Sunday, November 16, 2008
Well lets talk about what happens with stress and a breakdown of routine! How one leads to another and then the wall comes tumbling down!
I know me, and over the past couple of years have learned me so much better.
So lets start with the positives with this. I know what, why, and when this all started. Now the knowing did not stop it this time but understanding and knowing will not let it destroy all I have accomplished.
the other positive was that while my son was here Friday night totally disrupting my plan, he did make his first comment -" Mom you are getting skinny" . Now skinny is a far stretch of the imagination but skinnier may be appropriate. Needles to say with those words all was forgiven for that night. It was not like my plan was significant. Just a rare night at home alone to arrive home and see his truck parked in the drive. LOL started to keep on riding except I knew he really needed me this week.
So lets look at what else happened. For a little more than 3 months I have really been on a good and balanced journey. My eating habits under control and healthy. Got into a great exercise routine at the gym - did I love it NO but I do love the results, I had tamed work somewhat and trying to control it and it not control me.
So this week started with really a lot of stress with an incident with my son. A very horrible experience for him. Now this lead to him staying at my house for two days. Fine with me but you talk about tearing up a routine. ( Now let me say that things started getting a little off with my daughters birthday and her creating a 4 day celebration ). This lead to me not getting to the gym Monday night. Did go Tuesday and Wed was still dealing with my son's issues and did not get there. Thursday was scheduled to go and did not get home from work till 8:15. Friday did not get there-- again took my daughter to the dentist, rain cold-- already missed most of the week so one more day won't matter. That afternoon had to transport her to another activity and could not pick her up to 11:00PM. Sat morning did get to the gym and boy could I tell I had missed. Sat night thought dinner was planned and my daughter had planned for her but not the rest-- so there we were time to eat and nothing easy to prepare --- on and on and on-- so this is how the walls tumble down.
Now I refuse to step on the scales as I know it would not be pretty - so another little break in my routine but this is a break better than me seeing a upward change in the scales. So will do some damage control and weigh at the end of the week.
Now on top of this have to also admit/confess that I tend to get holiday blues/depression and that starts earlier and earlier each year with the commercialism of the holidays now starting way before Halloween. I do talk myself through this better than I use to out of just knowing what is happening to me. But it still is a big trouble sign for me.
So yes routine is very important to me. Now if it is planned disruptions I do much better so we now know what I have to work on don't we.
So let's look at goals-- well rather not but have to.
1. On Dec 1 Weigh 164 ( previously had 166 which was a typo ). This means I have 3 weeks to loose 4.6 lbs - With the events of this week am excepting that I will come close to my goal but will not meet my monthly or my yearly. But I have done well and will accept that.
2. Miss no more than 2 days of exercise -Well that one got blown out of the water this week but still have two weeks to stay on track and do damage control.
3. Continue Daily Devotions - Did manage to keep this up
4. Increase intensity of cardio by going to gym for workouts at least 5 days a week.
did well through the 9th and then that got all messed up . So another goal not met this week.
So have today to try to establish my routine again!! Will plan my week, make sure I have plenty of the foods I need on hand.
So all of you that have watched me do so good with goals etc now see why I have to be so disciplined and so strict with what I do- it is how I thrive. My prayer being that once I have met a healthy goal weight my goal will be to learn to be a little more flexible.
Now I am off to make repairs to the wall that tumbled.