Thursday, September 27, 2012
I got up this morning thinking what is most important to me today and I should get it done before it starts to rain. Day before yesterday I took all the stuff out of my stand up freezer in the kitchen and moved it into the garage. We have a box style freezer there. I cleaned the kitchen freezer and then started to miss having everything handy so this morning I moved all the stuff back into the clean freezer. I know this doesn't sound important but one person's important is anothers 'not too much'. Enough about that.
I also spent a bit of time thinking what the heck should I blog about and I decided on the concept of LOVE. When I was young and slim and cute and life stretched out in front of me with such hope, excitement and a feeling of being able to do anything. Boy that did not last much past 39. By that time the weak, alcoholic I was married to was down the tubes, my kids were all suffering from the ravages of a marriage gone sour, I had no money (left it all behind) and I was alone most of the time. The next ten yrs. were up and down. I pursued a career I was not suited for and ended up doing work I really did not enjoy but the bills must be paid. I carried around an extra 50 lbs. that made me look ugly and I am not. Then I met an old friend who had been suffering much the same thing but he was male. We talked and slowly discovered that our aims in life were similiar and our spiritual beliefs were the same. We both despised alcohol, smoking, and life without adventure. As fat as I was he was skinny as a result of being alone and miserable. He wanted to picnic, hike and see foreign movies. I loved those things! This all happened 16 yrs. ago and I remember the day we married like it was yesterday. He is not perfect but then neither am I. We spend half the yr. in Mexico and his health is suffering a lot so not too much hiking or picnicing anymore but we still love wierd movies and we do DEVOTIONS together. Which means we pray and read passages from Bahai writings and passages from the other great religions of the past. Strangely we are not quite as at peace with all our children as we would like but we are with most of them (7) and it is not our fault that they are not all as happy with us as they should be. I love this man no holds barred and when I think of life without him I could weep. I know this does not address weight loss issues but it does tell that there are great guys out there and I am so lucky to have found one of them.