Friday, October 08, 2010
This is a very difficult decision, since I have been working at losing weight for close to three years. However, I have been in a plateau for 11 months. I decreased my calorie intake to no avail. I increased my exercise intensity and time, changed my exercise routine to incorporate different types of exercises. Nothing has worked. Whoever said that losing weight is simply a matter of eating less calories than the body needs hasn't got a clue!
After a visit with my doctor yesterday, and the confirmation that there is nothing wrong with my thyroid, and his acknowledgement that the medical profession has no idea why there are people like me who eat very little, exercise beyond the norm, and do not lose weight, I have decided to simply accept my body for what it is. (BMI wise 40 pounds overweight)
I have been so obsessed with losing weight that I am afraid to be with friends for fear that I might eat something I shouldn't. I do understand how people can give up on a weight loss program and gain the weight back - The effort to fight a battle that you have no chance of winning can get to be too much. Yet I do not want go back to the level of obesity that I started, so the only choice I have is acceptance.
I write this because I am sure there are other people out there like me, whose body for whatever reason has reached its limit. Perhaps there is a time for acceptance; to learn how to maintain weight at the body's comfort level.
I still want to be with the Slowest Losers, although I know I will never lose the weight and be where my BMI indicates I should be. But now I am working on something even more important maintaining a health body and active lifestyle.