Saturday, February 13, 2010
to be the best that I can be
to be optimistic in evertything, I do
My past don't dictate who I am.... yea
- Lyrics from India Arie.
I awoke this morning realizing that there are things I want to change. I am so busy most of the time... They told us 3rd year of medical school would be harder than we were used to and that's fine... but the lack of time is quite amazing. Most days we are working 12-14 hours then expeccted to go home and study... it's hardto study when you are already exhausted. Add needing to clean my apartment so I can have some kind of peace, spending time with my pup, exercising, eating healthy foods, sparking, staying somewhat connected to friends, boyfriend, and family and that doesn't leave me with very much time for me.
But I must find a way to make it work.., and therefore, I am spending this a.m. cleaning/ decluttering my room. My apartment is way too messy for my liking so in an effort to remove the chaos around me, and get some peace for my environment I'm going to declutter as quickly as I can, then study (I have to pass on my friends bday party today because I feel like crap... and already am pretty overextended)
I choose to give myself the room I need to grow, to be patient when I struggle, to understand that I am doing the best I can and considering what I need to juggle I am doing pretty well.
I choose to LOVE myself unconditionally and do things that make ME happy. I choose to allow myself to make mistakes, learn from them, forgive myself, and as quickly as possible to move on. I choose to allow BEAUTY in my life on a regular basis. I choose to continuously re-focus on my health goals and to recognize that I WILL reach my goals, as long as I keep trying.
I'm off to clean and study... have a good one! I will write later and let you know about cals etc.
It's going to be a BEAUTIFUL day! So take a moment to enjoy your surroundings. My goal on top of everything else, is to find something unexpectantly beautiful and take a picture of it!