Thursday, March 21, 2013
My two challenges have me feeling great . . . I'm starting to get back into my groove. While the scale only showed one pound this week for the Biggest Loser challenge, I'm hoping that my weigh-in for Springing to Action will be successful in two days. And it would be AMAZING if I could finally hit that 50 pound mark next week! I have to wonder what the difference is . . . because I feel more energy for this challenge than I have in the past. My guess is that I'm coming up on the one year anniversary of my restart . . . and with it comes this gnawing feeling that I could have done better.
Remember "Bob Wiley" in the movie, "What About Bob?" Bob was played by Bill Murray and Dr. Leo Marvin was played by Richard Dreyfuss. Bob and Leo say a lot of things in that movie that I can really make a connection with.
First, Dr. Marvin's theory on Baby Steps . . . he wrote a book about it. "Baby step onto the elevator... baby step into the elevator... I'm *in* the elevator... " Not such a bad theory, and one that I've been trying to take with this weight loss journey. Baby steps!
Second, Dr. Marvin's son Siggy is being taught to dive by his father. He's terrified of the water, and his father just let him drop into the water. Siggy said that his whole life flashed before his eyes. Bob responds with, "You're lucky you're only 12." I'm 51 . . . and when I think of where I was headed, my life needs to flash before my eyes. It has taken me so long to get here, but I can't go back. So keep that life flashing . . . all 51 years.
And third, death therapy. It sounds radical, but stay with me here. At the end of the movie Leo ties Bob to a tree along with 20 pounds of black powder, and I believe an ounce or so can blow a tree stump. Bob is cured because of death therapy. Tied to the tree with the black powder, he reasons his way to getting rid of all his fears. Death therapy . . . there's a little truth in that for me. Get healthy, or else!
So lessons learned . . . baby steps . . . life flashing before my eyes, so never too late to get on with this show . . . death therapy!
It all works.
I should mention that Bob was also afraid he would be looking for a bathroom and his bladder would explode! (I'm not saying I agree or disagree with that philosophy . . . I'm just saying there have been some close calls.)
Push forward folks! Moving onto Week 2 of my Biggest Loser Challenge!
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
So tonight I had dinner with a friend. She just lost her sister a few weeks ago, and I didn't know the reasons behind it.
I'm a person who has to know facts so I can reason why things happen. I like to reason, and then say to myself, "Well that can't happen to me because . . . blah, blah, blah!" It makes me feel safe to reason away the bad things.
When my younger sister died a few years ago at the age of 46, we were not sure of the cause. She was severely handicapped from birth, and I reasoned (as I'm sure my parents did as well) that she had a shorter life expectancy due to her limitations. She was sedentary, never having been able to walk. Through my grief, I reasoned, "I'm not sedentary and I don't life my life in a wheelchair. I should be o.k."
When my brother died, it was colon cancer. It was tragic, and it was awful. Upon his diagnosis, I immediately arranged a colonoscopy. I spent the next eight months watching it destroy and eventually take his life, taking a piece of me with him. I reasoned . . . "You had a colonoscopy, you're o.k."
My friend shared with me that her sister was morbidly obese, something I never knew. She was not mobile, and for the last few years she was battling infections in her legs. She had a wonderful caring husband who, along with other caregivers, took care of her. He awoke one morning and went about his day, going in to give her medication and found that she had passed away.
Very sad, and yet this is one that I cannot completely reason away for myself. It's not my situation today, but sadly, it's not out of the realm of possibility for the girl who diets and then gains back more than is lost time and time again.
This is precisely the reason that I cannot give up. I cannot become that person . . . and yet I could become that person. It's a fragile existence. It's a great reminder as to why this journey is so important.
Reasoning . . . It could have just as easily been you. If you slip, look where you could be!
Reasoning . . . You have lost over 45 pounds in 10 months, and more importantly, you have kept it off! You are doing great.
I am a person who reasons for a reason. I believe you have to move forward with a very close eye on where you've been, and how much worse it could be. It's like the old saying goes . . . Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.
Thursday, March 14, 2013
So I got this really nice goodie message from someone today and it really made my day. It was the Happy Face goodie that I got from JENNIK2. Thank you, girl!
I won't tell you the message, but it really made me think. I always give off this great motivation, but lately I don't seem to be producing much on the scale. I have so many positives to celebrate. I've lost over 40 pounds. I did not gain over the holidays. I'm learning to maintain what I've lost. I've continued to "talk" like I'm in this game, but I honesty have felt that I need to walk the walk to move to the next level, hit that 50 mark, hit that 60 mark and just keep moving forward.
My focus for the Biggest Loser Challenge is going to be to Walk the Talk. I need to really step it up for this challenge and not just talk like I've got this down, but get back to the practice of making some changes.
My goals for this challenge are to Walk the Talk . . . to be sure that my actions match my words.
1) To track my food daily.
2) To exercise weekly.
3) To drink more water.
4) To connect with my teammates.
5) To be more creative with my food choices.
Thank you, JENNIK2! You had no idea that one little Goodie Message would be my stepping off point for what will hopefully be success moving forward.
I gotta go walk the talk now . . .
Thursday, March 07, 2013
I've been complacent too long!
I've been procrastinating!
I've been hovering between the 45 and 50 mark for weeks, and I need to move forward. And so I have two great challenges in the works here on SparkPeople . . . The Biggest Loser Challenge . . . Rockin' it with the Red Team again, and the Springing to Action Challenge, which I've joined in Week 3.
The timing is perfect, as Springing to Actions' challenge this week was to create a vision board . . . a collage of what I want to accomplish during the spring, and where I want to be when summer approaches.
Here is my board. It is separated into three sections . . . what I've got, what I need and what I want.
What I've got is easy. I have family and friends. I have a crafty life . . . which I crave. I have music and entertainment, and if there is one thing that I've conquered since last May when I started this journey, it is WATER! I've got the water thing down.
Needs and wants are tough. It is hard to discern between the two. I did the best that I could to outline that I need to eat healthier and make better choices. First and foremost, I need to feel stronger. I need to exercise and build muscle, no matter how difficult I find that process to be . . . I need to get into the kitchen and make some creative dishes.
What I want . . . a chance! I want to be that person that craves exercise. I have never been that person. I want peace. I will never have peace until I conquer my battles with my health and weight.
These two challenges could not come at a better time. I am at a point where I need to move forward, and my habits are beginning to move backward.
It stops here!
Enough is enough.
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