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Wednesday, July 04, 2012

Back at this again and I feel so overwhelmed.

I don't want to turn back to the old me but I know God will help me.


I don't like the new me......

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Hello SP family

It's been about 9 months since I last posted a blog on SP. Well, I am ready to birth another blog....LOL

So, at the close of 2011, I made it to a size 10/12. Yay me....yeah right.

I have gained about 45-50lbs since December 2011 and I know why.

After being a heavy/chunky/fat/big girl pretty much all my life, I didn't like the attention of being a thin girl. It was too much work.

Yes, I enjoyed being able to shop wherever I wanted. Being able to sit in a chair and not worry about it falling apart but I felt naked Without my layer of fat, I was vunerable.

My confidence level went down hill and I got so depressed. I didn't think I was pretty enough. Anytime a man would approach me to give me a compliment I felt weird.

My biggest pet peeve was when I walked down the aisle of the grocery store. If I walked pass a guy, he would turn around to look at my butt! I hated this. This new body required something I wasn't ready for.

Don't laugh but I am serious. It's like everyone expected this sex kitten to come out of me when in reality I am as shy as the kids on Little House on the Prairie. But as a "Big Girl" I'm not shy. I love to be around people, I love seeking out attention. Weird huh?? Yes, I agree!

I am seeking some therapy and hopefully, someone can explain what the heck is going on. In the meantime. I have to work to lose these 45lbs over the next 6 months.

I'll keep you posted

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DIVASPARK 3/13/2012 9:59PM

    You are not alone, sometimes we feel comfortable in our layers at least you know that you can get help for the new you. Thank you for keeping it real. emoticon

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GIGI09 3/13/2012 7:26PM

    Thank you for all the motivation and advice. I appreciate each of you. This is why I love SP. The support system here is awesome.

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ARCHIMEDESII 3/13/2012 4:08PM

    Gosh, but I totally understand and can relate !! There are a million billion books to help a person lose weight, but there are none that help a person reconcile their old psyche to their new physique. It's one thing to take the weight off. when we concentrate on losing we don't think about what's going to happen when we've actually lose the weight. Our bodies race ahead of our brains and emotions. When they finally catch up, we're lost.

It takes time to learn how to appreciate our new bodies. And for many people, being thin is a lot of pressure and really scary too. So, no one thinks less of you because you regained the weight. it's something that happened to us all.

But you know what ? you CAN be a success !! Take the time to appreciate your body on the journey. And think you'll be amazed by your body.

Best of luck !


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SARAOMG13 3/13/2012 3:46PM

    This blog really spoke to me. I have been that way all my life, up and down on a roller coaster of emotion and weight. You will need therapy... I'm starting tomorrow. Believe it or not, a nutritionist can help you a lot with that too. Lots of luck!

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BECKYLIVES 3/13/2012 3:17PM

    Good afternoon!

I'm very proud of the fact you realized it's a layer of protection. I wear mine that way too actually.

Getting attention that you're not ready for is definitely a challenge and I'm glad you're taking it to the therapist to get some healthy perspective and find out what's going on.

We're all here for you and actually I know you're onto something with this in a major way not just for yourself, but a lot of other people too.

The best part? You're not stopping and you're gonna start the process of losing again. THAT'S a giant step in the right direction as well.

You go girl!

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REVIVINGFAITH 3/13/2012 3:01PM

    This is precisely why some people get heavy in the first place. You are so astute to realize it is a layer of protection in a way. I wish you luck on your journey toward inner wellness. emoticon

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SKYWATCHERRS 3/13/2012 2:32PM

    I can relate. It's scary when you're all of a sudden getting more sexual attention than you feel ready for. I remember being very uncomfortable at first, like you. I think it's great that you've taken the reins and decided to go into therapy so that you can reconcile your thinner self with your inner self. I've had a hard road making peace with my own sexuality, and I'm still fighting a couple battles here and there. It's hard. Maybe I should have gotten some counseling, might have done me some good. Perhaps I should still look into it.

Keep your chin up and thank you for being brave enough to write abuot this! I bet a lot of women feel the same way!

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BEVENH 3/13/2012 2:29PM

    I can understand where your coming from. It is not for the looks factor alone that a person needs to maintain a healthy weight. So look at it from that idea? All the best to you.

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Sometimes we feel like just giving up....

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Hi everyone

I need a moment to vent.

Have you heard of the story where some of the Biggest Loser contestants who lost an extreme amount of weight and then gained it back. I wondered how the heck is was possible?

Well, I am beginning to understand.

I am finding myself going in a circle for the past few months. I will gain, lose, gain and then lose.

Sometimes we have to sit back and figure out what we are doing wrong. The weight will not come on that easily, not if you are doing everything right.

I found myself cheating a few times and not exercising the way I should. At the same time, I am playing this denial game that "oh I can lose it next week"

I'm tired of lying to myself. With all the hard work I've put in to lose this weight so far, I refuse to go back. Giving up is not an option for me. I have wasted the early years of my life being unhappy with my body. It's my time to shine. So, I'm going to stick to it and keep moving. Enough with the excuses.

Ok....done venting.

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DEANNA3BARNES 8/5/2011 8:15AM

  So glad I found your blog! Hope you are doing well. I just joined SP again a couple of days ago and I'm loving this community. The most I have ever lost was about 50 pounds in one stretch, but it is soooo easy to put it back on if you let your guard down. So important to have accountability and support. You've done a great job so far! Stick with it and you will reach your goals. I have a lot left to lose, but I'm trying to concentrate on being healthy rather than a number on the scale. That number will come eventually! Nice to meet you on here ... and good luck!


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JUDITHROXANA 7/3/2011 4:43PM

    I can relate to that! I've been working so hard and lately I hear myself saying to myself "it's ok if I eat some of that because I shouldn't be so strict" then when I see the scale not move or move up a bit I regret it! The good thing is that we are aware of what we are doing and that we are not giving up! emoticon

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GETITGIRL4U 6/16/2011 2:59PM

    Your honesty is refreshing and I am working to get this weight off. Thank you for sharing and even more so for putting a demand on yourself to remain committed to such health goals. More importantly, you are not excusing yourself which can be easy to do when you have had such a successful weight loss. Here's a emoticon for you and keep are the reason some of us believe!


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    I saw the same thing last year and wondered how is that possible. I mean, why would you work so hard and then just gain it back? Well, I have gained 15 of my 65 pounds back and so I can see how easy it can be. I too, have thought that I will take care of that extra pound next week, but they add up so quickly. I have been really careful lately an slowly getting back into good habits to start moving in the right direction once more.

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NEWMUM8 6/3/2011 10:02AM

    It is a journey for life and this will happen, the point is to become so accustomed to eating heathy and exercising that nothing else is an option. Sure, you will eat what you want to sometimes, you are human but the key is to make it once in a while and not too often.

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CHELSEYG29 5/29/2011 2:44PM

    It is a life long process. Although I have a ways to go before I get to where I need to be I know it will be hard to keep it off. I guess that's why it is so important to truly change our lifestyle choices for good. Glad you are keeping yourself accountable and that your not giving up on yourself! emoticon

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JESSICA2140 5/29/2011 2:40PM

    The healthy lifestyle is a journey with no end...every road trip is frought with flat tires and overheating radiators, so there's no reason this trip shouldn't be too! Don't beat yourself up too much for being human...we all make mistakes, its going to happen, and its how you deal with them that makes the difference!! You've kept going, stumbles and all, and that is what is going to make the difference in the end!!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 5/29/2011 2:39PM

    Good afternoon. I am one of those people that have lost a large amount of weight to only gain it back. Not once but three times. emoticon

It really is about changing our minds, lifestyles and hearts. emoticon

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Addicted to Turbo Fire

Monday, May 16, 2011

Hi guys,

Long time no blog....;-)

For those of you who have followed my blogs over the know I never ever, ever, ever advertise for companies or rave about a product unless I am 110% for it. Well, I am for TurboFire.

Turbo Fire with Chaleene takes working out from home to a whole new level. When I say you are going to sweat....You are. I'm talking about buckets of sweat in about 15 minutes. This isn't your mom's workout video. Get ready to get an intense workout and watch your body transform.

If you can afford the $120 bucks, get it.

Good luck and much love to all of you.

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FINEFITT 6/24/2011 5:17PM

    wow. you have my attention. I am thinking very hard about this purchase.

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SHERRYWILSON 5/28/2011 9:08AM

    I love the turbo fire too I will give 110% rating I love it I bought for myself as a mothers day present for motivation and I love the turbo fire song

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SCHENPOSSIBLE 5/22/2011 11:46PM

    I really want to get the videos but that's pricey. And considering that I already belong to 2 gyms, I'm going to have to wait until after summer is over and I have more disposable income for this. Are you having great results with the videos? oh, do tell!

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