Sunday, December 21, 2008
As of this morning I am 50 pounds down. Last week I found a picture of me last Dec. 24. I thought I had made my husband delete that photo because when I saw it I was so disgusted by it! The only thing I could see when I looked at that picture was someone trapped. I was lost and cried inside wishing I could just get my act together and find that determination I once had.
I also saw my Mother when I saw that picture. She is very unhealthy and is at risk for so many illnesses because of her extreme weight. I just did not want that for myself.
One year later...
In this picture I see myself...who is a very HAPPY person. Determination found!
In this journey I have made lots of little changes with how I look at things.
Early on the best thing I ever did was let go of time lines. "It takes what it takes!"
If I am doing all that I know how to do at the time then my body can only lose fat so fast.
"After all what would I be doing anyway". Just because I am not losing fat as fast as I want am I going to be doing anything differently...NO!!
I do things in 12 wk BFL challenges but I never tracked the weeks when I first started. I did not want to look at it like I just had 12 wks to do this. I have a lifetime to do this and I will not change how I take care of myself. This is how something becomes a lifestyle.
I am not dieting, my way of eating is just how I take care of myself now, there is no LIFE STRESSES that can make me eat something that "I just do not eat anymore".
I think about maintenance, what will change? Well not much except that I will need to add calories.
I am now on my 4th 12 wk BFL Challenge. I look at them as 12 wk cycles now. I have changed my workout this time because I was ready for more. And that's what I see in my future...getting the most out of my workouts, improving my strength and always challenging myself.
I truly believe that every person can find their way. The first step is wanting more for yourself and then choose to make it through 1 day, then 1 week, 1 month, 1 year, 1 lifetime!