Thursday, January 02, 2014
LOL... I just like to call myself a bombshell. Makes me workout harder. ;-) Especially if and when I'm listening to Beyonce.
Just posting quickly to say I got through the holiday season without gaining a pound. NOT ONE POUND! Actually, I'm down about 5-8 lbs. :-D
Now for the rest of these excess pounds. I'm getting my plan in place for the next 6 months and want to change my MIND and body before starting fellowship. [ ETA: Below is a random letter to myself (and whoever is reading who may feel the same way). Random thoughts, improper punctuation and all. Quick blog at work. :-) ]
WOW time flies.
I'm 6 months away from finishing residency. I joined Spark people right before I started medical school/ end of college... and I've been a part of the community since 2007. I've SO appreciated being here. Even though I haven't yet gotten to my goal weight, for many reasons, I've gained so much more.
I lost my insecurities about my curves. I lost my need to belittle my body every minute. Lost the need for comparisons and to ask do I look fat in this every chance I get.
LOL. My weight is higher now compared with 2007... I'm MORE curvy, I realize I actually MIGHT look fat in something... and you know what, it's ok. Gaining weight taught me something too . I learned that loving myself fully is the WHOLE REASON for this journey. When I get back to 140 lbs I truly believe I won't be beating myself up over why I'm not 120. When I'm 135 I won't long for 115. If I do, I won't have learned this beautiful lesson of self-love and I think that's how and why people yo-yo and gain weight back.
This is a lesson of self love, Point blank, At least for me. I love what my body has done. I've run 2 marathons. TWO. 26.2 miles twice. Toe nails lost, tears cried, blisters, corns :-(, but my feet healed. My body remained strong. LOL. Ran 3 half marathons and many many smaller races. I've done taebo, turbo jam, insanity/P90x (though I didn't finish those ), the Firm etc. Lots of exercise videos. Bought a treadmill and spin bike.
My body has continued to perform despite sleepless nights, unbelievable amounts of stress (medical school, residency, ridicule, insecurities), junk food, fatigue, sickness, etc. And there she is... going strong, waking up each morning, and functioning like the well-oiled machine she is. So to my voluptuous body I say THANK YOU!
Thank you for continuing to go on despite my flaws and mistakes. Thanks to my musical, magical, thunder thighs that have warned others I was coming with the swishing sound and ruined many a pair of pants by being a little too friendly with each other (and rubbing a hole in the leg LOL). Thank you body for holding on and hanging in there with me through it all until I could convince my MIND that I didn't need the weight anymore.
Now, it's my turn to show MY appreciation and give you the love, rest, kindness, nutrition you've been wanting all along. We are gonna ROCK this year!!! In the end... I promise I'll make it worth it. Watch me work.
- Gonabfit aka Beautiful Bombshell. :-)