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Preparation for my JOURNEY

Sunday, December 30, 2012

emoticon Well here we are once again. I seem to go through quite often but this year has been a long one. Right now as I sit here and write this I am preparing for my JOURNEY. Making sure groceries are in the house, junk is gone, measurements are done, profile will be updated. And I have also decided that i am logging EVERYTHING. Good and the Bad. Personal and non-personal. I am not holding back anymore.

This last year has been hell for me. I have been Bipolar since I was 17 (now 37) and this last year I dont even know what all happened. In May of 2011 I found out I had uterine cancer so June of 2011 I had a full hysterectomy and I have a clean bill of health now. In the beginning July 2011 I was confronted by a family member (whom I usualy have limited contact with) about stuff that occurred when I was a kid/teen etc. About the abuse I had encountered though out my upbringing. I thought I was dealing with it all pretty good and was doing good. I had met my dream man shortly before all this and got into a serious relationship with him in July of 2011. Everything was GREAT. But in October of 2011 something happened. I dont know what--- I started falling apart. I was different and I still cant explain it. Well by Feb 2012 I had lost everything. I had a complete melt down. I lost my job, almost my relationship, my house, my car, family and friends... you name it. I ended up dealing with Mental Health and a Psychitrist for awhile as well. I am a self inflictor (cutter, scratcher etc... and seiver emtional eater). I have now been diagnosed with Bipolar as well as Border Personality Disorder. I was confused for a long time about alot of it, but alot makes sense now too. Even my oldest friend thinks it all makes more sense now, she never knew how i coped with everything I had been through, but I never coped, I just put on a good front, and made a seperate life that had alot of dark locked doors. Well not anymore.... I have gained ALOT of weight again, and i am taking my life back!!! So here I go ---- emotional, mental and physical healing.!!!!

My motivators---- My Health and Well Being, My kids, My grandson, My Husband!!

Game plan..... get everything in order before Tuesday Jan 1 2013 (food, measurements, weight, support, profile)..... Eat right, log everything, drink water, walk dogs, exercise, and keep a positive outlook..... emoticon

***All my entrys will now be found on the "Community Journals - Glo's Refuge and Journey" thanks for reading and look forward to your comments....

  


wow what a day :(

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

emoticon I need this.....

What a crazy day... went to work to fing one of the apartment pipes exploded and was flooding my beer cooler... what a mess and massive hard work... spent all day doing that and never even got to eat properly or anything.. but tomorrow is another day...

  


Week 1 - Done

Monday, December 05, 2011

emoticon Well this week has been literally all over the place, but my pop intake has been cut dramatically, i think i have only had about 6 cups all week compared to my 5min a day.... but i have my pictures and motivation images and sayins posted everywhere.....

Number one motivation---- I got my wedding dress... but need to drop at least 2 inches in bust/wait....

Number two motivation --- well the rest of my goals... lmao

So lets get at it and kick some major ass.... helps if my fiance doesnt go get a bag of chips when im craving lol.... he started laughing - oh sh** babe im sorry..and put them away lmao lmao lmao

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SARAH0335 12/9/2011 1:46PM

    I have a picture of my dress in my images on my phone. When I am feeling really lazy, I will pull it up. The dress can definitely help keep the motivation going! I know th changes are not just for the wedding, but for the rest of my life. I have no problem with getting all of the motivation I can out of that wedding dress though!

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Day 1 - Done

Monday, November 28, 2011

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Well today was a busy day for me but I did it. And with NO pop, I cant believe it lol. I know I need to do more workout time, but tomorrow is another day, although I think I will be on the highway most of the day/night, but baby steps right. I have even got 3 glasses of water down, I know I know "drink more water" but its coming... one step at a time....

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SARAH0335 12/9/2011 1:44PM

    Day 1 is always the hardest! You are takiung the right steps!

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GLODES 12/6/2011 8:18PM

    Thank you so much for commenting...

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STUDLEEJOE 11/28/2011 10:48PM

    emoticon Your doing great. Keep it up.

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