Monday, December 15, 2014
Why have baked goods lured me back for seconds, thirds, and fourths? It happens too often. Because moderation hasn't worked well for me, I decided to just say 'no' to baked goods for a while. I threw in no fried food just for kicks. The goal is to go a week and maybe a month without. The hope is that baked goods will lose the hold they have on me.
I keep forgetting, so I've gone only a couple of days. Yet I had one good day where I remembered to say 'no'. I was at an amusement park, where they display gooey desserts at every chance. Hackers walk around with giant pink donuts...for only $5.25 each! I had the impulse to get one of those or what looked like a giant mallomar or even a cinnabon! I wanted them because I was tired, cold, and feeling noble for spending the day showing my nephews a fun time. It was a long day.
When I finally dropped them off at their home, I stopped to get something to eat. I wanted a donut or something sweet. I didn't do it! That is a great feeling. It reinforces that I can say no to a habit that uses baked good to reward and comfort me. I don't need that. I can just feed the real need--hunger, thirst, or exhaustion with good food, water, or sleep!
...and then I forgot and had potato chips the next day...I thought fried foods was going to be the easy thing..Oh well. Day 1 again.
Monday, December 01, 2014
It is December. Already. It is time to look at 2014 and to think about 2015. I am reluctant to examine my accomplishments for the year because it feels like it was one stumbling block after another. Right now I have a sore right forearm and a cut up left index finger that keep me from meeting certain fitness goals, like swimming and pull-ups. Also, my weight is up.
Weight vigilance is difficult. I want to abandon the focus on weight, but I certainly don’t want to be 200 pounds. I guess constantly being aware of my choices is the best option until some day when my fantasy of living instinctively comes to realization. I am in awe of those that can balance their energy needs without going overboard on indulgent foods. I would like to do that also. Some day. I hope.
I gained five pounds in October. It was a mesh of a heavy load at work, discord at home, and too much access to baked goods. My husband seems to finally understand that baked goods need to stay out of the house. He kept his stash in his office out of sight for most of November. That helped me stable off the weight gain. Now I need to unload these five pounds, plus three more to be back where I started 2014.
Eight pounds in one month is not my style, even when I am going 100% at this. The best I can hope is that my pants are not too tight for Christmas. I can do that.
I made a rule about no baked goods at home. Up to now I have been reluctant to make rules that have ‘no’ in it. Maybe ‘a little bit’ isn’t my style. Maybe I need to just say ‘no’…forever. I know there are both types of people. I thought I was ‘a little bit’ type, but I haven’t been able to make that work. Maybe I’m the type that needs to say ‘never’ so that I can get this to work like I would like.
I’m looking forward to figuring out this challenge so I can get back to losing the last ten pounds.
Tuesday, November 04, 2014
October was another tough month. I did ok with some of my goals, and not so good on others. I neglected the garage clean up because I need my arm and back in top shape for that. Something happened to my back and then my forearm. This also impacted my workout goals. I let it get the better of me and I was bummed out most of the month.
I need to find my mojo again. It is tough because the year is almost out and I have to think hard to find things that are better than in the beginning of the year. I feel like I've gone backwards a bit. I've even gained some pounds. In the last years, even when I didn't lose, I didn't gain.
Now I need to see what I can do with the rest of the year. At least I can find my way to move around because even if it is only a walk, exercise feels good. When I'll fit the other stuff, I don't know.
Thursday, September 25, 2014
"Everything that happens to me is the best possible thing that can happen to me."
--Chris Prentiss from "Zen and the Art of Happiness"
Somebody recommended this book to me. I appreciate the message that it does no good adding negative thoughts to every situation. The author suggests we should ask ourselves "What good will come of this?" when we get into situations that might seem negative, on first look.
The thing that confuses me about this way of looking at things is how do you move forward with the idea that what is happening to you is the best thing for you? How do you grow? How do you change when it would benefit you, if now is the best thing for you?
I've been thinking about this and I was going to discuss it with the person that suggested this book. I was to meet with her yesterday, but she hurt her back. I can't ask her. Should you happen on this blog, perhaps you have an idea and want to share.
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