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So... I haven't fallen off the face of the earth...

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Okay... so I haven't blogged in awhile... or done anything else for this journey in fact... besides go backwards. So I thought I would update everyone on my life and what's been going on with me. Life has been a *tiny* bit stressful for me lately. For those who do not know, I am getting divorced. So the past month has been full of all kinds of sh*t... from setting up accounts in my own name, trying to get the soon to be ex's crap out of the house, having the house refinanced to me, arguing over every little thing we possibly could, informing my family and friends, hiring a lawyer to start the paperwork to file, etc. Its just been one thing after another and something had to drop... my healthy lifestyle was it. I haven't been to the gym in over a month... and I actually miss it! My food choices have been crap... lots of take out and quick fix meals because I just didn't have the time or energy to care to make something. And my body is hating me for all of it. I have gained some back (not sure yet how much... maybe a couple pounds... but right now I know I'm retaining water from this weekend... so we'll see the damage in a few days). I'm really not to worried about it. I needed to get my life back on track and back in my own control. It has been an extremely hard road to get here... but this was all part of the journey back to loving myself. I am finally almost there! My family and friends (including all my spark friends) are all being extremely supportive. I am so glad I have all of them in my life. I don't know what I would do without all of them to help get me through these past couple of weeks. Its definitely rough... but totally worth everything I have to go through to finally have my life back.

So... I basically just wanted to let everyone know I am still here. I am sorry I have kind of dropped the ball on checking up on people and seeing how everyone else is. I have recommitted myself to this starting tomorrow... after work, I'm going grocery shopping and stocking my house full of food that is great for me. I'm going to start scheduling time at the gym... slowly work myself back into a regular routine... because I definitely need some type of routine in my life to help get back to normal! Thanks everyone for being here for me!

  
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SSUESM 4/13/2009 5:07PM

    emoticonSorry you've been going through such a difficult time, but hang in there and you will be OK. You obviously have a wonderful Spark network to rely on for strength, comfort and support!

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NANNYBEKAH 4/13/2009 11:03AM

    Well, I had no idea! I wish I had so I could have done something!! It sounds like you're hanging in there though! Just know that we're always here for you. I have no idea how you feel, I'm sure its hard, so lean on us if you need to. I'm glad you are back!!!

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CAROL0NYX 4/13/2009 10:07AM

    My continued best wishes!

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STEVEISAWESOME 4/13/2009 9:27AM

  Glad your back! I know people come and go on SP. The longer you can stick it out the better you will feel. I was in my apartment last night for the first time by myself.
Alone. Quite. and utterly miserable. I am not comfortable and I was depressed. I know exactly what you mean ...nothing felt important. I didnt want to do anything ...but sitting there made it worse.
You will be ok! Everyone says it gets better with time ...I think getting healthy is the key to you an I feeling better. I am not giving up so dont you give up either. Email me through SP if you need someone to talk to.

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MSKELLEY 4/13/2009 8:40AM

    Ellie, Ellie, Ellie... I am so sorry to hear of your turmoil... I know this isn't easy and life seems very hard right now.... How many times have you heard "It will get easier"? It will... I've "been there, done that"... and know that though life seems to be "down" right now.... It really is going to be alright...

During my recent turmoil... I've tried to remember what momma used to say to me years ago... "God doesn't give you anything that you can't handle"... I often said (and still do) that I wished he didn't think quite so highly of me... emoticon but the truth is... I've been made a better person because of everything I have been through...

And so will you. Sometimes we have to focus on us... and our healthy lifestyle fades... but as you once said to me... It's always with us... even when we make the "easy" choices... it's in the back of our mind... knowing that we'll get back there eventually.

I think the world of you, Ellie. You have blessed my life and I know ... that you will be better for the choices you are making now...

You have my phone number if you need me... I'm here.

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MCDLADY1 4/13/2009 7:53AM

    I knew you were going thru a rough time and I'm glad you are moving forward and getting thru everything. Be sure an holler if you need anything and you will jump right back on the wagon and be better off in the long run.
Take Care

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DRAGONFLYSPIRIT 4/13/2009 2:00AM

    I am glad you are back and know that tomorrow is a great day to start your new plan for great health. Take care of yourself and always know we are here for you!!
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THESPARKNHISEYE 4/13/2009 1:43AM

    I'm glad to see that you are back with us. You are not alone
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ANEPANALIPTI 4/13/2009 12:02AM

    Now that's what I like to hear... You're going through a rough patch, but we never lost you, and you have been SO STRONG I am so proud of you... Do let me know about your first day back at the gym... Release and relieve that stress! You are such a great person Ellen, DO NOT FORGET IT!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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More Before and Afters...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

So as I said in my last blog... I've had a couple of off weeks. But for the new Spring into Summer Challenge, we have to take "before" pictures. So I took my pictures today and decided to put them side by side with my "before" pictures from October 2008 (which was actually two months into my journey). It is amazing to see the difference I have made since October 2008. Just something to make me remember how far I have come when I am having an off week.



  
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DRAGONFLY180 5/6/2009 2:32PM

    wow! awesome transformation!
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RMOBLEY08 4/29/2009 11:16AM

    WAY TO GO GIRL! What's your secret? You must tell me! Congrats on the magnificent loss and remember to keep your head held high through everything! You've made it this far and the best is yet to come! Thanks for the inspiration! I am starting over again too...on May 1st I am going to kick myself in the butt...REAL HARD! I want to look good in a swimsuit this summer and next and next...LOL!

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TRICIA08 4/24/2009 8:10AM

    Wow! Lookin' awesome!

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THECOOLESTSARAH 4/24/2009 1:22AM

    You have a cute teensy waist! Congrats!

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CAROL0NYX 3/26/2009 10:22AM

    Nice visuals for how much you have worked your butt off!!

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WILLBE142 3/25/2009 10:34PM

    Amazing progress!!
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MCDLADY1 3/25/2009 7:04PM

    You've done wonderful be happy with your results. It's all those wonderful Sparks get togethers. Just kidding. LOL.

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GROOVYTIFF 3/25/2009 1:23PM

    wow, that is awesome!

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PEACHYCYN 3/25/2009 10:36AM

    You look graet! Keep it up girl.

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CABS*MOM 3/25/2009 9:11AM

    Oh wow. You look great!! You HAVE come very far since October. Keep up the great work!!

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CHRISTYWVU 3/25/2009 8:04AM

    That's so great! You've made such wonderful progress!
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SSUESM 3/25/2009 7:34AM

    Wow! You are really making some great progress!!! emoticon

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Lookin' goooood!!

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 3/24/2009 11:54PM

    OMG You look SOOOO tiny!!! Wow, ok, I'm officially jealous of how great you look! You should feel great about yourself!

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*~*MICHELLE*~* 3/24/2009 11:54PM

    You look great! emoticon

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I won't let stress...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I won't let stress ruin my success.

This is my new motto. I have more stress in my life right now than I know what to do with. The past two weeks I let it get the best of me. I ate way more than I possibly needed. And on some days... I just didn't eat anything really at all. I haven't worked out in about two weeks. I just let the stress get the best of me. But not any more! I am done with letting stress rule my journey. I am taking back control of my food and my life. I can do anything I put my mind to. I will succeed!

That is all for now.

  
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NICOLELOVESGOD 3/26/2009 9:52AM

    I'm with ya! And I looked at your recent pics - wtg on the body changes!!

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WILLBE142 3/25/2009 10:45PM

    I'm happy to see you're taking back control. Stay positive. I know you will succeed. Just look at what you have accomplished so far!
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HEYBECKYJ 3/25/2009 9:36AM

    Glad to see you back on track! Love you sis!

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CABS*MOM 3/25/2009 9:09AM

    I love your motto. We should all live like that! You are such a strong woman, I know you can do it! A great positive attitude will get you very far in life :)

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SSUESM 3/25/2009 7:36AM

    You sound so determined! Fantastic! Your new motto will get you through anything!

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 3/24/2009 11:47PM

    You WILL succeed! You have come so far and have made so many wonderful changes that there's no doubt you will continue on your success!!

Violet

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Before... Middle... Now...

Saturday, March 07, 2009



Before: June 28, 2008
Middle: October 31, 2008
Now: February 8, 2009

Seven months later... I can't believe that I can change that much in seven months! It's crazy. I never noticed how chubby my face was... lol! Okay... that's all for today... just looking at pictures, trying to figure out my life. Good night!

  
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SFOSTER 3/15/2009 1:28PM

    Looks great. Keep up the SUPER progress.

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ANGELCURLS 3/9/2009 10:22PM

    This is you ...... emoticon. You look great! emoticon

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MEL635 3/7/2009 11:16PM

    WOW! I've been doing the same thing with pictures. I've recently ran across some from 2005 (I was 24 then, about your age now) and I can TOTALLY see a difference in my face from then to now (it's chubbier now, lol).

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MSKELLEY 3/7/2009 9:44PM

    You look amazing!! I am so proud of you!! I TOLD you!!!!! (You should believe and trust your elders! HA!)

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 3/7/2009 1:52AM

    WOW! Isn't it amazing how much our faces change!!! You look absolutely fabulous! :)

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    Congratulations on your accomplishment and you look absolutely amazing...... emoticon

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Six Months!

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

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Today I have officially been on SparkPeople for 6 months! My how time flies when you're having fun! It is hard to think how different my life was just 6 short months ago. I was very inactive and just really didn't care. I ate the worst possible foods you could imagine! It seemed like every time I went to the store, the clothes just got smaller! I pretended that I wasn't really getting bigger. I have said many times before that I was going to lose weight, but then a few weeks into it I just quit caring. There was always junk food around or fast food because I was too busy. I always had some place to be rather than the gym, even if it was just at home on my couch. I told myself I didn't have time to workout.

Then something hit me! I don't know what it was... but I finally decided that if I was going to do it, now was the time. At that time, I was living alone due to a work assignment. There was no one to blame if there was junk food in the house except myself. So I started slowly but surely. First it was just tracking what I ate. It is amazing to realize how much that little step means. Then I found Spark a week later. I don't even remember how I heard about it... but boy am I glad I did! I jumped into the process whole-heartedly. I realized that I got off work early enough to go to the gym and then still make it home in time to make dinner and enjoy my tv shows. So that is what I did. I made dinner every night, with enough leftovers for lunch the following day. I started to go walking or go to the gym several times each week. I even started eating breakfast again! As the weight started to fall off, it was more motivation to keep going. What I was doing was actually working! I became more active with Spark and started joining groups. These teams have been a lifesaver for me. They have been there for my ups and downs, to help me celebrate, or figure out a solution to a problem. I have met some amazing people here! I love all my Spark friends!

So here I am six months into my journey. I have lost 49 pounds (so close to that 50 pound mark), 40.75 inches off my body, and have gone from a size 16 to a size 6! Yes, a size 6! I just went shopping yesterday to try and find something to wear for my sister's bridal shower in a week and a half. I found this fabulous skirt to wear and was was ecstatic to find out that I could fit in a size 6! I also now fit in a medium shirt instead of an extra large. But the changes are not just physical. It was amazing to realize how much the extra weight was weighing me down emotionally. I had the worst self-esteem! I felt like I should just crawl in a hole and stay out of everyone's way. That has changed. I am finally loving myself and realizing that I am an amazing person! I deserve to be healthy and happy. I won't let people just walk all over me anymore. Some people tell me that I am confident now and maybe even a little cocky... well I think I deserve to be that way! Why shouldn't I love myself and show the world that I love myself! I am a new person and there is no stopping me now!

I am really looking forward to the next 6 months on Spark. Hopefully by then I will have achieved my goal weight (only 23 pounds left to go). I am hoping to continue to tone and strengthen my body. I am looking forward to swimsuit season... I'll have to make sure I find reasons to go swimming! I am also looking forward to seeing my Spark friends achieve their goals. I know they can succeed... we all can!

Now my food for thought for today....
"Success is not a place that we aspire to, it is a process in which we live by. Often the only ingredient being the ability to not quit." - author unkown

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BIONIC2 3/5/2009 1:56PM

    This is a really great blog to read! I'm looking forward to watching your success continue while we're on the accountability challenge together....

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ANGELCURLS 3/3/2009 7:19PM

    Wow!!! Size 6!!! That is jaw dropping! Congrats! emoticon

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MCDLADY1 3/3/2009 5:39PM

    Woohoo Ellen yeah on the size 6 you've done amazing. You should be able to run tomorrow it should be nice out

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SPARKLINGVIOLET 3/3/2009 2:47PM

    CPMGRATS on your emoticon!! It's amazing how similar our stories are :) I, too, started off by tracking my food and then I found Spark and the rest is history! I remember reading blogs from others who had been on the site for 3 months, 6 months, and 1 year and read their success stories and want so badly to have one of my own...now we BOTH have those stories! You're amazing and your 40 inches lost made my jaw drop!!!! :) Keep up the great work...your goals are definitely within reach!

Violet

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ANEPANALIPTI 3/3/2009 2:19PM

    Congratulations on 6 months!! We are kind of like sisters on this SP journey, reaching milestones at the same time and so close to each other. My 6 month anniversary is March 15th! (I had this account for longer, but the day I started officially was September 15th - I've tracked every bite since and used the site so faithfully)

I'm proud of you!!

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LUVLILULU 3/3/2009 2:02PM

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