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Day 2... a lump - a little dark. sorry.

Monday, July 19, 2010

So... this has been a peculiar day. today is actually the 9th anniversary of my daddy's death. He died 4 days before my sixteenth birthday... so while my friends were expecting to attend my "sweet 16th" bday party... we were planning my dad's funeral... which took place the day after my bday (had to almost beg/fight my uncles to not have him buried on my actual bday :-( )

and I was in a good place this morning. Enjoying life where I am... choosing to live it to the fullest. All day I looked forward to getting home and going for a run before studying and preparing for my test Thursday... and birthday Friday( and spending some time with someone who makes me feel alive and loved). I was even proud that I took the time to make a GYN appt for my annual... because I NEVER get time off from school to get my health checked out :-) Talk about Ironic. lol. I had to *sneak* away after class to go to the doc. Not an emergency visit or anything but you know it's important to get that yearly check up :-D.

So, as I put in my status earlier today some random lady said, " Oh, (the other nurse) was asking me if you were pregnant... you know, because well maybe your scrub top made you look pregnant... and I told her,' you BETTER not be because you are not married'."
... this was such a STRANGE comment because 1. I definitely do NOT look pregnant in the scrub top! LOL. I mean really. My stomach isn't a 6 pack but it's not a mile from my back either! lol. 2. what is it HER business if I was!?!?!? I'm a GROWN woman! and 3. Again what does it matter to her if I married or not! Now I personally want to be married before I have children, and I'm not pregnant... but I've only known these ppl 1.5 weeks. That was out of line.

To add insult to injury... I got some bad news today. Well maybe it won't be bad in the long run... but the doctor found a lump in my breast. And not a "oh don't worry about it, thing..." More like a, well "I'm not sure what it is... but it is, strange. Come back in 2 months. We will get a mammogram if it's still there."

But see. I'm in medical school. And I know, if it's nothing, the doctor will say it's nothing. And I also know that a hard glandular object that is not movable in your breast is not a good sign. Also, mammograms are not good tests for a young, dense breast... but are often used to rule out cancer along with ultrasounds..... I'm trying not to over react... because LORD KNOWS I'm praying that this is nothing... but I'm telling you. My heart broke when I felt him feel the lump, and heard him say "hmmm.... we need to keep a close eye on this."

Here I am, at 24... 4 days before my 25th birthday and now... Like all of a sudden, I had to come to grips with, am I going to die? Is this breast cancer? am I going to die before I ever get married, have children, live life without worrying about a test every month!? I mean... gee whiz...

Sorry, this is a dull post. I'm still happy, and optimistic... just feeling a little down after the breast exam. Please pray for me.

___ On another note, I woke up at 5:30 am and did 800 jumps on my jump rope and kick boxing. I'll probably still do the stairs and run that I had been looking forward to all day. Sigh... I have enough on my plate. don't want to worry about my health too.


After I workout... and get some rest, I will write a better blog. Bye guys.

ETA: Have an appt scheduled for next week w/ different DOC. actually immediately scheduled it after the 1st appt. Thanks for all of the advice :) Love ya sparkies! **

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    Yeah I'm glad that you took the suggestions of the other posters, because 2 months is crazy to wait for that. My doctor found a lump or what she thought was a lump during my annual last year and she had the receptionist immediately call and schedule me an appt for a mammogram, and I ended up having an ultrasound done too. They determined it was just a dense area, but I would've worried myself sick if I had to wait that long to even find that out.
I'll keep you in my prayers that all is well!

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A10TIVTRTL 7/20/2010 11:29PM

    This is not a dull post. This is a scary post. Don't wait two months. Get thee to another doctor. Holding you in healing light -

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LUNADRAGON 7/20/2010 11:11PM

    I would get a 2nd opinion, 2 months is too long to wait. Prayers are with you.

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ALLIEINSHAPE 7/20/2010 11:05PM

    This does not sounds right for doc to say wait 2 months and hope it goes away. Sounds like the dark ages to me. You should have a mammogram, ultrasound or whatever to check this out and not wait in fear for 2 months. Get another doctor!! Probably a cyst, my sister in law used to have cysts all the time and they went away. Take care, continue to think positive and things will be fine I am sure.

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    Wow that's heavy. I understand how it is to be young and realize that your life has changed because of an illness so I pray that they find its nothing. Stay strong! And motivated! You are in my prayers.

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SPARKLE1908 7/20/2010 8:49AM

    You know you are in my prayers dear and I agree, get a 2nd opinion...2 months is a long time to wait for an answer regarding that...being in the medical field yourself, you know what needs to be done and being a Christian you know WHO already has this resolved...

Praying for victory and peace of mind!!


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LMSTRAW 7/20/2010 1:58AM

    You are in my prayers.

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CIERAPOET 7/20/2010 12:10AM

    God is good He is your Father and will NEVER leave you nor forsake you. Sister, count on HIM. Let not your heart be troubled. Believe that God is your Healer. You are promised 120 years and your time is not up yet. Wait 2 months huh? Be proactive. 2nd opinion. The devil is a liar. You have great things in your future. I pray God's Peace and Mercy on you right now and that you feel His unconditional Love at all times. Jesus came that WE may have LIFE and ABUNDANT LIFE at that. Stay positive and fret not. You are alive for a reason and God knows the plans that He has for you plans to do you good and not evil Plans for an expected end. Thank God for His Perfect Peace in your life. God bless you!
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SLOLOSER 7/19/2010 9:54PM

    It is not a dull post!

It might be worth getting a second opinion. I don't think I would want to wait 2 months. It may not be cancer. If it is though, the sooner you act the better.

Lots of women with cancer beat it. I know several. Not to say that I think it is a malignant tumor. I have no idea. Just that even if it is, it does not mean you are going to die an early death.

Here's hoping it's just a cyst and that it will go away by itself.

But take care of yourself. Be sure to follow up on this.

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MAKEDAMNSURE2 7/19/2010 7:25PM

    Everyone has down days and you shouldn't even consider apologizing to us!! I hope your day went better and that you are feeling positive about your health! You have to think positively to see positive things happen!! Keep your chin up!

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DIVEMASTER01 7/19/2010 7:03PM

    I will be praying for you, I hope it really nothing. We are here for you.


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LAURAC2010 7/19/2010 6:55PM

    You have support from us and I will keep you in my prayers. emoticon

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Making it Happen: Bikini Bombshell Bootcamp Day 1 of 6 month challenge. With pics :-)

Sunday, July 18, 2010

2 blogs in one day! I'm HOT! emoticon

Today I

Exercise: emoticon ran 2.5 miles... wanted to run 5 but it was SOOO darn hot outside when I went that my stomach started aching, not a stomach cramp but like dehydration type aching... so I listened and went back home. Still a good workout. 370 cals.
-- Then I danced, lifted weights, and jumped rope (for 12 mins- 700 jumps GO ME!) that was about 42 mins worth of exercise... and burned 362 cals. emoticon

So all and all... good day for exercise.

Food emoticon
B:Oatmeal + fried egg
S: apple (1/2) + .6 oz of walnuts (didn't like how dry they made my mouth... didn't want to add salt. so stopped eating them lol)
L/D: chicken/shrimp pasta from brio... ate the whole thing. and it was tasty. It counted for dinner and lunch.
S:--- red tea with splenda at 10 pm... :-) Was gonna eat a small meal and decided... I want to reach my goal. I'd rather go to bed a little hungry than feel bad after eating a meal I wasn't really wanting.
Calories ~ 1400 - I use another website to count cause it's easier.

Relaxation: emoticon - hmmm... the exercising was kind of relaxing because I was feeling emotional today... then watched p.s. I love you... which made me cry like a baby... lol. plus listened to my sermons (I do this when I can't make it to church. Well... actually I listen to several sermons each day. This goes along with my NYR to get and stay close to God. I love HIM. He is my provider and His grace is sufficient. :-) ) + Journal/spark. all relaxing.

Goals for the week:
*10,000 steps? including work and exercise. in cardiothoracic surgery all day. so don't have much time to walk right now... by passes take a LONG time... and you can't move a lot in surgery.
* Jump rope 20 mins/day til my bday/atl-fl trip!
*dance/taebo/turbo 30 mins a day
Strength ~15 mins 3x this week.
*stretch and relax daily

M-Th disciplined eating. F= 25th bday... going out with mom & sis... then going to ATL to see my friends! :-D Then FL... and have to get into that bikini I showed ya'll earlier... lol. so will try to eat mostly veggies and fruit and lean meats :-)!

Either way... I wrote this to say- I'm MAKING IT HAPPEN! and my goal is 5% weight loss in 6 weeks THEN 5 lbs loss per month. I could lose up to 30 lbs by new years! THATS GREAT! Slow and steady!
Lots of pics... lol. Trying to get a pic that shows the left and right bicep and a side view of my body. Consider these my BEFORE pics!


:-) After j
umping rope!

Being silly and Kissing my guns :-)

"I'm not finished... but it's GOOD! " Referring to my body shaping plan!

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CIERAPOET 7/20/2010 12:18AM

    You are doing great. I am so uplifted by you. You are a true woman of Grace and I thank God that we have this opportunity to know you and learn from you. You are created for Greatness. I'm praying for you! You do look great!
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WCATAP 7/19/2010 8:09PM

    Wow you are doing great! Good for you! Keep it up!!!!

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GONABFIT 7/19/2010 7:08PM

    Thanks everyone!!: -) Ya'll make me smile!

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ZORAHGAIL 7/19/2010 4:37PM

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BABY_GIRL69 7/19/2010 4:25PM

    Girl, I thought I did alot today but doing my own & then reading yours made me a little tired. lol

God bless & guns are tight!


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PSSN4FITNESS 7/19/2010 2:45PM

    FIRED UP! I love your positivity and energy! You are already a bombshell, but in 6-Months you'll be unstoppable. Keep it pumped up!

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SWEETLIPS 7/19/2010 2:07PM

    You took pictures - brave you - my last picture featured a wedgies (lol) and you are looking good too.

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    Can I join???

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SAMANTHAJEAN86 7/19/2010 8:18AM

    Great plan!

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ABETTERKGIRL 7/19/2010 7:52AM

    Great job girl and one day my arms will be in shape like yours. Have a good week!

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BEFIT014 7/19/2010 12:45AM

    LOVE the photos!

You're looking good!

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GONABFIT 7/18/2010 11:12PM

    Thanks ladies!!! I'm sure your guns are defined! ... cause mine don't feel that defined to me... not sure exactly what i'm aiming for though! :-) LOL

I'm off to check both of your pages!

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CAROLINA_KOUKLA 7/18/2010 11:04PM

  Love your "guns"!!!!

I'm starting to get more muscle but they aren't as defined as yours - they are great!! You look great!!!


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GROOVYCHICK9 7/18/2010 11:03PM

    Lookin' Good! Keep up the good work!

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Learned something new today!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

This will be short because I am studying for my test Thursday...

I hear people say it all the time... I SAY IT all the time. But I need to listen to my body. I was tired last night.... likely because I am sleeping on average 4-5 hours a night. Medical school requires us to work 12-14 hours days, 6 days a week. With this being test week... it means my life is basically centered around school. But I still need time to sleep. So, I finally gave in, reluctantly I must admit, and went and laid down at 9 pm (Saturday night) . I worked 30 hours from Friday am to Saturday afternoon. I woke up this am and felt a little more refreshed... so I have been up studying since I woke up. The test is Thursday... the day before my 25th bday. And I just took a test Friday! -Not complaining though because, thank God I am following my dream.

I'm going to take time to exercise today... running, jumping rope, and strength training. And I'm going to give my self 90 minutes to do it. I can afford 90 mins for my mental/physical well being.

emoticon emoticon emoticon Oh and the reason I started this blog was to say.... I just learned that one of my small handfuls of walnuts = 1 OZ! emoticon emoticon emoticon
** I'm eating healthy and limiting bread and fries from my diet for the next week at least! lol... my 25th bday is coming and I want to do a "last workout" challenge til then.

Breakfast @ 9 am= oatmeal w 3 teaspoons of brown sugar, 1 teaspoon of butter. + one fried egg
snack @ 1:10 pm = apple and 1 oz of walnuts [ small snack because I'm about to workout]
Lunch @

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REINVENT_ME 7/18/2010 9:21PM

    You're doing great! Keep up the good work!!!

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ALLIEINSHAPE 7/18/2010 6:00PM

    You are doing great! Gotta love that oatmeal! Good luck on your test and have a wonderful 25th birthday!!

low cal - emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 7/18/2010 5:46PM

    Sounds like you have given this some thought. Good ideas.

God bless & Happy Sunday!


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DIVEMASTER01 7/18/2010 2:11PM

    You are doing a great job. I wish I had your stamina. Maybe I will when I get closer to goal. Good luck on your test, but I know you will do fine!

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STORMTMB 7/18/2010 1:27PM

    It must be so much hard work, but you have to take care of yourself too. Rest will improve your retention of the material that you're studying. Good luck with your test.

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DEBBIEKAY1 7/18/2010 1:24PM

    emoticon emoticon for sticking with your plan you should be so PROUD! I know I am for you!

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Today, I am proud of myself because...

Friday, July 16, 2010

1. I made a decision today to focus on telling myself the reasons WHY I CAN do something, instead of focusing on the reasons why I can't.
2. I studied for my test tomorrow, prepared and practice, and now am choosing to walk in faith and CONFIDENCE that I know what I am doing. And am ready to RAWK this test! lol
3. I only ate ONE slice of pie ( I made a sweet potato pie, it was the bomb!)
4. I packed oats to eat at work for breakfast. just added water and found a microwave
5. I took time to go to a ZUMBA class to relieve stress before studying
6. took time to meditate and pray.
7. Ate healthy, exercised, and journaled.
8. took time to sweep and MOP my kitchen floor... and washed dishes... on a test day. PROGRESS! lol :-)

Have a great night everyone! Just giving myself credit for the hard work I am doing. Sometimes it's easy to focus on what MORE we need to do, when really we should sit back and look at how much we have done!

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LOTUSFLOWER 7/17/2010 12:34PM

    How wonderful!!!!!

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BABY_GIRL69 7/16/2010 3:33PM

    Look you had me at praying, working out & preparing the meals. Studying & cleaning not on the same day?! Girl, you are my she-ro!

God bless & relax!

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SPARKLE1908 7/16/2010 12:12PM

    Great job lady!!! You should be very proud of your accomplishments!!!

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MOCACHOC 7/16/2010 10:07AM

    Sounds like you had a plan and you totally got it in. You keep us motivated and Rawking, LOL. I know you'll do well on your test as well as you do in making the lifestyle changes that need to be made.

Make It a Great Weekend.

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WE_PA_FIT 7/16/2010 7:08AM

    way to get things DONE!!! good luck on the test!

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TURTLERAE55 7/16/2010 1:52AM

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Keep up the good work.

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ERIECANALGAL 7/16/2010 12:31AM

    It sounds like you had a great and satisfying day today and stuck to your to do list! Keep it up!

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BAM! Results! :-) when you least expect them

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

So it's been 2 months since my last "official" measurement and I've lost 13.5 inches!!! WOO HOO!! only lost 3 lbs officially though.

Just wanted to throw that out there. Pretty excited. Hoping to see more inches AND POUNDS each month until I reach my goal!! My new goal is to make my STOMACH my FAVORITE body part. Now, THAT, will be a challenge! I'm ready for it!

Most of my inches came from my thighs. emoticon
Lost 1.5 inches from hips! and .25 from waist!
- 2.5 inch on left thigh, -2.75 lbs on right thigh.
-2 inches on biggest part of upper thigh L/ -2.2.5 on R biggest part of thigh
** I measure different areas of my thighs to see how they go down b/c my legs are curvy... like me! LOL
(p.s. I didn't include all of the areas measured... lol. so I knoo that this doesn't add up to 13.5 lol)

Gotta go, need to study. Just wanted to update!
Love you all my sparkfriends, - gonabfit, the Beautiful Bombshell

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MOCACHOC 7/15/2010 2:08PM

    Congratulations to you can't wait to see your new pics with the stomach gone. How's med school coming have you started residency yet.


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ALLIEINSHAPE 7/15/2010 12:35PM

    Great inches lost -just as good as weight loss as you can see it!!

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KEEZY21 7/15/2010 9:11AM

    wow thats great results! Good job! emoticon

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RUNGIRL4LIFE 7/15/2010 12:25AM

    emoticon13.5 inches...that is amazing. Keep it up! emoticon emoticon

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SAMANTHAJEAN86 7/14/2010 10:56PM

    Great job!!! Whhoooohooo! Keep it up!!!!

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RAEVENSWING 7/14/2010 10:28PM

    emoticon emoticon Great progress, you should be so proud of yourself!

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MAKALANI22 7/14/2010 9:48PM

    WOOT!!! you're doing great! nice job on the thighs... i have the same 'curvy' issue =)

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JAUDON 7/14/2010 9:43PM

    Congrats, and thanks for the reminder to measure myself more frequently!! You are doing great! :)

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LAWDVA 7/14/2010 9:04PM

    Congrats on your progress!!!

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MERRYCAKES 7/14/2010 9:03PM

    Congratulations, Bombshell! :) That is awesome!

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    Woohoo! Those are great results!

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KAYALI 7/14/2010 8:57PM

    Awesome- way to go!!!! Keep it up!!!

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SIERRA924 7/14/2010 8:55PM

    Congrats on the progress!

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    emoticon Congrats on your measurements! This gives me hope as I'm weighing weekly but am waiting to measure for 6 weeks. Fingers crossed I get results like you had today.

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