Sunday, March 01, 2009
Ok, yea....I got into a huge slump. One so big I just gave up really caring about any of it. This began, gosh I dont know, several months ago. I feel like I dont do anything except work, eat, sleep and work again. And Im not getting much sleep.
So here I am and Krissy decides she wants to join a gym, yes, it was MY suggestion, and so the only time we can go is Mon, Wed and Fri....and that involves getting up at 6:30 AM. Considering I work until usually 3 AM this means even less sleep for me....so anyways she says she wants to pay for me to have a membership....and i gotta tell you I was NOT leaping for joy about going into a gym where Barbie and every body builder in town goes and be stared at...nor was I excited to try to get on the equipment only to find Im to darned fat....
so anyways...we go....they give us a 2 week trial (free) and Im absolutely shocked to see that Krissy is really gung ho about it. I mean this is the woman that doesnt want to get up for CHRISTMAS, lol. So I go to my Dr and he hems and haws and says that he wants me to wait, something about the meds, anyways, I think he just wanted to milk money from me.
So anyways, Im told "no" and I still have to get up 3 mornings a week and drag my butt to the gym and watch Krissy....the thing is, the more I went, the more I wanted to use the gym, then I began to see changes in Krissy....BIG ones and i REALLY wanted to use the gym. SO I called my Dr and told them Id sign a release....so long story short...the Doc signed the waiver to allow me to use the gym.
That was 2 weeks ago this coming Wednesday....
Day 1)Wednesday - I did 5 min on the treadmill after finding out I dont have the leg strength to lift my leg over the recumbant bike......I HATE walking, if I liked walking I wouldnt be FAT.....grump grumble....grumble
Day 2)Friday- Have to go get my son, long drive, dont WANNA work out, but I do SIX minutes today and they add 3 of the strength machines, leg press, leg curl....and one other one, leg extention I THINK....and I could only do THREE reps....::sigh:: this is going to take forever....
Day 3) Monday- I do TEN minutes on the treadmill today! Woooooo! and I did TWELVE reps of my 3 machines! Go me!!
Day 4) Wednesday- I did ELEVEN minutes today......was talking to my "neighbor" (on the next treadmill) and lost track of time LOL. I did 15 reps and upped some of the weight on one of them... Woooooo!
Day 5) Friday- Ive been told to only weight once every 3 weeks, first think on Mondays, becz muscles retain water for up to 48 hours after a workout....also got a new diet plan....Added some upper body machines today and I did TWELVE minutes on the treadmill!!! The last two I upped my speed from 1.1 mph to 2 mph....then got off (no cool down) and daaaaang, I thought I was gonna pass out! I got scolded lol and told I MUST do a cool down.....who new.....now me...not like Ive taken care of me very often...
So anyways....on both fridays I got a protien smoothie...the first friday I was headed out to get my son and didnt want to give in the the call of McDonalds lol, I got the Almond joy one....and YUCK!....so this last Friday I got the tropical paradice one with a fat burner added and YUMMO! Oh my that was GOOD.
Sooooo....Im not really noticing anything, no real changes yet, but its only been a short time...I want to see changes, god I better see changes LOL...anyways, Im proud, I only gripe and complain a LITTLE bit about getting up....Im still working the hard long hours, so Im usually ready for a nap on Mon, Wed and Fri....and usually I take a short nap lol. Hey...whatever it takes tokeep going, you know?
So thats the readers digest condenced version for you......
I will try to keep updates more often lol
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Ok...I know this is going to sound odd, but Im sitting over here ready to blog and 2 of our dogs are in the living room and they are having a poot contest!! OMG I think Im going to DIE over here! The SMELL!!! ARGH!! lol.
Anyways, Im still around, things have been....odd. My son moved in and then changed his mind and moved back to his dads 2 weeks later becz (I think) he missed his friends. So I was dealing with a lot of depression over that issue.
Then Ive also been working a lot, dealing with headaches, hoping for the economy to take a better swing for us and just over all allowing life to take over lol.
The one good thing I did for me was I began my gazelle again.
I did 11 minutes yesterday. Yea, I know. big woo....11 minutes, but it was 11 more than I did the day before, so Im proud. lol.
My son snapped a few photos of me and a friend put this one together, and to be honest, I really dont like pictures of myself that much, but I LIKE this one. Isnt that weird. lol.
What else....oh, Im getting so excited to move in June, I cant wait. Its going to be so different for me, I am afraid of freezing to death though LOL.
Holidays are coming and Im a little excited about them, not like I usually am, but am hoping my holiday spirit kicks in soon : )
What else.....not much else happening, work....work....and more work... OH I was interviewed...granted some people will always say mean things (in the comments) but I think the article was a good one.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Ever had a day that was going...so-so...not horrible, but not great and youre thinking to yourself "Tomorrow will be better" and then something happens that slams you into the tears and depression?
I just had that.
Its not bad enough that Im dealing with Rabid not being here every day, with this job not only am I dealing with my lonliness (I will adjust) but also having to keep her spirits up. So she calls me and asks if I can bring her a Diet Dew or water. So I called and asked if she could meet me out front so I wouldnt have to get out. She never called back so I had to get dressed (Its hot as hell here and one of our AC's broke 3 days ago, the one in our room) So I struggled into clothing, grabbed a dew and water and took them to her.
When I went in the girl behind the counter must have been dropped on her head 5 or 6 times becz I asked for Rabid and she looked at me like no one was there with that name. She went to the back and the owner said "Shes out back" ok...so Im standing in the restaurant, in a shabby sundress, my hair pinned haphazardly in a bun, (straggles and GRAY), havent shaved my legs in DAYS, look like something the dog decided wasnt good enough to drag in and the teenaged boys that are sitting at the tables PLAYING GAMES (not eating!) staring a hole in my rather LARGE behind. So Kristy comes out, I give her the liquids and come home, not to far to drive, but Im sticky, hot and tired.
I step out of the car thinking "Im going to check the mail" and this HEATHEN from next door, on his (or her...couldnt tell , the little red neck could be either) bike and YELLS from the middle of the road at about the MIDDLE of my yard (so maybe 20 feet frrom me) yells "FATSO!" I blinked, I couldnt believe some child was raised in this manner and I said "What?! Excuse me?!" and this CHILD flipped the bird at me! I said "Excuse me?" Then I said probably the dumbest thing, I said "Grow up!" I WANTED to shout profanities! I WANTED to say "Go tell your parents what you just said and did, bcz Im going to tell them." Instead this BRAT turned and road into their drive way (OUR HORRIBLE neighbors that torment our dogs, trespass on out property etc and then come over wanting us to BUY things when the school is selling them!) and I came inside and burst into tears.
Its times like this I just want to go in, bake a batch of brownies and EAT. Ive lost 50 lbs or more since starting (before SP came into my life). I CANT see it, I see NO changes and then this.... :*(
I think I just want to quit now ......gonna have a good cry...
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Life is crazy....wow....ok....lets see..
Ive added the bean workout....and its KILLING ME!! lol but Im doing it!
My Gazelle...Im now up to 17 minutes each time, straight through!!!!! WOOOOO before long I will be doing 20...then 25....Im on my way!!
Been having headaches....and Im having a heck of a time being able to eat enough to meet my caloric intake...without eating the empty calories and I wont let myself do that, the sodium is to high lol. Im gonna work it out :)
OH, hey...any of you out there, need to make some extra money and you happen to be in front of a puter (like at home) I have a lead for you all. You wont get rich, but Ive made about 300 bucks in a month and been paid.
Send me a SP mail and I will give you details :) (or privately email me if you want, you know who you are lol)
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