Friday, September 12, 2014
I am sitting here in tears and with frustration at my bad habits lately. I have no excuse; I have the tools......I have the knowledge......I just don't have the will power. What the heck happened?
I lost 33 pounds 1.5 years ago and I have gained 18 of it back. I am so disgusted with myself. I don't like the way I feel (menopause isn't helping much with that) and I certainly don't like the way I look. My clothes fit too tight, I feel like a butterball. I know what I need to do and I can't understand why I can't commit or stick to the program.
I need a new SPARK! I need to be SPARKED! I need help! I need something that will keep me motivated and on the "journey" again where I feel great and look great, have confident and feel beautiful.
I know I'm venting, just needed to, frankly. Thanks for listening, my Spark Friends!
Thursday, May 01, 2014
Listening to a friend in need and scheduling a much-needed massage for my husband.
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Well, hello everyone.....it's been a few months since my last blog. It's time; time to get back with the program. SparkPeople is a must for me as I have been slacking in my daily logging of food and keeping track of exercise and just staying involved in the SparkCommunity overall. As a result, I have gained back about 14 pounds. That's right, 14 pounds.
I could choose to beat myself up (okay, I have a bit) or I can just pick of the pieces and do this yet AGAIN. That's what I have chosen to do, and I WILL. I vow to. By Christmas my goal is to be back down where I was before at 134 pounds. I was one pound away from reaching my goal weight and I blew it, BIGTIME! Why did I do that? Why did that happen?
Well, life happens......I had a grandchild born in April (the beginning of my downward spiral), then we moved to a different state (transition began in May/June), went on a 7-day cruise vacation this summer, and I got off track; out of the habit of logging, being in the Spark Community, and just doing the things I need to do to maintain.
On my 4 mile run yesterday I gave myself a Pep talk. I know what I need to do and I'm doing it! My husband and I doing SparkPeople together this time. That will help to keep me motivated and on track too.
This program works! I just need to do it ; I can, and I will!
Saturday, April 06, 2013
I have been struggling lately, with my diet and exercise, that is. I feel like I have taken two steps backward.
I first had issues where I had no appetite which lasted about a week. Then I went through a phase where I felt like I couldn't get enough carbs. I've been totally swamped working on an Interior Design Project at my church, keeping up with my other ministries, and taking care of our house and home. I love doing it, but find myself not having (or taking) the time I need to plan appropriate and healthy meals and exercise. I really blame myself for that and nobody else. Needless to say, I have been eating poorly; at least compared to usual.
Second, My knee continues to give me problems so I have not been able to run. I am actually afraid to. I am frustrated and I really, really, REALLY miss it too! I was running between 20-25 miles or more per week and now I am down to nothing. Running, to me, was so much more than physical. It was mental, it helped to relieve stress and just made me feel better, not to mention motivated. My fitness minutes over the last two weeks has consisted of heavy house cleaning as a result of Spring cleaning. I guess that is better than nothing, right?
This week I plan to walk at the track with my Grandson and see how the knee does. Maybe walking will strengthen it. I am so fearful that I will injure it so that I will never be able to run again.
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