Thursday, July 21, 2011
I just cut my own hair tonight, and I think I actually didn't do too bad!
It's really something I'd always thought about doing - after all, the hairstyles I tend to like are the modern looking ones that just about look like you could have cut your hair yourself, lol - but I'd never had the courage. I always figured it was safer to pay a stylist to do it, or at least go to a cosmotology school and have a student do it, because at least the student would be able to see the back of my head ^_^;;
But because I hadn't wanted to spend the money on it, I hadn't done anything but dye it myself in months, and it had become long, damaged and full of spit ends. I figured I had nothing to lose at this point, so I decided to just go ahead try cutting it myself. After all, if I screwed up, I could always have it fixed by a professional, as long as I didn't go crazy and cut too much off (and even if I did, hair does grow back!)
I watched a lot of videos and read tutorials online before starting, although in the end I just kind of ended up doing my own thing, for better or worse. I did take one piece of advice to heart, and went to Ulta to get a pair of actual hair cutting shears instead of going at it with my embroidery scissors. With a great stroke of luck, I managed to pick up a $30 set of shears that had been marked down to $6.99 - I figured it had to be a sign that I wasn't making a huge mistake! I also picked up some hair dye (I decided to try Clairol Natural Instincts "Egyptian Plum").
What I ended up doing was washing it, and while it was wet, I sectioned it off with little rubber bands. Then I measured off and cut six inches of hair from each of the little "pony tails" I had made, twisting each one as I cut it. Then I blow dried it, and went back and trimmed it up a little more.
Here's my "before" photo:
And here's after I cut it, initially:
And after I died it, and then went at it a little more with the scissors (it was a little too even for me, so I tried to give it some texture):
Probably obvious, but I took these photos of myself with my phone ^_^;;
Anyway, I think I did pretty good. It's not horrible anyway, and it was a lot cheaper even than going to the cosmetology school (just the $6.99 for the shears!). I think I've actually had worse haircuts from professionals, really.
Now that I have had the experience of cutting my own hair, I'll probably do it again. Maybe next time I'll get even more daring and try to do something a little more complicated with it!
Monday, July 18, 2011
I have about four weeks now until my move. I've started packing, and it's a little overwhelming, because I have WAY too much stuff...I'm not kidding. I'm really kind of worried that one day I'm going to end up being like those people on the tv show "Hoarders." Again, I'm not even kidding. I'm already obsessive compulsive and have anxiety disorder and ADD...which is in fact the recipe for an eventual hoarder.
If you saw my bedroom, you would understand that I'm not over exaggerating. The more I work to clean it out, the more that I can see that the hoarding tendency is already there, which is why I feel like I need to take some steps to keep myself from really going down that road. Before I move I'm going to try to get rid of everything that I don't actually need or want in my new apartment.
I'm actually getting rid of some of the video games that I haven't played in forever, and the books that have just been sitting around gathering dust. I'm even planning on getting rid of some of my older sewing projects that have just been hanging in the closet, despite my feelings of attachment for them (usually I would never get rid of something that I had sewn myself). I think maybe I'll give them to the Weatherford College drama department, that way I'll at least know where they are and that they might at least be put to good use.
And of course I'm getting rid of the complete junk and garbage that's been accumulating everywhere. I'd actually love to cut the amount of stuff I own in half, if possible.
I think I'm actually doing pretty well, really. I've already filled up several boxes of stuff I want to get rid of.
But then there are still things that I am very attached to, and can't bring myself to get rid of. I've been slowly pairing down my childhood stuffed animal collection over the years, but there's still a big bag of them left. Of course, I think at this point what's left are things that have some sort of significance - they were sewn by my great grandmother, etc...I can't get rid of those, right? Still, they're doing me no good sitting in a bag in the closet. Maybe I should give them to my nieces...I'm just concerned that they won't be taken care of properly -_-;;
And then there's the stuff I just don't know what to do with! Namely, boxes of trolls and beanie babies that have been sitting in the garage for over ten years and that NO ONE wants. I guess I could make one last ditch effort to sell them at a garage sale, and then just take whatever is left to Good Will, or some other charity.
At any rate, I've got to do something about this. Hopefully I can avoid eventually becoming one of those people who have to climb over a mountain of junk just to get into their house and have hundreds of rats infesting their kitchen, if I just learn to get rid of stuff NOW.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
I wonder, when will I be happy this time? Looking back over my past blogs, it looks like I really started feeling good about the way I was looking last year when I got down to about 150 lbs. That's when the photo of me in that dress I loved so much was taken (the one that's on my Sparkpage underneath my graduation photo). But I wonder if I'm going to be as happy when I get back to 150 this time, because looking at that photo, I'm not sure I really like what I see. I think back then I might have felt thinner than I looked, probably because I had started at 173 that time, and so I had just lost over 20 lbs...
Well, maybe I shouldn't expect to be happy at 150 this time. Maybe since I started 10 lbs down, at 163, this time I'll have to get down to 140 or so before I really get that great of a feeling again.
Not that I don't feel a little better already. At least my size 10 jeans fit without making me feel entirely like a stuffed sausage.
Why do I sound so negative today? Is it the Domino's ham and veggie pizza I ate last night and then again for lunch today (with the utmost moderation, although I still don't feel so good about ingesting so much sodium), or the fact that the scale didn't move today, even though I know I can't expect it to move every single day? Or the fact that despite the fact that I'm losing weight by just monitoring my food intake alone, I know I haven't been exercising the way I should?
Gah, who knows...I think it's just one of those days. Just have to trudge on (and I have a sneaking suspicion it really is all the sodium from the pizza talking...)
Monday, July 11, 2011
I'm down to 157, which means I've lost about 6 pounds in only about 2 and a half weeks. I might just make it to my goal by my original deadline after all. I kind of wonder if my weight loss isn't too rapid, but I've been following my calorie intake guidelines, most often in the middle of my calorie range, and I haven't even been exercising as much as I should, so I don't know....
Hmm, maybe my metabolism is higher than I thought? Or maybe it's just coming off this fast because it's all "new" fat that I've gained in the past year? Who knows. Or maybe some of it really wasn't fat, just water weight or whatever (that's probably it, actually - I've probably been getting a lot less sodium, and I'm not retaining as much water).
Really though, things have been only too easy this time. I'm even enjoying myself, for the simple fact that I tend to eat better tasting food when I'm dieting! I actually cook instead of going to fast food places. I love to try new recipes, especially the recipes from the Spark Recipes site, and most of them turn out great...I especially love Chef Meg's recipes, they always turn out great. I've just pre-ordered The Spark Cookbook that's coming out in October.
And then there's the fact that I love being on Sparkpeople, writing my blog and commenting on others' blogs, and responding to the message boards. I also like reading the articles. I'm much more active on here than on Facebook, even though my Facebook friends are all people I actually know in real life. There's just such a positive vibe here!
I really think that this time I'm going to be able to lose more weight than I did before, and that I'm going to be able to keep it off. Let's make it official: I pledge to myself that I am going to stick with it this time, even after I get to my first goal, and I'm going to lose that last ten pounds that I meant to lose last time, and maintain my new weight! I won't get bored and wander off and start letting myself eat everything in sight again. It's just too easy not to do that this time, right?
Yes, today at least, I am optimistic. Hopefully, the next time I'm not feeling so optimistic, I'll be able to look back on this and remember this feeling.
Thursday, July 07, 2011
I wonder if it's really a good idea to diet when you're on your period. Seriously, let's combine a time of the month when I'm already agitated, and then add the frustration of trying to keep track of everything I'm putting in my mouth while attempting to slowly starve myself (because let's face it, that's what dieting is).
Dieting right before your period isn't much fun either. I'm fairly sure your body actually needs extra calories at that time. So you know your body is just going, "What the f*ck do you think you're doing, b*ch?"
Obviously, I'm not in the best mood right now. But at least I still don't feel like quitting, or like binge eatting, or whatever...
If only I had some other outlet. Last year when I lost weight, I developed a habit of emotional shopping to take the place of emotional eating. Unfortunately, I'm about to quit my job and move to Dallas to go to school, so I really can't do that this time.
I need a new bad habit. Fill in the blank: "Emotional ______." Something that doesn't negatively effect my diet or my wallet. Anybody got any ideas?
Well, at least I just made myself laugh.
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