Thursday, September 13, 2012
I vowed today I would find a hairdresser who would listen to me and help me overcome the hurdles to starting a new hairstyle and I found a great girl. She listened intently and did as I asked, which was to comb it all forward, trim bangs, eliminate the side part and trim the back and sides so it will eventually fall the way I want it to. She also was very interested in our pioneering work in Mexico for our Faith (Bahai). So it was worth the exorbitant price I paid because I got everything I wanted plus she was so open minded it was a treat.
On the way in to the city I drove for 2.5 hrs while the hubby drove 1 hr. It is a little lopsided but as soon as I start driving he falls asleep so it seems fair that I drive more. Same thing on the way back. Any way, it gave me a lot of time to think and I thought a lot about control. We cannot control the weather.....so we dress accordingly. We cannot control our abilities....so we work with what we have (the story of the talents comes to mind). Some of us are meant to be scientists, surgeons and CEOs but most of us are not. A friend of mine was content to work at MacDonalds all her working life and she may have felt she was not cut out for higher aspirations. She was an exemplary employee and loved by all. I have done many things some I was better at than others but if I could do it all over again I would have been a teacher, that was what made me happiest and I could have been good at it other than the dabbling I have done. But that brings me to the fact that I was a great wife but the marriage was a disaster. I was a great mom but because of other people's actions and choices some of my children made, 2 out of 4 relationships are strained. These were things I had little or no control over. My second marriage is excellent but at least he gives it about 20% which seems to be enough if I give it 80%. That is so much better than nothing. So what do I have control over: world finances?, wether or not my siblings or friends love me? my gentics (as in my height or bone structure, coloring or general attractiveness? No I don't have control over any of these. So what it boils down to is that the only thing I have control over is MY ACTIONS and the EMOTIONS I ALLOW TO RUN RIOT. That is very humbling but it is also freeing in that I need not worry about all those other things I cannot control but I must deal with the things I can control. I can choose what to eat and when, I can choose to exercise and to get enough sleep. Those are the things to concentrate on and I will just pray about the rest and leave them to the Creator as he is in charge of those.