Tuesday, May 03, 2011
You know what I think about working out? I think that the more I think about it, the higher the probability that I won't do it.
If I sit around all day dreading tonight's workout, then I am going to have HOURS to come up with an excuse not to go. Too tired, too much work, in a bad mood, car's out of gas, need to do laundry, washing my hair, out of the country, etc.
So, I'm not gonna think about it. I have been focusing all day on eating well and finding foods that are good for me. I've been focusing on doing whatever I'm doing in the best way possible.
Now suddenly it's 4:00. Time flies when you aren't plotting the demise of gymtime! Besides, I'm actually looking forward to it. I need the hour of cardio today in order to prepare for my hour with my trainer tomorrow!
I'm also nervous about weighing in. I know I've done well food-wise, but I know that there are so many factors that play into weight loss. I don't get enough sleep, I'm developing muscle, I'm super-stressed, etc.
You know where I'll be tonight? I'll be at the gym. I'll be on a treadmill, wishing that I could rewind back to high school so that I could tell my past self what I know now. Since I can't, I have to do the next best thing and fix this before it gets worse.
Besides, I always feel better after a good workout and a hot shower!
Monday, May 02, 2011
I am a competitive person by nature. The quickest way to get me to do something is to challenge me - tell me that you can do it faster or that I can't get it done in 20 minutes and you'll be amazed at what I get done.
This is why I love SP. Sure, I wanted to lose weight before. Pretty much every I know wants to lose weight. Motivation has always been my problem. I could go to the gym now, or I could clean my apartment for an hour and call it a day. That hour of cleaning becomes 5 minutes and suddenly I'm on the couch watching tv.
Thanks to SP and all my teams and friends here, things are changing for me. I'm using challenges for my own benefit. I'm joining in on things I never thought I would, all because it's a challenge.
The trick now is to get myself to a place where I will continue reaching for my goals even when there isn't a competition in place. I want to get to a place where, when given a choice between a plate of fruit or a plate of cake and chocolate, I will choose fruit. And maybe a small piece of chocolate.
The more I think about it, the more I realize that I AM IN A COMPETITION. Every day is a competition, and I am competing with myself. There's RealMe, a woman who's healthy and happy, and then there's FatMe. FatMe doesn't care about the future. She only cares about RIGHT NOW. She wants a cheeseburger and cheese fries RIGHT NOW because they taste good. RealMe also wants a cheeseburger and cheese fries, but she realizes that those things will not help her. They won't get her where she wants to be, and they'll actually hurt her in the long run.
I will not let FatMe win. That girl doesn't care about my future.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
I had a realization today that made me stop and really think for awhile. When I think about my weight loss journey, I think of the time I spend in the gym and the healthy or not-so-healthy food choices I make. In reality, my weight loss journey is a 24 hour job.
Weight loss doesn't begin and end with your time at the gym. It doesn't only matter when you are eating or when you're faced with a tough decision about cheeseburgers. It is a fight every second of every minute of everyhour of every day. If I sit down to watch a movie, that choice is having an effect on my weight loss journey. I could be doing something active, but I'm not.
Of course, sitting down to watch a movie isn't a bad choice. I can't actively be working out 24 hours a day. That would burn me out and I'd never want to even drive past a gym again! But if I'm watching a movie and folding laundry or doing some stretches or doing something else at the same time, then it's going to help me want to be more active. Instead of watching my little brothers play baseball in the backyard I can join in and play. That's helping me toward my goal.
Lately I've been reading a lot of books and every time I get to the end of a chapter, I do something active. I do some situps, streches, or take a short walk around my apartment. It's been helping. Now instead of dreading the gym, I WANT to be active. I'm getting used to being active again. In fact, I feel a little bit lazy if I'm just sitting there watching my tv.
Becoming healthy isn't just about eating right and going to the gym. It's about every decision I make and how it impacts my body.
I won't be healthy overnight. I'm going to want to be lazy and I'm going to want to spend a day curled up on the couch every once in awhile. But I hope that I get to a place where the couch isn't the most likely place you'll find me. At the end of this weight loss journey, I'm not going to be eating cheeseburgers every day and I won't stop going to the gym. I'll just be at a point where that's part of my life and it's what I do because I like it and because it's healthy, not because it's helping me lose weight.
Sunday, May 01, 2011
I wanted a cheeseburger today. I wanted one so badly that it was all I could think about. Every answer to every question was "cheeseburger". I finally decided to give in and that I'd stop for a cheeseburger on the way home from my parent's house.
But I didn't.
I started thinking about the struggles I've had the last week and the decions I've made. I've been doing so well. Then I realized that a cheeseburger is just food. It's not life and it's not air. It's not something I need.
So I drove on by.
Someday when I've completed my goals and when I'm feeling better about my weight I will have another cheeseburger. But not today. I won't let food own me.
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