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7 Days

Thursday, December 19, 2013

A lot can happen in just 7 days. In 7 days, Christmas will be here and there are a lot of preparations that still need to be accomplished. It'll definitely be a crazy, busy week, but I want to take some time and have fun with it too.

Enjoying the time spent with my family, the decorations, & the colorfully wrapped gifts. My holiday train running under the tree. The excitement and the anticipation building.

Also, taking a little time to reflect on the season, my relationships, and my goals. This will be the first Christmas with my boyfriend, and I'm very excited. I hope that it'll be the first of many with him.

Well, time to jump back into all the chaos of Christmas Prep. Hope you all have a sparkly day.


I want more...

Sunday, November 17, 2013

I've decided that I want more from life. It's time to move forward in my life and it's time for me step up my participation level.

Sitting around day after day just isn't cutting it any more. I have to stop being passive and become active.

Life is there, within my grasp. I just have to get up and do it. Let's go ^_^

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DOLPHINKARIN 12/3/2013 12:29AM

    You can do this. Become involved in team challenges and daily challenges to keep you motivated. You can do this!

P.S. Welcome to the San Francisco Giant's team. Join our Christmas Season Goal Challenge. :)

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CELEST 11/18/2013 4:43AM

    Welcome to your real starts here. I once upon a time lived life quite passively also...not anymore. I am loving life now, and Im positive you will too.

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It's been awhile. . . .

Friday, December 28, 2012

emoticon Well, it has been a long while since I've been here. Between school & life, my health has fallen pretty far on my priority list. Sooooo, now I'm back and I'm ready to take it one day at a time ^__^ emoticon

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ADOUGLASMHOR 12/31/2012 3:56PM

    Good on you and good luck! Happy Ne Year when it comes. emoticon

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SCRAPPINPOLLY 12/28/2012 12:47AM

    I hope it's awesome for you!

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LATTELEE 12/28/2012 12:37AM

  Good luck

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'just' fine?

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

Today I realy realized that nobody really wants to know how you are. Even though they may ask you, it seems that all they want from you is just 'fine'. Nothing more than that. Nothing deeper.

A great number of people, when I ask about their health, respond with just 'fine'. But, when people ask me, I find that just 'fine' doesn't say anything at all about how I am. This is where I run into trouble. Any response from "I feel like crap," to "I feel fantabulous" or even "I'm hunky-dory" doesn't seem to phase people they still anser it with a vauge and distracted, " that's good," or "that's nice." When did we stop listening?

The other thing I realized today was that nobody cares what problems or dilemas you may be experiencing in your life. As long as you can pretend to be 'just fine' then they don't have to actually be an active participent in whatever is going on in your life.

I have been asked several times in the last 2 days about who my best friend / trusted friend is. Honestly, I don't have anyone that close anymore. I thought I had good close friends that I could count on, but I don't feel comfortable sharing with them like I used to, I don't feel like they would be there to support me either.


Separte Rant LOL

OMG I almost feel like I'm drowning.

I'm behind in my classes and especially on my homework. I'm having a hard time understanding everything in my math class, but I could probably dig myself through the homework, but I'm also behind in my Japanese homework, and I don't have near enough hours in my gym class.

Adding to that, now I'm primary caregiver for my grandmother, whom I love dearly, and all of the household chores. Also stress over health stuffs just gets added to the pile too.

Oh, and I might also lose my financial aid. I have been taking classes at the community college since I was in the 5th grade. I took alot of classes with my parents and had a great time. I also entered college (after highshool) without direction and so I tried a lot of classes and couldnt keep them all up. Up until this past fall session (the begining of this school year), my parents paid for all of my classes. But apparently this has no bearing on the set number of units attempted that create the cap on the funds.

Unfortunately this could possibly mean that I wont be able to graduate. Thus creating a stupid cycle - I can't get a job in my field if I don't have the degree, I can't get the degree if I don't have a job. . . . . How is this right?

. . . . . anyways...... I guess I just needed to let a little steam off...... thanx for understanding enough to read this long winded rant. Knowing that I have such amazing Sparkly Friends in this little box keep me smiling.

Thank you all so very much. Loves!!!!! HUGGLES!!!!

. . . ok, I'm off to bed now - thanx again you guys - I wouldn't make it without you all.

Oh. . . PS: If I ask you how you are, pause and take a quick check. Sometimes you might surprise even yourself by the truth. And I really do care about how you actually are, so don't give me just 'fine'.


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CELEST 6/6/2012 11:09AM

    I agree with your sentiments regarding fine. This line comes from a movie and I've never said fine again since then...."don't give me fine. Fine means Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional.
I agree, if you say How are prepared to really listen, otherwise, just smile politely and move on.
The flip side of that coin however, is some days have to be gold, and some days dust. If every day is a bad one, people will lose interest real fast because there are some serious whiners (not saying you are one) in the community.
Im attracted to smiling faces, and I get to know people really well. That way when one is "acting out of character" I know something is wrong or they are having a bad day.
Even the bible says be slow of speech and swift of listen up when you ask someone how they are.
Hope your days been a good one today.
ps its awesome to see someone caring for the older generation. Kudos to you for your loving attitude.

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KAMILLAVIRAG1 6/6/2012 5:39AM

    You see, I had to learn to just say "I'm fine, thanks". People looked at me strange when I actually told them how I was. In my culture, especially before, if someone asked "How are you?", s/he would stop and listen. That was the norm. Anglo-cultures regard "How are you" as "Hi" and nothing more. Being bicultural and bilingual now, I have to switch back and forth :D

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HEMPGODESS 6/6/2012 3:08AM

    We havnt talked before bacause I'm new but I care and I would hug you if you were here.. Soooo... emoticon
I do what I can lol

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Back on SparkPeople

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Hey all! Finally I have internet at home so I can get online with you all agian.... life has been so crazy lately. I'm going back to school full time and I really need to get back sparkin' before I develop too many new bad habbits - like buying junk food while at school.

Well, I'd better get back to work on my math homework. It is soo good to be back here. See you all around *HUGGLES*

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GMRKITTY 6/2/2012 10:51PM

    actually, I'm going for my AA Degree in Web Development & an AA Degree in I.T.

as for the cafeteria, my school doesn't have one - all we have are munchie snacks sold in the book store. Sometimes they have pizza or something. But, for the most part, its chips, soda, energy drinks, and candy LOL.....

BTW - I love Jamie Oliver I have 2 of his video games and an app or two - great food ideas.

Hope u r having a SPARKLY day !!!!!


Comment edited on: 6/2/2012 10:52:43 PM

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CELEST 6/2/2012 6:09PM

    Wow thats great. Are you finishing school or studying something specific, or teaching?
I hope you cope with the school food system. I saw a program of Jamie Oliver and what goes down in school cafetarias......ugh.

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