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OOPS! A Freudian Slip...

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

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So I just updated my weight tracker to reflect the weight I gained over the holidays. I then went to my SparkPage to see it in writing only to discover I put myself at 141 instead of 241! Last week I told one of my work weight loss buddies that I weighted 141. Boy was she surprised!
The thing is for a long time I did weigh 141. I guess my brain really wants me at that weight. I'm working on it. So if anyone happens to see me list my weight at 141 don't be alarmed. I'm working on it! Please feel free to remind me to keep working towards onederland!

May we all meet our goals in 2012!

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KIMI_SILVA 9/3/2013 12:24PM

    As a psych major, I saw the title to the blog and I just had to check it out. LoL! I agree with GREEN_NURSE, speak it, visualize it, dream it, live it, become it. I wish you the best on your journey to 141!

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GREEN_NURSE 7/2/2012 4:52AM

    You know what they say about verbalizing our intentions...it helps in the manifestations.... emoticon see yourself at that weight....

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BUTTERFLYAT38 1/12/2012 11:39PM

    emoticon emoticon your on your way!!

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BABYSTEPS84 1/4/2012 12:37PM

    LOVE it! Girl, you make me smile. You are going to do wonderful this year!

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MOM2ACAT 1/3/2012 4:10PM

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BUTEAFULL 1/3/2012 1:27PM

    that's just extra motivation
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WOLFSPIRITMOM 1/3/2012 1:03PM

    Your body knows where it wants to be, way to go, you'll get there.

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I Love Fresh Starts!

Sunday, January 01, 2012

2012...Looking forward to it. I joined SparkPeople 6 months ago. I did not have the amazing success or motivation of some. I did learn a lot and met a great group of like minded individuals to share the journey with.
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This year is going to involve some pain and discomfort. I have spent the past year healing from the break up of my 25 year relationship. I was gentle with myself. Now it's time to get off my butt and live! I need to get ready to be tired, do things which are uncomfortable and begin to live the life I was meant to.
That means moving more, spending time cleaning and saying no to my daily sugar intake.
If I am successful I will feel better than I have in years. I want a new job so I need to be at the top of my game.
I am not sure yet what my day to day life will look like. I do know it will include more activity, fruits, veggies and less clutter. I know that I will make this my priority daily.
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I look forward to the journey and sharing it with all Sparkers.
Let's enjoy success and fun! Are you with me?

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SOULFISH80 1/2/2012 10:01PM

    I'm with you girl!!!!

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FREETHEGODDESS 1/2/2012 7:50PM

    Exercise is a refreshing kind of tired and eating healthy helps curb those sugar cravings. It won't be as painful as you think. Like it says in the book, The Spark, create an upward spiral with small accomplishments and before you know it, you will be living a healthy lifestyle with more energy than you've had in years.

This is YOUR YEAR! You have the power to make those healthy choices and you deserve it!

Best wishes to you!
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EM1388 1/1/2012 8:54PM

    I know I am!
We can do this! Make this the year that everything changes! Let's get on the ball and make this count!

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BABYSTEPS84 1/1/2012 7:45PM

    I am truly looking forward to taking this journey with you. I'm ready to take it to the next level too. We can do it!

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MOM2ACAT 1/1/2012 2:51PM

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WOLFSPIRITMOM 1/1/2012 1:32PM

    For sure with you! emoticon

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ME_HERE_NOW 1/1/2012 1:28PM

    you will write the story of your new year, you will make the things you want to happen, along the way you will make new friends & supporters. make 2012 everything you want it to be! woohoo!! happy new year!

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Holiday Loss - Not talking About Weight

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

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I think the holidays are bittersweet for most people who have been around long enough to lose someone special. In our house it's my Mom. We have lost other family members but somehow the holidays are linked to my Mother.
My Mother was born on Thanksgiving so in our house it was a extra special day. All the relatives would make the long (80 minute) drive from "the city" to" the country" where my parents had moved. I hold many fond memories of those special Thanksgivings. The year Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer she missed Thanksgiving as she was recovering from her surgery. She lost her fight a few years later on Christmas Eve. Christmas Eve had always been special since my Mom was a night nurse, Santa would always come before 11pm when she had to leave for work. She knew one of her 7 children would be unable to wait for her to get home from work in the morning and she didn't want to miss a minute of our joy.
I don't often share this story since to me it seems too terrible to believe. Plus I don't want to ruin anyone else s holidays. As the oldest, and now Matriarch of my family I have tried to keep the holidays happy. My youngest sister who was 10 when Mom died seemed to appreciate the approach. Now we celebrate the holidays at her house as she has the youngest child. My middle sisters really have a hard time when it comes to the holidays. I try to be all things to all people, letting them express their feelings to me pre holiday in the hopes that we can keep things positive for the actual celebrations. This year I am not doing so well with the balance. Almost had my first panic attack on the way to work yesterday.
So to all of you who are thinking back to those who will not be with you this holiday, I share your pain. My heart goes out to those of you who are spending your first holiday season without them. I believe we honor them best by taking good care of ourselves and feeling the joy that comes with living. So although it will be bittersweet, I wish you all a good and peaceful holiday season.

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HANOVERLADY 1/12/2012 12:07PM

    I'm so sorry you lost your mom. It's never easy, no matter how old you are, to lose a parent. This past holiday season was the first for my husband without both of his parents. His dad died in July of 2010 and his mom died on Mother's Day of 2011. We did something completely different for our Christmas this year because my hubby didn't want to be home where he felt he would think sad thoughts about the wonderful Christmas celebrations his mother would put together. I'm not looking forward to Mother's Day (what an awful day on which to die; any holiday is) because I don't know how well my husband will hold up.

So glad we have loving and warm memories of our family members who are no longer with us.

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1COUNTRY_GAL 12/23/2011 7:12PM

    I am sorry for your loss,my Mom passed in 2006 and just recently my step mom passed.We hold dear the cherished memories with our loved ones who won't be here to celebrate the Holidays with us.They are dearly missed and loved.God Bless you and thank for sharing your heartfelt bittersweet story,many can relate and empathize with you. emoticon emoticonDiana emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EM1388 11/29/2011 12:45AM

    I'm sorry to hear about your loss and how it is rough around the holidays! Make sure to make time for yourself and let yourself think about the happy memories and even grieve some when YOU need, not just your family! I know when my family gets together we tell a bunch of happy stories about my grandma (some I was really suprised to hear!) and it helps us get through it and even enjoy the holidays!

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BUTTERFLYAT38 11/27/2011 10:13AM

    emoticon my warmest regards to you and your family. Memories are forever and the loss will always be there but other things will come that will bring new joys. She is looking down on you and your family and smiling from heaven I am sure. Keep your spirit strong in honor of her memory and take care of your heart and the rest of the family will surely follow. emoticon

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BABYSTEPS84 11/27/2011 12:55AM

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful, special story.
It troubles me the "all things to all people" part...I am a people pleaser and it is a terrible strain sometimes. Do know you are important, your feelings are important, and your loved ones want the best for you too.
I hope you had a special holiday.

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EFFIEANNIE 11/26/2011 8:35AM

    I am sorry for your loss. It is very hard to lose a parent. I really hate cancer. There was a study a few years a go about night shift women having an increase risk of breast cancer. I have a colleague who worked nights foir many years who also got breast cancer.

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MOM2ACAT 11/24/2011 3:42PM

    emoticon I'm going through the first holidays without my dad this year.

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ME_HERE_NOW 11/24/2011 3:54AM

    you really said it all, thanks for understanding. it is hard when things change & traditions shift, but it's all part of our journey of strength. thinking of you and yours, hope it's a great day with a few laughs and lots of love.

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LINDA! 11/23/2011 5:27PM

    I also lost my mother to breast cancer....it is sad to see the empty chairs on the holidays! emoticon

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My Entire Body Hurts but I Did It!

Saturday, November 05, 2011

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Today I completed my first 5K! I signed up for the Trick or Treat 5K Walk/Run. Figured I had plenty of time to prepare and joined a training program. First day training 15 minutes, piece of cake! Well as the weeks passed I never managed to walk again until this past Tuesday. The fighter in me wanted to do the 5K anyway, my good friend agreed to walk with me.
Yesterday I really started to worry what I'd done. The truth is I'm really out shape. Just because 11 years ago I did the 3 Day Breast Cancer walk, 20 miles a day for a total of 60 miles didn't mean I could just get off my butt and do a 5K.
Well I was really worried this morning as I set out, I had to do it, I had to at least try.
Beautiful sunny, cool fall day. Walked around a lake, would need to do two laps for the 5K. After 15 minutes I knew I was in trouble. FIFTEEN MINUTES! No way was I going to stop after fifteen minutes. I was mad at myself, mad at my body for not just doing what I asked despite all the abuse (neglect really) I had subjected it to. I wanted my trophy! I wanted to update my status to say that I had completed my 5K! I wanted to add Goal Met when I huddled with my Team! So I kept walking, my friend was a great help. I didn't want to fail in front of her so I kept walking. I was afraid if I stopped I would not be able to continue. When I had finally pushed past the "no way can I do this" I took a 2 minute rest. I was gratified that my body got up and went again. After 60 minutes I had done my two laps, my 5K! Now all I had to do was make it to my car. When I could see my car I suddenly found myself sprawled out on the ground! Now how did that happen? One minute I'm walking, the next flat out on the pavement. I was ok, got up without too much effort and reassured my friend and the bystanders that I was fine. I guess you could say I ended my 5K with a bang... and a bump!
Next time I plan to train like somebody with some sense. Spark On!

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MPICKHINKE 11/15/2011 10:31PM

    I am so proud of you and I enjoyed your blog. You can do anything you put your mind to do. I am always proud to be your friend. Congratulations emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EM1388 11/6/2011 9:56PM

    WAY TO GO! Good for you for keeping yourself going and showing yourself you can do it! I'm proud of you and extremely happy for you!

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ME_HERE_NOW 11/6/2011 1:01PM

    hopefully u can use this accomplishment to motivate you to create a consistent walking plan for yourself, work up from 15 min to 20 and then beyond, never forget how good it feels to accomplish your goals! :D

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KIMYNAN 11/6/2011 12:25PM

    I know exactly how you felt as I felt the same way last year in the Great Aloha Run. I walked the 8+ miles and really didn't think I could do it, but I didn't give up and did it just like you. Sometimes we just need to push on and think "I CAN DO IT!"

Proud of you!! WTG!!!!

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BUTTERFLYAT38 11/6/2011 10:01AM

    LOL..its so true when you want to do something better then what your ready for its so frustrating..but i remember i would just promise to do a certain minimum and then go over only if i was still feeling good and then raise the bar when i was getting consistent. You will figure out your own formula again! That is awesome 60 miles..if you can do that wow..you can do anything!! That I do have to say!

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XFITSTRONG 11/6/2011 8:01AM

    So proud of you! Great job!

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FLEMIDG 11/6/2011 12:03AM

    Congratulations on completing your goal!!! You did great, but you really should train a little beforehand. I am so glad you didn't hurt yourself.
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    emoticonjob and Congratulations emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WOLFSPIRITMOM 11/5/2011 10:48PM

    At least you finished and learned from it. Next time will be better!

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DEDE824 11/5/2011 10:44PM

    Glad you survived this! Goal met, and I applaude you for that. Please don't stress your body this way again. Like you mentioned, conditioning before hand is what's needed. Hope tomorrow is a recovery day!! emoticon

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BOOK REVIEW: Important Subject

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

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This review is from: Republic, Lost: How Money Corrupts Congress--and a Plan to Stop It (Hardcover)
Lawrence Lessig has written a timely book for anyone who is concerned with the state of Our Union. There is no way around it, the subject matter is depressing. Our Country is in a bad way and most regular Americans are not really sure what to do about it. This book is a good place to start. Not only do you get a clear understanding of the major problems with excellent historical context, you get suggestions on how to effect change. This book which clearly articulates a problem and then offers solutions resolves the depressing aspect. There are things all Citizens can do, starting today. The book offers suggestions on how to begin with many resources and links. Whatever level your time, energy and resources allow, You will be able to do something to help. Do not be put off by the enormity of the problem. At this point our only choices are to accept our broken, corporate controlled government or as Americans Citizens have done at critical times in our history stand up and remind others that our Republic is responsible to "The People" alone. This is not a Liberal or Conservative issue. This is not even the 99% vs the 1%, although the 99% are suffering more from the current state of Our Union. I found this book to be an easy and enjoyable read despite the serious subject matter. I strongly encourage everyone to read this important book. As one of the 99% we have to do something. This is a great place to start
Just finished reading this book. Felt the need to share my review with my Spark Friends.

  
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SWIFTSEATURTLE 12/4/2011 10:17AM

    Hi! I noticed your new profile pic, and looked at your page changes and all the new pictures. The kitties must be lots of fun.

I've read your last 3 blogs - don't care enough about points to make separate comments, but they're great blogs.

I'll get this book. Thanks!

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KMICHA 11/3/2011 5:39AM

    Thanks for the review. Like it or not, we do have serious problems. This sounds like a book that will offer suggestions for the ordinary citizen to do a bit to help out. Have a lovely day!

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LESLIE_2B_LESS 11/3/2011 2:32AM

    I see the low end of the society every day... I am a caseworker for the State of Missouri and determine eligibility for food stamps, temporary assistance, medicaid and other programs. We can not keep up with the volume of work, it is overwhelming and there is no money to hire more workers.

The state workers have actually been losing out on benefits over the last couple years... no pay raises for 6 years, our health insurance keeps doubling every year with less & less coverage. Overall the economy sucks and no one seems to helping it a bit.

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NDTEACHER1 11/2/2011 9:13PM

    I think all too often we want to vilify corporations and we cannot go on blaming them for everything. It is the card being played now and I am sick of the class warfare and spreading the wealth theory. They will come after middle class strong once they have set an amount that is interpreted as wealthy. $250,000 is NOT a lot of money for a small business. I do not like what I see going on and you cannot get an objective view from any of the news channels and AP articles are extremely biased, but most people don't know how to sift through the garbage, they take everything as fact. I can tell you horror stories of the supposedly poor. Many live better than I do and I work 10 hours a day if I'm lucky.

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1COUNTRY_GAL 11/2/2011 3:37PM

    Thank you,sounds like a must read for all of us citizens.I will check this out You are right we all can do something,if we just try.Start by reading this book. emoticon emoticon

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