Sunday, August 15, 2010
There's a gospel song that I really love. And the lyrics are, sometimes you have to encourage yourself. Sometimes you have to speak victory during the test. No matter how you feel, speak the Word and you will be healed. Speak over yourself, encourage yourself in the Lord...
And, well I believe this is SO relevant to weight loss.
we, well I often look to others for encouragement... and that's great! That's the main reason I love spark... there is always someone here who has been where I've been or is where I want to go. yet, at the same time... I think there comes a time when I have to reach in and figure out why I feel how I feel... and encourage myself to get this job done. To find what makes me happy... and go out a get it!! :-)
lol. and then run on here to tell you all about it.
This morning I woke up feeling fat, depressed, and over all overwhelmed. Obviously, it was just a wave of bad emotions because 2 days ago I felt fine, proud of my progress and like I was on the right track. So the only difference MUST be how I FEEL about how I look, and not actually HOW I LOOK.
So I've decided. That YES it is true that the scale is not moving... that I have not reached my weight loss goals despite trying for a very long time, that my clothes don't ALL fit the way I like them... but it is ALSO true that each day I stick to my goals, I am much closer. Each time I try again, I'm more likely to succeed. That I am under a lot of stress already with school and non stop expectations (some given to myself, some expected by others) so I need to give myself a break.
It's true that I am in CONTROL of my actions more than I am in control of my weight, and if I continue to make the right actions eventually my weight will come into submission (LOL.) It is true that I AM CHOOSING to lose weight, workout, eat in a different way. No one has MADE ME do this. No one can make me do it. So, instead of feeling depressed because I have to eat differently, workout constantly, etc... I can make a choice to do it or don't do it... but not to feel obligated.
Isn't that a great realization!? We are CHOOSING to get in shape. So why not be happy about it!? Each step of the way!?
Why not wake up with a HUGE smile because today I CAN choose what foods I want to eat and know that either way ( burger king crossanwich or bagel + egg whites) I choose the outcome I want.
I am choosing dedication over despair. And MY attitude will just have to get on board. and the pounds... well, I guess they will do what they want. but 6 months from now... when my challenge is over....well, I will look back and smile knowing that I CHOSE to be exactly WHO I wanted to be.
I just hope she is a thinner version of me. :-)
Thanks for reading.