GONABFIT   45,606
SparkPoints
40,000-49,999 SparkPoints
 
 
GONABFIT's Recent Blog Entries

Feeling ugly.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Just one of those days. I guess.

I know I have good qualities. I know I am "worthy" of good things in life... but some how, I just don't feel up to par today.

I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow... but today, I feel ugly. I mean... I took pictures and realistically I can see I probably look no different than I usually do... but for some reason I'm just feeling extra critical of myself. Of my not being the size I'd like to be, of my not being in a relationship that's likely headed towards marriage, of... well... of a lot of things.

My friend asked me to send him a picture of me... and you know what, I didn't do it. Why, you may ask? Because after like 5 shots... I realized none of them looked as good as I wanted them to.

sigh.

And those who know me, know I'm positive.... almost always. But I'm human too... and basically I just wanted to get it off my chest. So... Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. A pretty day... a beautiful, confident day. But today, I'll rest assured that even bad days pass and working towards a goal will have to be enough UNTIL I reach it.

Goodnight.

My picture from today! I know... it's not that bad of a pic... :-D

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

REDWITCH78 4/30/2010 8:21PM

    We all have those moments. But may I say "Shut your mouth!" emoticon
You are beautiful inside and out.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MANDORA3 4/30/2010 6:37AM

    I think you and I worte the same blog!

We are our own worst critics....I happen to see a very strong and beautiful woman!!!

Big hugs to you!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
VEGGIE-FITNESS 4/30/2010 1:02AM

    I happen to think you are quite gorgeous. If this is a bad picture of you, then you must be stunning!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
BRIAN36 4/29/2010 10:21PM

    Look in your eyes in that picture. You can see that deep down you don't really believe your ugly at all. You're just not having such a good day. It will pass. Know that you are beautiful.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MAIA2011 4/29/2010 9:43PM

    Whoops! I posted twice.

emoticon

Comment edited on: 4/29/2010 9:44:05 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
MAIA2011 4/29/2010 9:43PM

    I know that it is hard to feel ugly but I have to tell you from an objective view you are quite classically beautiful!

Have a Sparked day!

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TEENY_BIKINI 4/29/2010 9:15PM

    You are beautiful.

I have days like that too, but they pass. Hang in there, gorgeous.

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
GDOBBIN 4/29/2010 10:09AM

    Feeling ugly must have been you 'experimenting to see how it felt' because you can't have an ugly day physically! :-)

Report Inappropriate Comment
CARAMEL79 4/27/2010 8:11PM

    Beautiful pic. And your teeth are SO perfect!

Report Inappropriate Comment
GONABFIT 4/27/2010 7:57PM

    Thank you ALL!!!! Today was much better. I'm glad I got it off my chest... and I'm glad today has been better! Love you ALL my sparkbuddies!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MERRYCAKES 4/27/2010 9:57AM

    You are gorgeous!

Everyone has those days, it's true. I hope today is a great, positive day!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPARKLE1908 4/27/2010 8:28AM

    We all get down on ourselves from time to time but like everyone else has already stated, you are BEAUTIFUL...today will be a better day for you!!!!!

Keep your head up girl...you have been doing a LOT and it's expected to hit a little bump every now and then....just remember that you have a world of SPARK friends that think you are the BEST!!!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MRSGOFARR 4/27/2010 8:19AM

    girl - you are crazy to think you are not pretty! you better embrace yourself and your body! we only have our youth once!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSTECHTEACHER 4/27/2010 6:38AM

    Not to sound like a broken record but...you are BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, GORGEOUS AND FABULOUS! No need to be so hard on yourself, but you know, everyone does have days like this. This too shall pass and tomorrrow, when you wake up and see yourself, you will see what we all see, a BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, GORGEOUS, FABULOUS woman who can do pullups! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FOOFIT1 4/26/2010 11:08PM

    I'm glad you came here to vent. I do that all the time, and I always feel better afterward. You ARE beautiful, and you have accomplished so much. I am glad that in a day or two you'll be back to your old, positive, cheery self. In the meantime, the rest of us will think you're gorgeous for you.

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT2BTHIN2 4/26/2010 10:56PM

    Please feel better... I am praying for a better day tomorrow.

Report Inappropriate Comment
LHLADY517 4/26/2010 10:52PM

    You have a beautiful smile. Believe it...You're beautiful.

Report Inappropriate Comment
NINJALINDA 4/26/2010 9:51PM

    You are astonishingly BEAUTIFUL! AND...you can do pullups?!? You are beautiful AND you ROCK! (But I know what you mean, and I've been there. Some days are just poopie!)

Report Inappropriate Comment
THEGETNSHAPEGRL 4/26/2010 9:41PM

    the best thing about tomorrow is that it's not today!! get some sleep and wake up tomorrow and smile sooooooooo huge it hurts your cheeks.. then thank your lucky stars that it cant possibly be as crappy feeling of a day as monday was.

Report Inappropriate Comment
GLAMOURGIRL-9 4/26/2010 9:19PM

    Those are usually my PMS days!!! I think you look FABULOUS!!!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ITSABOUTME2407 4/26/2010 9:16PM

    yep we all have those days sorry you are today emoticonbut from the picture I see you are a beautiful girl!! what a warm smile ...so don't be too hard on yourself ..one good thing feelings pass ..hope tomorrow is full of sunshine 4 u emoticon emoticontrish

Report Inappropriate Comment
SEMUSPARK 4/26/2010 9:06PM

    You are beautiful girl and don't ever forget that! I know we all have days when we get down on ourselves but try not to be so harsh. Look back at your old blogs here on spark, stand in front of your mirror and repeat a positive mantra. Hang in there girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
GONABFIT 4/26/2010 8:52PM

    Aww thanks guys.... you are all so sweet to me! I appreciate it.

Comment edited on: 4/26/2010 8:53:05 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
SUZIAND 4/26/2010 8:43PM

    Awww...I hope you feel better tomorrow! It is a new day! We all have days where we feel "less" than we should.
If it makes you feel better...I looked at your spark page and you are a strong, gorgeous woman who has done remarkable things!!! You inspire people like me and you should be very, very proud of yourself!!!


Suz : )

Report Inappropriate Comment
ISHFISH 4/26/2010 8:43PM

    We all have those days, but you know what, you are beautiful. I'll say it again, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, don't forget that. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
RACHEL_MAC 4/26/2010 8:34PM

    You should've sent this picture ... and the story that goes along with it. Any time you feel down think about the amazing things you're doing and the wonderful things you've accomplished so far. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_p
ublic_journal_individual.asp?bl
og_id=3134896 :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
GOCELTICSGO 4/26/2010 8:30PM

    It's one of those days...cheer up!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Jumped up out the bed... Dusted my shoes off

Sunday, April 25, 2010

took a look in the mirror and said What's up, HEY!!! I'm looking Good oh!!

Lol... Just a play on a silly little song. :-D ;)

But i wanted to let everyone know that I'm BACK! As far as running goes! I'm going to start training for another 1/2 marathon and some other small races (10K's 15K's). I am getting ready to start a more strenuous part of my schooling 3 months of pediatrics and surgery = 6 day work weeks, LONG hours, and not much time for sleep, study, fun, and ME. BUT I'm going to make it happen!

My goal is to plan my meals ( I made a monthly menu), stick to it, workout 30 mins daily and get as much sleep as possible while staying on top of school work! I will make it work!


Upcoming Races I'm interested in!
June 5: Distance: 10 kilometers (6.2 miles)
Sep 5: 1/2 marathon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SPARKLE1908 4/25/2010 9:58PM

    You are a machine girl!!! Lol...but if anyone can do it I know you can!!!

Get it girl!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PHATPINKE 4/25/2010 2:45PM

    GREAT JOB AND U CAN DO IT!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment


OMFGeee I did MY FIRST PULL UP!!!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Yes it IS 1:31 am and YES I do have work tomorrow... but while I was cleaning up I saw my pull up bar on the floor and decided to see if it would fit in the door frame of my new apartment (didn't work in my last apartment!

And guess what? It DID fit... so playing around I pulled on the handles to see if it would hold my weight... and then proceeded to pull my ENTIRE body off the ground! I did a pull up! FINALLY! after years of trying to do a pull up by myself and years of trying to strengthen my torn rotator cuff in my "bad shoulder" I DID IT!

WOOOOHOOO!

Now that's what fitness is about.

Not the pounds yet to be lost.

Not the clothes that may or may not fit like I'd like

BUT reaching NEW heights of health and fitness!! WOO HOOO! One pull up! and maybe not the best form, maybe my whole chin didn't get above the bar... but I DID IT!

Thank you, and goodnight! The Bombshell has left the building... off to get some beauty rest.

Mwah! emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

4DAAGSE 5/15/2010 3:41PM

    I just did a site search for pull-ups (I'm trying master them myself) and your blog was the first hit!
emoticon on your success!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MAIA2011 4/29/2010 9:49PM

    I just added you as a SparkFriend because of this great accomplishment. I have always wanted to be able to do that. Good job!

Maia

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEALTHYSASSY 4/25/2010 10:51PM

    emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JUSTFOXXY 4/23/2010 7:08AM

    emoticon you are way ahead of me!

Keep up the good work!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PIR8CHIK 4/21/2010 12:35AM

    Way to go! You are one pullup ahead of me! I've never even attempted to do one in my whole life! Way to go!
emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
REDWITCH78 4/20/2010 11:17PM

    Awesome! It takes a lot of strength to do a pull up. I am impressed!

Report Inappropriate Comment
UCRGIRL_ 4/20/2010 7:43PM

    That is awesome! I remember those dreaded physcial fitness challenges in P.E. and JROTC, and how I could never get at least one in, and how bad I would feel! That is such a major accomplishment for you and it makes me want to set a goal to do one, just to make my old JROTC instructor proud :)



Report Inappropriate Comment
SANTANDERE 4/19/2010 9:08PM

    You can rock this 2! I can't they hurt 2 much. Anyhow keep up the good work.


emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FOOFIT1 4/19/2010 1:56PM

    Oh my GOD!!! AMAZING! I only know one person who can do a pull-up and she's super freaking skinny. CONGRATS! That is an awesome accomplishment. I love your attitude too. It's not about the scale or weight lost. It's about doing the pull-up. SWEET!!!

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
NANCY- 4/19/2010 1:30PM

    emoticon
What a wonderful Surprise!
emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MSTECHTEACHER 4/19/2010 10:14AM

    Pullups are soooooo hard and YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!! Great job! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT2BTHIN2 4/19/2010 9:48AM

    emoticon You go girl!!! I am attacking then now on an assisted machine though, LOL. Can't wait until the day I can do one on my own. Oh yeah, I love the tee shirt. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
KARO30236 4/19/2010 9:04AM

    Congrats!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPARKLE1908 4/19/2010 8:41AM

    Way to go girl!!!!! I know how you feel...I had to do them at bootcamp and they are no joke but I got it done!!!! And I felt very proud afterwards!!!!

GO GIRL!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LINIS_THIN 4/19/2010 8:39AM

    Mwah! backatcha!!

WTG!!! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HEATHERL219 4/19/2010 2:12AM

    That is awesome and a HUGE accomplishment!!! Congratulations!! :) I've never been able to do a pull up, now I've got something else to look forward to once I lose this weight!! :) emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TEACHEROF4TH 4/19/2010 2:05AM

    Hooray for you! I love your positive attitude! Keep up the great effort!

Report Inappropriate Comment
WILLPOWER 4/19/2010 1:51AM

    We need to just keep trying and one day we will get there. Good job! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JABCLUB 4/19/2010 1:43AM

    emoticon That is fantastic!! Good for you, Bombshell!! emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 4/19/2010 1:43:28 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment


Day 7, 8, 9, 10 + ChangeOne lunch + declutter :-)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Forgive the busy title! lol...

Hey guys! Haven't blogged in a while but all is well! I'm still working hard, down about 4.5 lbs since a recent jump in weight for an unknown reason! .5 lbs until I can celebrate and get my first mini-goal gift!

What I'm proud of: I completed 3 strength workouts (like I planned) last week, 7 days of cardio (2 light days), and one day of yoga + one pilates session
I passed on fries at Chick-fil-a and only got the grilled chicken sandwich, I am sticking to the ChangeOne diet and BECK diet solution! And... I'm continuing to re-dedicate myself to eating clean healthy foods. :-)

What I will work on this week:
*continuing to declutter my new apartment. I need to do a yard sale or give away my clothes to good will.
* Bringing Lunch to work all 5 days! My goal for this week is to not add ANY additional salt or sugar to my foods (which means I may have to leave coffee out for a week OR use splenda.)
* 5 days of cardio. 3 days of strength, 1 flexibility/ yoga or pilates
* Journal
* sleep 7 hrs a night.

I'm rushing right now, but I'll be back to fill you all in later!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TEENY_BIKINI 4/18/2010 10:48PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SANTANDERE 4/18/2010 10:35PM

    Great job on all your goals, and as I see it you will succeed emoticon

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
JENNYPENNY29 4/18/2010 9:25PM

    I love those goals... I will make them my own vicariously. emoticon

You seem to have so much energy... can I borrow some? Keep up the excellent work!

Report Inappropriate Comment
5FRUITSNVEGGIES 4/18/2010 4:38PM

    thanks for the friend add!

good luck on not adding salt or sugar on your food...this has been a challenge for me too....i may have not stopped adding extra, but i have cut back at least a third of what i used to use!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPARKLE1908 4/18/2010 1:38PM

    Hey there...glad to "hear" from you..lol..but I knew you were still doing the dang thing!! You never give up or slow down and with everything you have going on you have a LOT to be proud of!!!!

Keep up the excellent work!!!

ttyl

Report Inappropriate Comment
FIT2BTHIN2 4/18/2010 1:28PM

    Good going on the weekly goals. I have starting doing this.

Report Inappropriate Comment
GONABFIT 4/18/2010 1:26PM

    Thank you both!! :-)

Report Inappropriate Comment
EFFDOT 4/18/2010 1:23PM

    Good luck. You'll reach your goals soon enough.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MERCYNGRACE 4/18/2010 1:18PM

    Congratulations on your accomplishments! Best wishes to you on the weekly plans! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


Today, I spread the spark.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

So as many of know, I am a medical student and my passion is preventing obesity related diseases and getting people to love themselves completely.

I had a patient today who was overwhelmed by her weight and dealing with a young baby and an unsupportive husband. I will not write anymore for security reasons but I suggested to her that she should visit the SPARKPEOPLE website and really begin to get some support in her journey. She was excited and I pointed out that she was worth the time and should spend a little effort MAKING time for herself and her happiness.

See, I spread the spark everywhere I go. I am a bright light in a dark room. lol. Don't come around if you don't want to be encouraged!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

LINIS_THIN 4/17/2010 7:38PM

    Great job.

You have to admit spark is the fastest easiest simplest way to get someone to lose weight safely as long as they depend more on the official info than on what people say they do!

Report Inappropriate Comment
WATERMELLEN 4/10/2010 10:36PM

   

Thanks for your kind birthday wishes! Much appreciated!

Comment edited on: 4/11/2010 10:16:56 AM

Report Inappropriate Comment
CARLAD22 4/5/2010 3:41PM

    I do the same thing. I was in the courthouse and the employees were talking about doing a weight loss challenge emoticon. So, I told the clerk she should consider visiting the website. emoticon and am so encouraged by all of my friends.

Report Inappropriate Comment
CONFIDENTLY_FIT 3/20/2010 6:01AM

    I also do the same:) Way to go!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SHERWOODCYCLER 3/19/2010 9:36PM

    Way to go.

I just found out that my brother is a spark people drop out (I should encourage him to join again). It has done me a world of good...

Keep on sparking.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SPARKLE1908 3/19/2010 8:37AM

    yes, you ARE a bright light in a dark room...you're not a SPARK MOTIVATOR for nothing!!!

Good job DOCTOR!!!!!!

TTYL emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MERCYNGRACE 3/19/2010 8:02AM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
FOOFIT1 3/19/2010 12:24AM

    AWESOME! I've been doing the same with my friends. Spread the spark!!!

emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
KINGSTYRANNY 3/18/2010 10:38PM

    Woo! I hope she takes the suggestion for her own healthy goodness :]

Report Inappropriate Comment


First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 Last Page