Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Today I have officially been on SparkPeople for 6 months! My how time flies when you're having fun! It is hard to think how different my life was just 6 short months ago. I was very inactive and just really didn't care. I ate the worst possible foods you could imagine! It seemed like every time I went to the store, the clothes just got smaller! I pretended that I wasn't really getting bigger. I have said many times before that I was going to lose weight, but then a few weeks into it I just quit caring. There was always junk food around or fast food because I was too busy. I always had some place to be rather than the gym, even if it was just at home on my couch. I told myself I didn't have time to workout.
Then something hit me! I don't know what it was... but I finally decided that if I was going to do it, now was the time. At that time, I was living alone due to a work assignment. There was no one to blame if there was junk food in the house except myself. So I started slowly but surely. First it was just tracking what I ate. It is amazing to realize how much that little step means. Then I found Spark a week later. I don't even remember how I heard about it... but boy am I glad I did! I jumped into the process whole-heartedly. I realized that I got off work early enough to go to the gym and then still make it home in time to make dinner and enjoy my tv shows. So that is what I did. I made dinner every night, with enough leftovers for lunch the following day. I started to go walking or go to the gym several times each week. I even started eating breakfast again! As the weight started to fall off, it was more motivation to keep going. What I was doing was actually working! I became more active with Spark and started joining groups. These teams have been a lifesaver for me. They have been there for my ups and downs, to help me celebrate, or figure out a solution to a problem. I have met some amazing people here! I love all my Spark friends!
So here I am six months into my journey. I have lost 49 pounds (so close to that 50 pound mark), 40.75 inches off my body, and have gone from a size 16 to a size 6! Yes, a size 6! I just went shopping yesterday to try and find something to wear for my sister's bridal shower in a week and a half. I found this fabulous skirt to wear and was was ecstatic to find out that I could fit in a size 6! I also now fit in a medium shirt instead of an extra large. But the changes are not just physical. It was amazing to realize how much the extra weight was weighing me down emotionally. I had the worst self-esteem! I felt like I should just crawl in a hole and stay out of everyone's way. That has changed. I am finally loving myself and realizing that I am an amazing person! I deserve to be healthy and happy. I won't let people just walk all over me anymore. Some people tell me that I am confident now and maybe even a little cocky... well I think I deserve to be that way! Why shouldn't I love myself and show the world that I love myself! I am a new person and there is no stopping me now!
I am really looking forward to the next 6 months on Spark. Hopefully by then I will have achieved my goal weight (only 23 pounds left to go). I am hoping to continue to tone and strengthen my body. I am looking forward to swimsuit season... I'll have to make sure I find reasons to go swimming! I am also looking forward to seeing my Spark friends achieve their goals. I know they can succeed... we all can!
Now my food for thought for today....
"Success is not a place that we aspire to, it is a process in which we live by. Often the only ingredient being the ability to not quit." - author unkown