Tuesday, October 05, 2010
I've been struggling this week, and instead of beating myself up, I'm going to realize this is okay and chill out about it. Everyone has off days. Or even weeks. Do you really think even Lance Armstrong, or the Williams sisters, or Jillian Michaels jump out of bed pumped to work out every single day of their lives?
Yeah, I don't think so either.
What's going on? Well, it's cold and raining, which means my sinuses are aching. Those of you who read my blog yesterday know I'm bummed about my job search. I had a most distressing evening last night.
I haven't been pigging out though, which is awesome. Come to think of it, I've barely bored snacked at all since I moved here. That's an amazing accomplishment.
I'm going to visit Chrissy #2 tomorrow. Not sure how long I'll be staying. I hope we go bowling.
I'm thinking about making a veggie lasagna tonight. We love Stouffer's frozen veggie lasagna. Of course it's town hall of Salt City, and I've been interested to see if I can make a better version. No recipe, just my own creative flair. I'm not good at layering so I usually just make a lasagna casserole. Tell me what you think:
Whole wheat pasta
Low-fat ricotta cheese seasoned with Italian seasoning and parmesan cheese
Just enough alfredo sauce to moisten it up
Topped with panko bread crumbs and mozzerella cheese
I'm having a blackberry flaxseed smoothie at the moment. I like this flaxseed stuff. Thanks to KISSIMS19 for giving me the idea in a blog a long time ago.
Monday, October 04, 2010
I always try to be motivating, positive, and uplifting, so I think I deserve one down-in-the-dumps blog.
I haven't really explicitly come out and said it, I guess because I think it's shameful and I don't want to be looked down on. Even though I know it's a common problem nowadays. I'm "unemployed".
I put quotes around it because it's not like I got laid off. I graduated in May and I've been looking for a job for 4 months. *cringe* And it's not like I haven't found jobs. There are hundreds of jobs in my area. Tons of them in my field. I just can't seem to get a phone call back.
At first the time off was kinda cool. I busted my hump in school for a long time, and it wasn't a cakewalk (I have a degree in biology). But lately, ESPECIALLY since school started up again, I have been feeling very low. Frustrated. Angry. BORED. Like a failure.
I realize the job market is tough right now, but here's the thing... hardly any biology grads go into the workforce. Half go to med school and the other half go right to grad school, which leaves a teensy tiny percent that look for jobs. I just didn't think I'd have the competition I'd have as say, a business or education grad. And truth be told, I probably don't. I just can't see it.
So, this pity party does have kind of a point... my days are... pathetic to say the least. I work better with a schedule and I think most people do. When I don't HAVE anything to do, it makes it tough to WANT to do anything. My motivation is starting to slip. And I don't mean as far as the gym goes, although that's certainly one aspect that's suffering. I am just so... down.
What I really need is a schedule. And I need to stick to it. Does anyone have any tips for this? Any housewives or stay-at-home moms? Fellow jobless individuals?
I applied for a job today I think I'd really like and would kick booty at. I'm not religious, but if any of you are, I always appreciate a small prayer.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
This blog is dedicated to the folks out there who want to moan and complain, but don't actually want to do anything to CHANGE.
I have some overweight friends who love to whine about how much they hate being "fat", and yet... won't do anything about it. They've asked me for weight-loss advice, and I give it, but that's not good enough for them. Because it's not a one-week solution or a magic pill.
My one friend, a guy, eats Taco Bell every day and drinks like a fish. I told him, dude, if ALL you do is cut the chalupas and the booze, you WILL drop weight! But apparently even that's too difficult.
Another friend, a girl, has been struggling with weight since high school. She emailed me one day and this is what she wrote: "I've been eating nothing but plain grilled chicken, broccoli, and brown rice for a week. I've been working out two hours a day. I haven't lost any weight. What should I do?!?!" OMG, seriously? Even if ANYONE could keep up a diet of chicken and broccoli indefinitely, who would want to? This is a prime example of all-or-nothing and it's just. not. practical.
A third friend, another girl, I can actually relate to. She likes to work out, but she also likes to pig out. I'm the same way. I am very sad to tell you that weight management is mostly food. Unless you're an Olympian, chances are quite good that exercise will not enable you to eat whatever you want (no matter how much you wish it would...) But a little willpower can go a long way. Promise.
But the one thing these people have in common is they'd rather complain than make changes. To quote my absolute favorite blogger over at How Sweet It Is...
Make changes, not excuses!
Friday, October 01, 2010
I've been using this trick for years and I can't believe I've never shared it with anyone.
When you're working out, pretend someone you'd want to impress is watching you.
Your boyfriend/husband, your mom, your unfit friend, Rocky, Jesus, Jillian Michaels, the hot guy in your virology class ...
WHOEVER you want... they're watching you. Wow them.
Friday, October 01, 2010
Last night Matt and I went to the store because I accidentally sprayed bathroom cleaner on our toothbrushes.
I also needed muffin cups, and while passing down the bakery aisle, something caught my eye. Something orange. In a can. It was PUMPKIN!!!!!!
I hate pumpkin.
No, really. I do! Hate it. But Matt loves it. So this means I can bake up some "delicious" pumpkin treats and not be tempted to eat them. I love to bake, but I try to bake things I don't love so I'm not so tempted.
Which leads me to another story of success or failure, depending on whether you're an easygoing soul like myself or a crazy raging all-or-nothing Type A. You decide.
A few days ago, I found a yummy looking spinach and tomato sauce recipe and we had raviolis in the freezer. I was in the mood to make dessert, so I closed my eyes and asked myself, "What's a good dessert to go with an Italian meal?"
The answer I came up with was mousse. Chocolate mousse. I've never made a mousse, so I started browsing.
And I found the perfect recipe- mocha mousse pie. I don't like coffee, see, and Matt loves coffee, so there you go. Perfect.
Now, on to Why I Hate Grocery Stores 'Round These Parts. Here in the Baltimore area, we have lots and lots of grocery stores. But they're little and often don't have things you are looking for. Back home, we only had a few grocery stores, but they were huge and had EVERYTHING! (Kissims- you know what I'm talking about! I MISS WEGMANS!!!!)
So I was at the store and I had all the ingredients in the cart, and I was scanning the ice cream topping shelf for the Smucker's mocha topping I needed to put in the mousse. Did my piddly-@$$ grocery store have this? Of course not.
I stood there wondering what to do. I really wanted to make this pie, but I also didn't really want to eat it- it's chock full of cream cheese and Cool Whip and SUGAR. Metric buttloads of sugar.
I pondered what to do as my cold foods got warmer and warmer. I need to start picking backup recipes, because this happens to me all the time now.
In the end, I grabbed a jar of dark chocolate ice cream topping and made a plain chocolate mousse pie. And when I say plain, I mean "OMG mouthgasm deliciousness".
I have eaten one piece, which is some kinda miracle because what I really want to do is dive into it face-first. But I'm not... and you know why? I have de-pressurized myself. Meaning, I chilled out. Relaxed. Told myself I can have it if it means that much to me. And you know what? It doesn't. It will be there, whenever I want it. And if the day comes when I have to throw it out (unlikely, since the boy would probably rather marry it than marry me), I can always make it again.
Calm down. Take the pressure off. Don't do the all-or-nothing deal. It never works and will just discourage you.
Bodypump today at 4:30. Feel the BURN, baby!
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