Friday, April 29, 2011
The last 4 weeks have been tough. I spent the time back home in Alabama caring for my ailing father, sitting by his side until he lost his courageous battle with cancer on April 18th. I also ended a year-long relationship with someone who was very dear to me, but who wasn't there for me, when I needed it the most. These times have been some of the most difficult of my life, but in them, I have found a renewed desire to move forward with a focus on myself and the things that matter most.
I did well the first couple of weeks while I was in Alabama. I avoided the temptations around me and continued sparking at my mother's house. As time passed and stress mounted, however, I began turning to the comfort foods that friends and family seemed to always be bringing over. While my spark may have been dim during this time, it did not completely go out, and now I'm here to relight it.
If you read my blogs, you'll soon discover that I can be incredibly hard on myself. This seems to be a theme on so many other spark blogs as well. I'm no longer going to beat myself up for the decisions of the past couple of weeks. I won't concede that I deserved those foods, but I will say that with everything I was going through, it was really hard to focus on what was best for myself.
I'm very fortunate in that I only jumped off of the wagon for a few weeks. I only gained 2.2 lbs in that time. All of my hard work was not undone and I'm still under 250 and can still make this happen for myself. Today I turn back onto the road from the path that led me astray. Today I make this happen for me.
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
I haven't been on sparkpeople.com in a couple of weeks and I have really missed the support and accountability. My aunt lost her courageous battle with pancreatic cancer a couple of weeks. The same week we found out my father's paranasal cancer, which had been operated on resulting in the loss of one of his eyes, had metastasized as bone cancer in his hip, femur, and clavicle. He also has numerous masses on both lungs. Essentially we were told by his team at Vanderbilt Hospital that there are really no further treatment options and the focus would shift to pain management. At the time of this blog, Dad is bed ridden in a care facility with Hospice coming in to manage his pain.
Fortunately my job allows me to work remotely, and as such I've been in Alabama with family and spending as much time with my dad in his final days as I can. Between work obligations, family, and time with dad, I've had very little time to Spark and I've really missed it.
I have maintained better than average eating habits and filled my mom's house with nutritious snacks. I've avoided, for the most part, the copious amounts of what I like to call "Sympathy Southern Food" that have been brought to us. I even managed to lose 1.3 lbs over the past week and a half.
I'm ready to return the normalcy of the routine I had established for myself and my life in Atlanta, but at the same time I know that return to normalcy comes at a precious cost. So until then, I will continue to walk it out here in Alabama and hopefully make some time for the Sparking that I have come to enjoy.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Had my weekly weigh-in this morning. As you can see, I weighed in at 248.9 lbs. This represents a loss of 2.4 lbs this week and 8.1 lbs overall so far!!! I'm really pumped about these results - I haven't been below 250 lbs in over a year. I also reached my end of March goal on the 18th of the month, which gives me a head start on next month's goal!
I'm starting to tell slight differences in the way my clothes fit as well - I wore a pair of slacks yesterday that, before, were a struggle to snap. While they are still a little snug, I didn't have to lay on the bed to get them snapped HAHA. I'm sure this time two weeks from now they will fit just fine - no problems.
I hope everyone has a great weekend! Keep moving... keep eating right... and keep sparking!!!
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