Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Guess how many times I have worked out since I got married at the beginning of August.....
Is your guess higher than ten? Then it's wrong.
Is it higher than five??? Also wrong.
The correct number is ONE. Seriously. One. Actually it should be zero because the one time I worked out I was just going through the motions and not actually doing much of anything.
But you know what? That's okay. That's where I was at.
Before I worked out to get fit, but that wasn't REALLY the reason. I worked out because I was single and thought I needed to lose weight in order to attract friends (especially guys).
I'm not saying that it was a bad reason. It was a decision I was making for myself and I wasn't beating myself up about it. Sometimes we need an extra push to do healthier things and that was my push.
Then I met a guy, got engaged, and got married. Suddenly it didn't matter anymore. Nate loves me no matter what I look like, so I can skip the gym now. I can eat whatever I want, whenever I want.
I will tell you this secret though.....I don't enjoy fast food anymore. I think it tastes terrible. It makes me feel sick to my stomach. I crave homemade foods - not always healthy ones, but in my opinion anything homemade is better than a fast food number.
I drink a lot of soda, but not like I did before. Years ago I could finish a dozen cans in a few hours. Now one or two and I'm done for the day. Yes, I know that losing the soda would help me lose a few pounds, but I enjoy it.
So, my new program is portion control. I'm not going to count calories or measure my food out or any of that anymore. It was driving me crazy and I always felt like I was depriving myself of things that I liked. Now, if I want a cheeseburger and cheese fries then I will have them. If I get full after half of it, then I won't force myself to finish it like I have done in the past.
I want to create a way to live my life and be happy and healthy without the constant worry about calories and grams, trying to figure out just how long I'd have to be on the treadmill in order to eat a piece of pizza.
I need balance in my life and I will create that!
And now, WEDDING PHOTOS!!
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Has it really been this long since I've logged in here??
Have I strayed that much?
Yep. I really have. Things got in the way and I have no excuse except that I made choices and weight loss wasn't high on my priority list.
I'm married now. Yup. There's a guy out there who loves me no matter what weight I am or what I look like. Of course, he wants the best for me and encourages me to be my best.
I'm trying to be a little bit better each day, and my first step is coming back here. So, SparkFriends, hello!! I've missed you!
Thursday, June 06, 2013
I know, I know. I said I'd blog photos of my gym. I keep waiting for it to be perfect and pretty before I take the photos.
Then I weighed myself. I have GAINED 2 pounds. Yup. You heard me.....GAINED.
So I thought about all the things I've been doing. I've worked out more in the last few weeks than I did over five months. It wasn't a ton thanks to sickness and wedding planning, but it was more than usual. I haven't been eating great, but I have been eating less.
Then I realized something. I've been putting my healthy habits behind the I'll-Do-It-Better-When-My-Situation-Is-Bet
ter wall just like the gym photos. I'll eat better when I'm not so busy. I'll work out more when the gym is more organized. I'll stop drinking soda when I start working out every day. Mmmmm, ice cream would be delicious thanks. I deserve it because I've been so busy planning the wedding. I had a bad day, so I'm just going to hit the drive-thru on my way home. I'll eat better when I feel better.
I'm so busy rewarding or consoling myself that I don't even think about healthy foods. That last sentence really hit me hard just now.
I'll eat better when I feel better.
I do this all the time. I'm tired or sore or sick, so I do the "easy" thing and pick up fast food on the way home.
But it actually keeps me feeling yucky. I can't get healthy if I'm not giving myself healthy foods. I'm keeping myself in a state of yuckiness because it seems easier than chopping some vegetables up.
How ridiculous am I??
So I'm still trying, but with more knowledge and eyes that are opened more. Tonight I WILL take pictures of my gym. You should expect a picture blog tomorrow. If not, you will know that I am slacking again and you should hold me accountable for that. I'll hold myself accountable too, but sometimes it's easy to let myself off the hook.
In less weight-lossy news, I'm going to Disney World! Really! That's where we decided to go for our honeymoon. I'm very excited because thirteen years ago I worked there for four months and I haven't been back since.
Also, next Thursday they have scheduled the installation of the hot tub at the new house!!
In kinda annoying news, I still haven't started looking for a wedding dress. I hate the way I look in dresses and I hate my weight and I hate shopping and I hate trying on clothes, so shopping for a wedding dress is going to be an emotional day that I keep putting off. In fact, I keep asking my mom if I can just wear jeans to the reception but she says no. She thinks no one will know I'm the bride if I'm not in a wedding dress. I told her that I can wear a tiara. She still says no. *sigh*
Thursday, May 30, 2013
A few weeks ago, I recommitted. I told myself that I was going to get back into my healthy habits. I'd eat right and work out.
Bronchitis. Yep. So no working out for this chick. I felt ok most of the time - a bit tired here and there sometimes. But any time I did anything even remotely physical - run, lift things, walk from the couch to the bathroom, speak more than 4 words at a time - I'd start coughing this weird, airy cough that would then continue for hours.
It was stupid. Seriously. I wasn't throwing up. I wasn't in bed sleeping all the time. But it set me back.
Yoda wasn't happy, but it was more of an I-feel-sorry-for-you than a You're-being-a-wimp thing.
So I haven't done much this past week except go to work, watch tv, and sleep.
This doesn't bode well for June 8th's 5K. But I signed up for it anyway.
Granted, I could have eaten better this week. I ate okay thanks to portion control, but when walking across a room brings on hours of coughing, one doesn't really want to stand in the kitchen cooking. Nathan was very helpful, cooking and cleaning. But I still could have done better.
Next time, I will. But this week, I'm calling it a win. I think I still even managed to lose 2 pounds!
I meet with Yoda tonight for a workout. We're playing it by ear and if I start to cough then we're shortening the session.
Also, my gym at the house is DONE!!! I shall take pictures tonight and I'll post all about it tomorrow!
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