Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Today, I'm starting over.
Yesterday doesn't matter.
Last week's weight gain is irrelevant.
Today is my fresh start day, and it's going great!
I joined a new Spark Team today, as part of my fresh start. I've never been good about asking for help - of any kind. I'm a self-sufficient type. It's not that I don't ever think I need help...
We all have ĎThat Friendí. The one that is never around until *she* needs something, then sheíd do anything for you - just as soon as you help her: move/write a research paper/explain an unexpected pregnancy to mom/rewrite a resume/find a better job/get that promotion/get into grad school/study for the CPA exam...
You know who I'm talking about. You never know what or when her next crisis will be, and the only thing you *can* count on is that, at some point, she will whirlwind back into your world, nevermind what's going on in your life (she really can't be bothered with that when her life is in perpetual shambles), and expect you to solve her latest earth-shattering calamity, and then just as quickly - *POOF* - gone again. Not to be seen or heard from or found on Facebook until the next disaster.
I have lots of these friends - and a mom and sister... I'm kind of the go-to catastrophe-averter in my world. Which can be stressful and exhausting. But at least itís better than being ĎThat Friendí. I donít ever want to be ĎThat Friendí.
So thatís why I donít ask for help. On SparkPeople, Iím afraid that Iíve been silent too long to ask my team for support.
Iím not much of a joiner. Catastrophe-averting is exhausting and I sometimes feel like I have to conserve my energy for the next emergent tragedy. Also, since Iíve evidently been blessed with a propensity to attract ĎThat Friendí, I sometimes hold back for fear of collecting another one.
So when I hit a roadblock, I havenít contributed enough (sometimes any) witty, motivational, supportive posts to earn the support of my team members. Probably the only thing worse than being ĎThat Friendí would be to be ĎThat Friendí and have the catastrophe-averter ignore your calls.
But none of that matters today.
Today is a fresh start.
I joined a new team today. When I get home from work this evening, Iím going to post an introduction to my new team. And Iím going to be a joiner this time. Because I do need the support. Iím not going to worry about collecting another ĎThat Friendí. Iím just going to make sure Iím not afraid the catastrophe-averter will ignore my call. Because I do need the support. And I canít possibly be the only catastrophe-averter on the planet. Right?
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
As a newly-minted CPA, this is my first tax season. My plan since I switched from audit to tax last May was to get a system firmly in place well ahead of tax season so that the insanity that is a CPA office from February to April wouldn't derail me.
Obviously, based on my recent (non) weight loss, that system is not in place. I know lots of tax CPA's who just expect that they will gain 10-20 pounds during tax season and plan to make up for it the rest of the year. Except most of them don't manage to lose in May - December everything they gained in January - April.
That's not going to be me. I refuse to use tax season as an excuse to do the things that got me to 270 pounds! Yes, I will be working 50ish hours per week in the office and then up to another 10 from home. Yes, I will usually not pull into my driveway until 7:30 - 8:00 in the evening. But none of that means that I have to give myself permission to snack on junk and fast food for 10 hours - or to camp out on the couch with another meal of junk/fast food from the time I get home until I finally roll myself to bed.
I'm not going to expect myself to be perfect - I don't even manage that outside of tax season when I only work 4 days/week. But I am going to do better than just give in to the stress and use it as an excuse to reinforce my bad habits.
To that end, I have set up a few "Tax Season Treats" to help me get through the Season without a feedbag of Doritos wrapped around my face.
1. I don't work Friday's outside of tax season, so getting up each Friday morning is going to be .... let's say 'not fun'. So - each Friday, assuming that I have stayed on plan Monday through Thursday, I will stop on the way to work at Panera, Subway or Dunkin Donuts and treat myself to a yummy breakfast. Panera has a French Toast Bagel Breakfast Sandwich that is absolutely heavenly - 660 calories. At Subway I can get a Egg & Cheese Omelet Flatbread sandwich with bacon - 485 calories. Finally, Dunkin Donuts has a Egg White Turkey Sausage Wake-Up Wrap - 150 calories. They look small, so I can have 2 for 300 calories.
2. Bottled Diet Mountain Dew - I drink waaaay too much diet soda. There is no need for argument or lectures - I know and it's not up for discussion. Anyhoo- even though I love Diet Mountain Dew (particularly in the bottle), buying Coke Zero by the case is a much more cost effective way to fuel my soda habit. So bottled Mountain Dew is a fairly rare treat. All this to say - during tax season I am going to keep my fridge stocked with 12 oz bottles of Diet Dew. I am only allowed 2 per day at most, which provides a nice pick-me-up in the early afternoon and/or early evening.
I'm also going to continue with my year-round strategies that work well when I stick to them - minimal (at most) eating lunch out, alternate bottles of water with soda, a drawer of 100-calorie pack yummies, and mini-goal rewards every 10 pounds or so.
So... that's the plan. If you think of additional treats/rewards (relatively inexpensive) I could add to help me stay on track during the Season, all suggestions would be welcome.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
So... I quit smoking today. Surprisingly enough, I'm doing fine. I've thought about smoking a couple times today, but then I remind myself that I quit. And it's just like. "oh, yeah, i forgot." None of the panic I've felt in past attempts when I realize I'm have no cigarettes. I have my bag of baby carrots standing by in case I have an uncontrollable urge to munch to satisfy the hand-to-mouth habit, but so far I haven't had any.
Luckily, the hubby is out of the country, so he won't catch the moodiness as my body wants nicotine. Also, the kid is going to his girlfriend's this evening, and then spending the weekend with his mom. So he'll be spared the drama, as well. :) By the time I pick him up on Sunday evening, and the hubby on Monday evening, the worst of the crankiness should be past.
I'm still a little nervous about heading home for Christmas because I know my mom and brother-in-law will be smoking, but I'm confident I'll be okay. This time feels really different from all the failed attempts before.
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