Monday, April 26, 2010
Just one of those days. I guess.
I know I have good qualities. I know I am "worthy" of good things in life... but some how, I just don't feel up to par today.
I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow... but today, I feel ugly. I mean... I took pictures and realistically I can see I probably look no different than I usually do... but for some reason I'm just feeling extra critical of myself. Of my not being the size I'd like to be, of my not being in a relationship that's likely headed towards marriage, of... well... of a lot of things.
My friend asked me to send him a picture of me... and you know what, I didn't do it. Why, you may ask? Because after like 5 shots... I realized none of them looked as good as I wanted them to.
And those who know me, know I'm positive.... almost always. But I'm human too... and basically I just wanted to get it off my chest. So... Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. A pretty day... a beautiful, confident day. But today, I'll rest assured that even bad days pass and working towards a goal will have to be enough UNTIL I reach it.
My picture from today! I know... it's not that bad of a pic... :-D