Sunday, August 03, 2014
Today's Spark Coach asked me to think about my larger goals - what will I do to improve my fitness once the weight comes off? Hmmm...... I've been thinking about exercise as a means to an end rather than an ongoing commitment - doesn't sound very clever, does it?
My real goals for losing weight are likely common to most - comfort in my own skin. I hate feeling the excess weight on my body. It doesn't feel good to feel my stomach on my legs, or see my double chin in photos. I'm comfortable with who I am, I just am not comfortable in this body.
My family - my kids especially. I want to be able to do more with them. Sometimes I hold back out of fear of judgement from others. Sometimes I have to hold back from exhaustion. Either way, this weight is holding me - and them - back. Plus, I'm not a very good example, my sedentary habits are influencing them and it's shameful.
My husband - he's supportive of me and doesn't hold my weight against me. But I feel it gets in the way figuratively and in actuality. I'm the size of 2 healthy people, not good.
My job. I'm a teacher. I want to be the fun one who plays games and can keep up. Sometimes kids hold my weight against me. Mostly I ignore it and it really has no affect, but at the same time I want it gone. It is holding me back from being a really good teacher.
Sooooo, million dollar question. Once the weight is off and healthy eating and living have done their job; what will I do to improve my health?
I'd like to become a runner. Many of my friends are runners and I know the high they get from it. I was a swimmer and I know the feeling of accomplishment and the endorphins released. Total high, nothing compares to it. At 279, I'm not ready to be a runner, but as the weight comes off, I will be.
My daughter rides horses and it would be fabulous to join her. Riding requires a lot of leg and core strength so I can begin training for it long before I can ride. Done.
As I lose weight I want to eat cleaner but I will continue to pursue clean eating even after I reach my goals. There is so much to learn, it's a lifelong endeavour.
I hope anyone reading this takes a moment, or has taken a moment to think about the real reasons they want to get healthy. Weight loss is part of the process, but it's only one remedy to a many measures of health.
Friday, May 09, 2014
Okay, so I'm writing away, even though my previous blogs probably have under a dozen comments in total. C'mon people!!!! I don't want to become a "regular", to have my blogs featured every day. But..... some support and feedback would be much appreciated :) Thanks!!!!
Okay, so over the winter I gained a bit. Okay, it was 15 lbs, I admit it. Why? Two really good reasons, well, if by good I mean obvious. First, I gave up exercise during this dreadfully cold winter that lasted FOREVER into spring. I hate the cold. By hate I mean it actually causes me physical pain - ceases up my muscles, creeps up my back, seeps into my joints..... you get the idea. So, bc it was sub-arctic for most of Dec-March I spent very little time outdoors. Well, yeah, almost none. I tried. I tried but in the end gave myself permission to stop bc I was just so miserable out there. Which, I know accept as an okay thing to do. Where I failed was in not having a back up plan. You can quit any activity you want to - but you need to replace it. So - I am adding videos and Wii zumba to my repertoire. Done.
Second, I ate like pig. Well, not like a pig bc I was fairly discerning about what I ate, so many fabulous treats and I enjoyed EVERY one of them. But...... maybe could have pulled up on the portions and the frequency. No one needs Epicure's Three Cheese Dip more than twice a year, just sayin'. Second lesson- TRACK, TRACK, TRACK!!!!!! Seeing that I've gone a kajillion calories over cements reality - it's hard to pretend it's "not that much" when you can see it before you. Other half to that? Knowing you have to write it down later "shames" me into not taking it in the first place.
So, if you had a great winter, congratulations!!! I really am happy for you and admittedly jealous :) If you didn't, here's to getting back in the saddle and reclaiming our journey to healthy bodies!!!!!!
Thursday, April 10, 2014
I've worn out my running shoes! To be perfectly honest, they are a pair I've had for many years but just started wearing around a year ago - about the time I began walking diligently. Having not worn them through this brutal winter, I have noticed how worn out they are - hole starting in the toe box where my baby toe might pop out one day, tread bare and colour worn out of the sole = pride. I am so proud of these shoes and of me for having worn them out.
Of course it's time for a new pair - what a treat!!!! But I will wear those new ones out with determination. They will one day testify to my effort; to the time I've dedicated to my health! Happy Spring Sparkers!!!!
Monday, March 24, 2014
I've recently slipped, fallen, let go, got lost, fell off - pick a metaphor for haven't been tracking, have been eating whatever, and have exercised only sporadically. That's me. Since before Christmas. It's not like I wasn't aware, oh I was quite aware of what I was doing. At first I was amazed there were now consequences. For a week or two I'd go up a pound or two but then lose it. Over Christmas I gained 5 pounds - considering what I was eating and how little I exercised, that is quite a blessing.
For the first while, my knowledge staved off the damage - I didn't track but I had a rough idea of what I needed to do to get back on track. So I'd stumble, get back up for -a day or two, and then re-stumble. For a while it worked - adequately. But in the last few months I've put on 10 pounds. I had a goal to be at 240 by May - instead of closing in on that or even exceeding that - I'm farther away. Beginning at 254, I'm now at 269. That was my wake up call. I did have 15 pounds to lose to get to that interim goal now I have 29. And so it goes.
I'm writing this for anyone who reads it, but also for myself. I tend to romanticize my efforts - "last time it was sooo easy, I had so much will power". Wrong. Last time it was a lot of determination and EFFORT - the fitness and nutrition trackers show me this. There was in fact no magic wand, the weight did not just fall off. I was walking a minimum of half an hour a day and up to 1.5 hours twice a week. I was staying within my calorie range. I was tracking. I was reading Success Stories, health articles, and logging into SparkCoach. I was consciously making my health a priority. That is so much better than a magic wands. There are no magic wands, and if there were, we'd have so little control over them. But we do have power over our choices and our behaviour - we have true power!
Good luck to all you Sparkies today and every day. The road is bumpy, windy, and slippery- but you have control of the running shoes! :)
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
I found this picture on Twitter today and am inspired by it's power. This is not a political post. Disregard the politics. Imagine two nations torn apart by civil unrest. Both pushing back against their governments. After many months of fighting, one has reached it's first major goal - to oust their totalitarian government. Amongst these heady and uncertain times, Ukranians reach out to a nation half way around the world, facing very similar circumstances. It would be so easy for this man to focus on his own struggles, the plight of his nation - Ukraine has much work ahead, many more mountains to climb. Rather, he reached out to Venezuelans and offered them hope. How encouraging is support!. How powerful is hope!
A spark friend - a friend really - reached out to me this week. She sent me a Sparkgoodie "pedicure". This is especially touching to me because I have not been faithfully "sparking" since before Christmas, yet she was thinking of me, encouraging me - offering up hope. I needed that ~ needed to remember this wonderful community where I have found nothing but welcome and encouragement.
And so it is: we have the power to change lives through simple gestures of support. Whether its a message on social media "Ukraine is with you: don't give up!" or a sparkgoodie; hope is powerful. Best wishes for a great week spark friends - may you kick butt this week!!! And too our human families all over the world, may peace be with you, may you walk in hope, may freedom reign!
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