Sunday, August 09, 2009
Personal gain this week . . . getting inspiration from new friends.
I've nearly completed my third week of this new journey and I've lost 12 pounds. I'll certainly take it, but what I'm learning along the way is of even greater value. I have read others' blogs and in doing so have discovered some new things about myself - my thoughts, my hopes, my struggles, etc.
First, I've learned that in addition to weight loss, there are a number of goals that I need to list, which I will work on in the coming week. Not weight loss goals, but rather personal achievement goals. For example, to go to a movie and not worry if I'll be uncomfortable in the seat. To go out to dinner and not be self-conscious about being the overweight person who is eating. I overcame one such goal this week . . . not having the Wii Fit tell me that I exceed the weight limit. That's one that I'll take, for sure. So I'll work on those goals in the coming week.
Second, and in order to accomplish my goals, I've also learned that I need to start thinking of myself the way that I want to be. I have to start thinking of myself as a thinner person. That's going to be a great feat for me, because I've never been thin. But it's something I need to accomplish and work toward.
My third and final item this week was a revelation and an admission. I had my annual physical this week, and it was mentally draining. I have a great general practitioner, and I told her about Spark. She gave me encouragement, and for the first time in my three years of seeing her, she asked me if I had ever considered weight loss surgery. What obese person hasn't thought about it? I told her that if I can't get my head on straight, how could I ever consider weight loss surgery. How could I consider putting a lap band on, or gastric bypass, and then perhaps overeating to the point of making myself sick. The battle is in my head, not my stomach. She told me she thought I was a very intelligent woman. While it was a difficult appointment, her comment about my intelligence just made my day.
I definitely have given up dieting over achieving a healthy lifestyle. That is indeed my biggest accomplishment in the last few weeks. The even bigger accomplishment will be in sticking with it. In keeping the spark!
Let's all keep the spark. If we can find a supply of sparklers, let's light one a week to remind us to keep the spark.