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Doctor's Office

Thursday, April 11, 2013

I went to the doctor last week and every time I am sent to the exam room - I secretly jump on the scale to see where I am - was not happy because I haven't been focused on my health at all for some time.

When the doctor came in - we talked some and then he said, "Get on the scale" - I didn't want to and told him I already knew what the reading would be - for whatever reason he continued to insist - this made me angry - but I have to admit its put a fire under my arse....

He then took my blood pressure and looked at me and said, "is something bothering you" - in my mind - yes you idiot - i am ambarrased and upset about my weight...and didn't want to get on the scale. Of course I didn't say the idiot part outloud lol

Now he is making me come back in a month, wants all kinds of bloodwork done and I am sure he is going to give me a tongue thrashing about my weight gain.... but he can't say anything worse than I am saying to myself - so onwards I go

Had to get his off my chest - its been bothering me - and am anxious about having to see him in a couple of weeks again....

Well the fire is back and I am back to spark to help me get the results I want.

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100LBLIGHTER 4/25/2013 4:57PM

    The truth is sharper than a two edged sword.... it hurts and sometimes deeply. It is probably the best thing that could happen to you......the push that gets you a car that won't go. hee hee. You will be so improved when you go back that the Doc will be surprised. I am rooting for you!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HALFMYSIZE71 4/18/2013 6:23PM

    Man, we really ARE kindreds! I want to cry whenever I get on the is your motivation this week? emoticon

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AMARILYNH 4/11/2013 4:00PM

    Is there anyone here who has never had a weight gain?? NOT me - I've gained and lost and gained and lost - BUT I'm finally (at age 65) maintaining my loss. You will get here - as long as you don't give up trying!!

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STALEYK 4/11/2013 3:08PM

    Hey be kind to yourself....the fire is back and we're here to support you. We've been there....we just keep moving forward! emoticon

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Refresh and restart...

Monday, December 17, 2012

Ok its Monday and I am going to really make a concerted effort to stay on track this week - but am starting about thinking about today only.... my toughest time is always the evening....

I am still searching for a way to get past my need to eat and eat in the evening...

I am soooo hoping I have it figured out before the end of 2013....

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100LBLIGHTER 4/25/2013 5:08PM

    I can not sleep if I am hungry....and if I don't sleep I don't make that hormone that tells me when I have eaten enough....that can be a vicious cycle. I always make sure my supper has some carbs.....carbs make serotonin that is used for melatonin. I save calories for a bedtime snack.....around two hundred calories and don't go over that amount!!!! emoticon banana and Milk also aid in sleep. I must have a protein too. for it to work. Find what works...take it out of your allotted calories....make it healthy. It will work. emoticon

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BOBBIENORTHERN1 12/17/2012 5:01PM

  I am hoping right along with you..... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Dent marks in my midsection...

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Ok, I finally started working out again after falling off the fitness spark planet for about 11 months. The biggest change I have noticed about myself tho is that I got rid of all my oversize clothes and when I noticed that my jeans were so uncomfortable that I had huge dents in my midsection... well I didn't have a fail safe... and started making baby steps to get back on track.
Another change was that I usually would fall off literally until I hit my highest weight and then some and then start the slow crawl downwards... this time - I started that crawl 20 lbs sooner yeahhhhh
I haven't got it all figured out - and I know that when I am thinner - I truly feel better - and the added bonus - I look better and I don't have to search for something that fitssssss....
Already I can now sit in my jeans without horrible discomfort (dent marks are not quite so red lol)
I am truly inspired by my spark friends and so appreciate that I can check in any time and I can feel like this journey is being shared... am excited also to get rid of those dent marks lol....

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GUINEVERE23 12/1/2012 11:04AM

    I had that "uh-oh" feeling myself this past month...when I realized that the only jeans that fit me were the really, really, really big ones I was keeping around for a weight gain emergency. Then I checked the scale for the first time in a while (I was in denial about the gain) and I knew it was time to get back on Spark. Congrats on your progress so far, and on resuming your program before you reached the top of your range again.

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LINDZZ3 10/26/2012 2:06PM

    emoticon Baby steps are great. Set small goals, work towards getting there. For example, with my exercise: I started with shorter workouts before I joined the bootcamp challenge. Now, I'm working towards one full hour of working out. Or breaking the soda habit: I started with 120z a day, 6oz a day, 12oz a week.. I believe if you just jump in, you have a greater challenge to rebound. Start small, make them into habits, then keep adding and pushing yourself. emoticon

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JUMPINJULIE 10/10/2012 6:50PM

    You can do this.

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Monday, July 23, 2012

I have gained weight and feel totally guilty about it. Everything I lost in the last year - a total of 15lbs - which was a total struggle - went back on in a very short time. I am trying very hard to get back to where I was in my thinking and nutrition.....why is it so hard to get back and so easy to fall....

I'm tired and discouraged....

Hopefully this won't last too long...

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JUNESHOPE 8/17/2012 8:07PM

    Forgive yourself and move on. Small cheats from time to time don't wreck our diets. Not getting right back on track, after the cheat, is what does the most damage.

emoticonClimb right back on the wagon and go forward. Don't let a little fall back get you off track.

Good Luck, June

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KIMBER1984 7/23/2012 4:14PM

    Hi stranger, I'm here for you. Thanks so much for your msg. I am going home after work today and going to dust off the treadmill. We can do this emoticon
I like you have also been away for quite some time. I can make all the excuses in the world but it's not going to change anything.
Let take our baby steps together. We can committ to this!


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BOOKWORM27S 7/23/2012 12:42PM


I know it is difficult, but if you refocus your goals, you might find that you get excited about losing weight again. I like to put my goals down on paper, it makes them seem more real and achievable.

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The dreaded Rollercoaster...

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Okay, the truth is - I have lost and gained so much weight over my lifetime you would think I would get off this rollercoaster - but sadly not just yet....

I had someone give me a box of my favourite cookies before Christmas - shortbread - and have been pretty much eating everything/anything that appeals to me since then...I couldn't keep my hand out of the box once I started eating them and yes ate them till I felt ill....

I decided to get back to working towards my goal of a healthy weight and back to connecting with Spark again....

I - checked my weight - because sadly I am on the scale constantly when I am working out regularly paying focused attention to what I am eating. When I am eating whatever appeals - then I stay off the scale. The number on the scale - well lets just say I wasn't happy again and sad that I had let it go this far....literally sabotaged myself to gain back half of what I had lost.....

I was so proud of my loss and felt great - so why did that sugar rush for one night - make me jump back on the roller coaster - for 5 months grrrrrrrrr

I know no one really cares if I gain - my hubby says I am beautiful no matter what - I am the one who cares - I need to lose at least 30 more pounds according to my doc as I was diagnosed pre-diabetic by my doc at my last visit....

I saw what diabetes long term - did to my mother and father.....

I need Spark, I need support, I need to keep focused - I so appreciate the little notes left from my Spark buddies... they truly do help ....

I Want to Be the correct weight for my body so that it functions the way it should. Why is it so many people are the right weight and it seems so very very difficult to me... I Want This - I Want This - I Want This

Can and will do....


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