Sunday, October 07, 2012
This morning the dog woke me up (as usual) at around 5:30 am. I get up, put clothes on, take her out, and when we get back, she promptly takes my spot and falls asleep. Instead of getting crabby, I take this time to update my spark, and make chicken and tortellini soup with the leftover tortellini. I know myself. If I had left the tortellini out, I would have eaten a huge lunch (well, if I remembered to eat lunch) with tortellini and too much marinara sauce, and way too much parmesan. Instead I grilled chicken breasts, sweated onions and garlic, and added the chicken drippings and chicken broth I keep on hand for soup along with the leftover tortellini and some rosemary. I had the lovely smell of rosemary and chicken simmering by 7:30 this morning, and a lighter lunch may follow! After one of the loves of my life and I go for a long run, that is (the dog, not the husband. He can't run as far as we can!).
Saturday, October 06, 2012
A lot of blogs and threads have already covered a lot of the more common, including stress, emotion, boredom, etc. For me, there are several reasons why I would eat when I was not hungry. If I am bored, this certainly can be the case, although that can also be handled by drinking water or chewing gum. That one is easy to tackle. If I feel like I, whether because I worked out hard, or because I had a difficult day, etc., "deserve" this food or that, I often will eat more than I should. This one is harder, because after I am full, it often doesn't taste as good, so I try to think of something that would taste good, and therefore be a decent treat...can lead to disaster. Sometimes I tell myself that if I am hungry later, it will be more of a treat then, and sometimes I even listen to myself. Have you ever been shopping, and when you got home you felt like you needed to put on that new top and spray yourself with that new perfume? I often do this with grocery shopping as well. If a food comes in the house that isn't necessarily a staple, some of it is often consumed as I am putting it away. This as well is hard to fight against. I think the biggest problem I have is that I am on several different medications that suppress appetite, and I am rarely hungry, at least not before I am light headed. I am sure some of you are probably saying to yourselves that you wish that you had that problem, but I am also prediabetic. So, I try to eat regularly so my blood sugar doesn't dip, but I very rarely experience actual hunger. Because I don't feel hungry to begin with, it is much harder to feel satiety as well. So often I end up overeating because I know my body needs nutrition, and so I eat, but I don't really know when to stop. Does anyone else experience this? Please let me know.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Today, for the first time since my bout with severe depression, I weighed in under 140 lbs. True, this was after a 5 mile run with temp in the upper 70s, but I got on the scale and saw 139.4! I still have more than 10 lbs to go, because I am not counting losing water weight, but still an indication that even though it may be harder and slower this time, I can do this a second time and succeed long term!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
I have heard a lot on here lately about sabotage, either by close friends and family, or by those people not close but forced to socialize with, such as coworkers. Fortunately, I have the most supportive family. My husband loves healthy food, loves being active, listens to me when I ask for a date where we cook something new together instead of going to a restaurant, or go for a walk or play at the park instead of going to the movies, and will bring me flowers instead of other treats. My brother is a track athlete, and instead of making fun of my small efforts in comparison to his amazing feats (he currently holds his college record for the pentathlon and heptathlon, and is well on his way to breaking the decathlon record as well), he uses his team discount to get me better running gear than I could otherwise afford. My dad has always been willing to hang out with me while playing basketball, or going for hikes. My mother encourages me both in my exercising (we used to do yoga together when I was in high school) and in keeping with a healthy diet (we used to lovingly call her the weight watcher nazi). Outside of that, though, my extended family doesn't get it. One of my aunts always used to ask me if I was eating. If I want there to be veggies at a family gathering (that haven't been soaked in some sort of dressing) I have to bring it myself. I get funny/awed looks when I tell people how many miles I jog in a week. Sometimes people tell me I might need to slow it down, it can't be healthy to work out that much. I want to tell them, "slow it down? how much slower can it get than 5 pounds in 10 months?" My method of dealing with these attitudes is to tell them politely but firmly how I feel, but not to repeat myself. When my aunt asked me if I was eating, I offered to show her SparkPeople, my food log, and the general set up. Of course she declined, but she didn't ask me again if I was eating. For Easter this year, knowing my family, I offered to bring carrots and celery so I knew there would be vegetables. When people make snide remarks about how many miles I run, I just say that since I have ADHD and a predisposition to clinical depression, I need the miles I get in order to raise my dopamine levels and stay sane. When people make fun of my eating, whether trying to get me to eat more, or pointing out that I shouldn't eat X on a diet, I calmly explain either the health benefits of what I did eat or that no one can always be 100%. If people comment that I am skinny already and don't need to lose weight, I point out that I am only barely (and that recently) within a healthy BMI, and that I feel better when I run if I am at a lower weight, and I also mention joint pain. I have found that usually the people who are not trying to be mean listen to what I say and won't do it again. The people who are coming from a not so nice place often will continue or repeat their inanities, and subsequent times, I will usually make a joke, or change the subject, because if they aren't going to listen to me the first time, they won't listen to me ever. Mostly, I just have to get to a place mentally where if they don't get it, I am not going to let them make me feel small, wrong, or unhealthy.
Sunday, April 22, 2012
I was on my way home from work, listening to another doctor on the People's Pharmacy talk about how the food that people eat is making them ill, the communities, the culture in our country, all of this is leading to what he called "diabesity," which I thought was an interesting way of putting it. I'm getting more and more depressed, because a lot of the things that he was mentioning are things like canned vegetables have tons of BPA, things that we think are healthy really aren't. He's making it sound like the only way to eat healthy is to grow everything yourself and make everything from scratch. I look over to the right in the midst of feeling a little helpless, and I see a woman and her tween/teen daughter. What are they doing? They are jogging together. I wanted to pull over right there and tell her, "Thank you. Not only are you setting a great example for your daughter, but you both are setting a great example to everyone who sees you. Because of you, she and others will know the pleasures and benefits of exercise. Because of what you are doing right now, you both will live longer." Instead, I had/have a great big grin on my face every time I think of that.
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