off of work. The first time that had ever happened. Now the room is being worked on again, my mom is stronger that before the fall. It is time I get back to taking care of me! I just found the scale today ( there is still a lot to be unpacked). I plan on finding out just how much weight I gained back tomorrow morning and begin eating healthy again. I forgot to say up until last weekend we did not have a refrigerator. These really are not excuses just reality! I let my life get in the way of my goals! Being healthy and taking care of myself. Tomorrow I begin again! Thanks for letting me ramble

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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I am getting ready to go on a 7 day cruise. I was wondering if anyone had suggestions or ideas about how to at least maintain my weight loss during this time? I would love to hear from anyone who has been in this same position.

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PHYL220 7/27/2010 9:04PM

    emoticon emoticon Have a fantastic time!!

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ANNIE924 7/27/2010 8:57PM

    Most cruise ships have exercise facilities now. Also I stayed away from the midnight buffet.

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LJK091354 7/27/2010 8:49PM

    The last cruise I went on I took my pedometer and made it a point to get 10,000 steps no matter what. I watched my food but wasn't totally strict. Didn't lose, didn't gain so, all in all, not a bad thing.

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