Tuesday, February 16, 2010
I saw this quote and felt like I needed to share with you all! not sure why.
"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So, plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong, and you really do have worth." -- basically I just like this quote! lol
--- Also I weighed in today and saw 150 on the scale. I hoped it was an error. I hope it's from lack of sleep, being sick, eating too many salty foods... BUT the truth is that the scale said what it said, and that is a reality. I am sad, hurt, confused but all and all this is a mere BLIP in my path and I will give 2 weeks before I weigh in to allow my body to readjust... mean while eating MORE veggies and healthy foods! But... i do think I've been doing MANY of the right things, waking up an HOUR before I need to... when I already have to wake up and BE at work by 6:15 most days.... skipping treats( like avoiding dairy queen, etc) , halving my more unhealhty meals, lifting weights MORE and cardio... So maybe this is a readjustment period. I WILL REACHMY GOAL!
I bought my bridesmaid dress... the lady tried to MAKE me put on a 12 (which I told her I did not wear) but fine, I don't have a point to prove and I want to look BEAUTIFUL in the wedding, not stuffed into the dress so I tried it on. I must say I breathed a HUGE sigh of relief when it was TOO big like I said it would be! YAY! And the size 10 was a little baggy in the shoulders/ breast area LOL so I'm going to try to lose a size by college roommates wedding in JUNE (the dress gets back April 1- then you need a month for adjustments). We shall see. But at this point I just want the dress to be comfortable... because NO ONE walks around with a size printed on the OUTSIDE of their clothes... its more important that it look flattering!
Long day tomorrow. 30 hr work shift. So I took a long nap, woke up to get on spark/ check some emails and study then back to sleep!