Tuesday, January 20, 2009
My NEW GOAL: Prove to myself and everyone that I CAN REACH MY GOAL right now, in my current situation, busy or not. With a great gym or with nothing but exercise videos. I CAN DO IT stressed, depressed, happy or sad. I AM GOING TO REACH MY GOAL!
I am feeling very focused about getting to my goal. I am doing small changes and expecting results in the long run. I have decided to put and keep my scale away except for maybe once a week because I get on the scale way to much lol and it doesn't change my weight.... lol. So I always make the first post pretty short but PLEASE check back because I update during the week and you may miss some pretty exciting things... OK, I'll write more later! * I'm cooking dinner because I'm starving and I did not eat fast food while I was at the mall!! I chewed a piece of gum instead!! :-)
** I have spent the first 4 weeks trying to stay on top of this challenge, recovering from injury after injury, dealing with insomnia, and trying to balance stress... But I have made a choice. I AM GOING TO SUCCEED. I can not control what happens to me, but I CAN control my response. I CAN make healthier choices, I can plan ahead, eat small/normal portions and find healthier ways to deal with stress. I am proud that I have not given up but I WANT MORE. I want more results and I want to feel like I'm giving this my all. At the end of these 12 weeks I want to wake up and realize that I beat the odds and was able to see GREAT RESULTS even though I'm busy with school, stressed out, suffering from the winter blues, whatever. I deserve better. I deserve my best and I don't plan on stopping until I get it.
I was thinking earlier " What was different when I was able to reach my goal before?
My answer: 1. I made a choice. I decided that I want to be happy. I want to be proud of myself and MOST importantly I want to feel youthful /happy again. * Yes I know that sounds crazy and clearly I know that I am young... But I look at pictures of me 2 years ago and I see a different me, a me that was willing to take risks, a me that took pride in how I looked and loved myself to the fullest, not to mention I LOOKED happy, young and my face had a youthful glow! lol... I want that back. Med school is stressful and I'll be 25 when I graduate and I want to LOOK youthful! lol... they told us at orientation 2 years ago that ALL med students age a lot during the 4 years... well I want to beat the odds. Ok, back to the point... lol* 2. I made a conscious choice to workout EVERY time I felt an emotion I felt that I couldn't handle. At that time, 4 years ago now, whenever I would go through rough times with my last boyfriend I decided I was going to go for a run. If he made me mad instead of eating to improve my mood, I hit the gym. After we broke up, when I was lonely, I ran. Sad= I ran, The more depressed I was the more I worked out and eventually everything improved and I came out stronger, healthier, sexier, and mentally more able to handle tough situations. Now I find myself in a similar situation where I have allowed myself to become "lost' and I am going to use the second 4 week segment of my 12 week challenge to REFOCUS and work even harder to reach my goals!
So for the next 4 weeks:
1. Whenever I am upset I am going to run/ workout* It can be 15 mins... the point is that I am going to get my mind off whatever is bothering me BEFORE I spend HOURS talking about it. Then I am going to write about it. If I later get hungry, I will eat.
2. If it's after 8 I'm just gonna drink tea. I do not plan to eat after 8 BECAUSE I am planning on going to sleep between 10-11.
3. I will sleep 7-8 hours every night.and If for some reason I can't *trying to be realistic* I will take a nap during the day. An exhausted brain CAN NOT function. And I get clumsy and hurt myself when I'm sleep deprived.
4. Eat 1500 calories a day give or take a few. If I go overboard, I'll eat less the next day.
5. If it's a craving and I just gotta have it, I will HALF it and fill in the rest with veggies or fruit.
Oh and I'm training for another 10K in March
My 4 week Report Card: B+ :-D
Giving the circumstances I think I have done GREAT! I had a torn ligament in week 1 and was on crutches and I'm still recovering from a hurt knee after my marathon. BUT I have given it my all and I am working out whenever I can. Which is pretty darn often. ;) Oh and the constructve criticism is that I can work on sticking to my caloric goal. I have been eating more fruits and veggies, less fast foods, and working on eating snack so I don't grab fastfood while I'm out. I must continue to work on resisting the temptations of my boyfriend offering me food on his way over etc. I told him I was preparing for a fitness competion and I have to eat healthier, so hopefully that will keep him off my back for a while without him secretly trying to sabbotage me! lol... men.