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A HARD LOOK AT THIS JOURNEY

Saturday, June 11, 2011

WELL SOMETHING HIT HOME LAST NIGHT! AFTER AN EVENING OUT HUBBY AND I SAT ON THE PATIO TALKING.
WE WERE TALKING ABOUT GOING SOME WHERE WHICH WE CAN'T AFFORD SO I SUGGESTED GOING ON A LONG DAY OR OVER ONE NIGHT NOT FAR FROM HOME ABOUT 2 HOURS ON THE MOTORCYCLE.
WE HAVEN'T DONE THAT IN A VERY LONG TIME.
I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO MY ONE GIRLFRIEND AT WORK ABOUT IT AND I HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD WITH THIS ONE!
HUBBY SAID I WOULD LOVE TO GO ANYWHERE WITH YOU ON THE BACK OF MY MOTORCYCLE THAT IS WHAT WE GOT IT FOR AND WE HAVE HAD SOME VERY NICE RIDES.
BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY THIS I DON'T WANT TO SOUND MEAN OR NASTY OR HARSH OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT BUT I AM NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER AND I AM NOT AS STRONG AS I USE TO BE ANYMORE AND I CAN'T HANDLE THE WEIGHT OF the BIKE OR YOU ANYMORE.
IT WAS SO MUCH EASIER WHEN YOU LOST THE 30 POUNDS.
I DIDN'T SAY A WORD I JUST SAID IN MY RECLINER ON THE PATIO AND JUST LISTENED.
I AM SO HART BROKEN I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU I SIT HERE WRITING THIS WITH TEARS IN MY EYES.
I LOVE,LOVE,LOVE RIDING THAT BIKE. AND HAVE BEEN ASKING EVERY YES EVERY WEEKEND TO GO AND THERE IS ALWAYS AN EXCUSE GOING WITH A FRIEND NO GIRLS ALLOWED, I AM TIRED I HAVE TO MUCH WORK AROUND HERE TO DO YOU NAME IT.
I KNOW IN MY HEART I TOLD CAROL AT WORK AND I WAS 100% RIGHT.
AND I KNOW EVERYTHING HUBBY HAS SAID IS TRUE AND HE WOULD NEVER HURT ME THAT WAY THIS IS ALL MY FAULT I HAVE SAID IT SO MANY TIMES BEFORE I LOST 30 POUNDS AND IT FELT SO GOOD I THOUGHT WELL I COULD EAT THIS AND THAT SOME PEOPLE CAN I AM ONE WHO CANNOT I ONLY WANT MORE AND MORE AND I PUT ALL THAT WEIGHT BACK ON PLUS ONE POUND. ALL THAT HARD WORK DOWN THE TUBES.
I WILL NOT GIVE UP I HAVE SAID THIS ALL BEFORE I HAVE LEARNED AND KEPT SO MANY GOOD THINGS THAT WHAT WE ARE TOLD TO DO LOOK AT ALL THE GOOD WE HAVE DONE.
I HAVE NEVER EXERCISED BEFORE NOW I NEVER EVER MISS A DAY.
I NEVER DRANK WATER BEFORE NOW I MAKE SURE I DRINK AT LEAST 8-8OS.Z GLASSES A DAY AND NEVER MISS AT ALL.
I EAT MY 5 SERVINGS OF FRUITS AND VEGGIES A DAY AND NEVER MISS.
I STAY IN MY CALORIE RANGE VERY RARELY GO OUT OF IT.
I LOG ON HERE EVERY DAY I NEVER MISS I AM ADDICTED. I HAVE MADE SO MANY FRIENDS. SO WITH ALL THAT GOOD I HAVE LEARNED SOME GREAT THINGS.
BUT THE HARDEST THING IS TO GET THIS MIND SET I JUST CAN'T SEAM TO DO IT NO MATTER WHAT I DO I EAT ALL THE THINGS THAT ARE NO GOOD FOR ME.
I NEED TO DO THIS FOR ME I KNOW THAT AND MY HEALTH AND I WANT TO GET ON THAT BIKE AGAIN AND KNOWING IT WILL BE A VERY LONG TIME AND ANOTHER SUMMER WITHOUT IT MAKES ME JUST SICK TO MY FAT STOMACH.
YES THAT IS WHERE ALL MY FAT HAS LANDED
WHEN I GO FOR CLOTHES I WAS IN THE MEDIUMS NOW I AM BACK TO THE PLUS SIZES AGAIN.
I WILL NOT GIVE UP BUT HAVE A LONG HARD ROAD AHEAD OF ME AND NEED HELP NEED TO SURROUND MY SELF WITH PEOPLE WHO WANT THE SAME THING AND THAT HAVE THEIR MIND SET.
WISH ME LUCK TO MANY INTERRUPTIONS ARE I WILL END IT NOW WITH A CRY FOR HELP!
BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO DO THIS ON MY OWN SO I SAY DEAR LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO GET THIS WEIGH OFF ONCE AND FOR ALL.
HELP GET MY MIND SET AND TO DO THIS NOW BEFORE IT IS TO LATE THANK YOU LORD FOR LISTENING TO ME AMEN!

  
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CLUMBOY 12/4/2012 2:58PM

    hi there--your post touched me so deeply for a number of reasons. first and foremost, i understand this pain, and so do a lot of other people on here--we have all been through it so many times, and we are all here to help you and cheer you on as you step up again and put yourself on the line.
second--do you know how much your husband loves and trusts you that he finally told you this very hard truth. its obvious he would cut his arm off rather than hurt you, but he honors you enough in his heart that he wanted to be done with the excuses. now the truth is out there and you can deal with it. this is a wonderful thing--and the fact that you sat quietly and listened means that you were ready to hear and deal with this. that is a big step forward and you should be proud of it.
stop berating yourself--it isn't helpful. you are here and owning up--that is what is important. find something (or many somethings) each day that you have done WELL. write them down--put them on here in a list if that helps you. you have more positive than negative going for you--but you need to put the positive out where you can see it and give the negative a rest. focus on what helps you be happy, and let go of the feelings that make you miserable. i have given my bad feelings a name that belonged to a totally toxic friend i jettisoned from my life a few years ago. when those bad thoughts come to me--i give them her voice and then i tell her to shut the heXX up and get out of my life. she goes away, and the bad thoughts have no power over me anymore, because SHE has no power over me anymore.
as an aside--just a thought--i have never been on a motorcycle, but i would LOVE to have one of those new three wheeled ones. i know they are horribly expensive--but might that be an option that would help you get out and ride NOW rather than put that joy off in your life?
live in the now--there is joy in the present day--just as much as in the far off future if you let yourself have it.
all the best to you. friend me if you like--i will keep an eye on you emoticon

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ANIHAKA 10/20/2012 7:46AM

    Two words come to mind regarding eating being out of control and for me because I do the same as you - they are BOREDOM and STRESS. If I'm stressed I reach for food when what is really needed is water and a walk or doing jobs around the house.
Dry your tears, pick yourself up and keep going on the right path. Before you know it you'll be enjoying bike riding again. BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT! WE ARE WORTH IT! We were born to enjoy life and to learn through the hard times and the harsh comments made to us by some people. Have a good week. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1COUNTRY_GAL 7/8/2012 7:09AM

    I just saw your blog and I bet you did it, emoticon
{{{{HUGS}}} Diana

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MARYMAZILLA 2/29/2012 1:04PM

    OK Char we can do this. Feel free to call on me any time. I have learned some wonderful things along this journey. As for the snacking thing. Do NOT restrict yourself. instead first try drinking a big glass of water when you find yourself searching for something. You body can not tell the difference between hunger and thurst. If after you still want something. Read the serving size and the calories, fat, and carbs. The measure out one serving. enjoy it but don't allow your self anymore. If you still want more go to raw veggies. that way you don't feel deprived. I have a strict set of rules I must abide by and have just gotten back on track. Because I have for about 6 months thrown them to the wind. So maybe we can support each other! emoticon

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KEIKOS_MUM 1/11/2012 11:50AM

    hugs .. you can do it , you done it before , i am the worlds worst at trying to keep track and drinking my water etc .
You will be back on the back of that bike , just as i will get a coat that fits me , and be able to take my fur baby out on the walks that she deserves.... emoticon dont give up xx

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STALEYK 8/26/2011 3:36PM

    Sorry that you are hurting right now. We can do it together. We just move forward and don't give up. I resisted tracking food intake but am finding more success doing that. I was exercising and drinking water but my intake was still more than my calorie burn. I am learning slowly. It has taken a long time for me to see the scale move downward. emoticon Hang in there...you have lots of friends rooting for you!

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SPARKCHANTAL 8/12/2011 8:06AM

    what do you mean, too late? are you a hundred and twenty or something? c'mon gal you've got a lot to live for, you're way younger than me and it sounds like so much more adventurous as well. shake a tailfeather babe!
and remember... it's for life!

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FSUGUARD04 8/2/2011 7:30AM

    I read you blog and know how badly you want all the things in your life to be normal again. While I can't understand the love of your bike, I can understand going to parks with friends or wanting to ride a ride where I honestly have to question whether or not I am too heavy for it. Having to avoid the fun things in life is terrible and no one should have to be there. You have left such wonderful words on my blog this morning I just had to return the favor.
I know you can do it! I know you have the motivation and drive and everything is obtainable if we all try hard enough for it, and then the things we want more than anything in this life, yes even the ride on the back of your husbands motorcycle, are ever the sweeter when we reach that seemingly unreachable goal. Keep up the good work, and I am here if you need some more motivation down the line!

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VTORIA3 6/17/2011 7:04AM

    As i read your blog, it reminded me of my journey, different people, places but same situation. I lost 38# in 2008 and regained it in 2009 though I swore up and down that after so much hard work, that would NEVER happen. With the help of Spark site and all of my wonderful spark friends, I am back losing this weight again. I am much behind schedule to reach goal weight, although I am hoping this is my year.

You left me such kind, encouraging words on my blog this morning. It was so dear of you to extend your self to me, and it meant a lot. And you hit the nail on the head...this is a tough, difficult journey of many ups and downs. With the excellent spark tools, we can admit the ugly, and celebrate all the good. Best of all, with the support of our spark friends, we WILL succeed and keep inching towards our goals. Ah, it sure does take a lot of hard work, and so, so much effort....something only another sparker could ever understand. It is so great to have you along on this journey. We are so worth it. When we are having a weak moment, let's challenge that cupcake or milkshake and say YOU are robbing me of my healthy me, of who I deserve to be. Let's resolve to claim what rightfully belongs to us. WE CAN DO THIS! emoticon emoticon

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MAMASALLYSOCKS 6/12/2011 3:08AM

    (((COW CUDDLES)))

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DEUCE119 6/12/2011 12:23AM

    DEAR DEAR CHAR! WE ALL LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND SO SORRY THAT YOU ARE HURTING. I KNOW ROY WOULD NEVER SAY THOSE WORDS TO HURT YOU. HE WAS BEING HONEST. HE DOESN'T WANT TO TAKE THE CHANCE OF HURTING EITHER OF YOU.
NOW AS FAR AS THE WEIGHT GAIN GOES, LIKE SOMEONE SAID, YOU CAN STAY IN YOUR CALORIE RANGE AND STILL EAT THE WRONG FOODS. I DO IT ALL THE TIME. BUT THERE IS A STRESS HORMONE THAT CAUSES BELLY FAT . I'M SURE YOU HAVE HEARD OF IT. CORTISOL! AND WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE BIGGEST WORRIER AROUND. WHY DON'T YOU TRY MEDITATION AND SEE IF THAT WILL HELP. I KNOW IT SEEMS GOOFY, BUT YOU REALLY NEED TO LET SOME OF THAT STRESS YOU HAVE GO. START PICKING YOUR BATTLES AND NOT FRET OVER SO MUCH SMALL STUFF. NOW THATS AN ORDER FROM ME. YOU HAVE TO JUST LOOK AT SOME THINGS AND LAUGH. WITHOUT THAT, LIFE IS JUST WORK. MAYBE THIS WON'T HELP YOU., BUT I SURE HOPE YOU GIVE IT SOME THOUGHT. HUGS AND I LOVE YOU . emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KSNICKER 6/11/2011 9:17PM

    CHAR - MY DEAR FRIEND... I'M FEELING YOUR HEARTACHE FOR SURE. I KNOW HOW HARD YOU WORK EACH DAY TOWARD THIS JOURNEY. LOTS HARDER THAN ME... I AGREE WITH THE OTHERS AND THINK YOU NEED TO ANALYZE EVERYTHING YOU ARE DOING AND SEE WHERE YOU MIGHT NEED TO ADJUST... MAYBE YOU NEED TO INTENSIFY THE EXERCISE OR MAYBE NOT DO AS MUCH... WE TALKED ABOUT THAT BEFORE WHEN I WAS LOOSING AND NOT EXERCISING... YOU STOPPED EXERCISING FOR A WEEK AND LOST WEIGHT... REMEMBER... SO IT COULD BE THAT YOU ARE NOT EATING ENOUGH OF THE GOOD FOODS FOR THE AMOUNT OF EXERCISE YOU ARE DOING... OR NOT EXERCISING ENOUGH OR HARD ENOUGH FOR THE BAD THINGS YOU ARE EATING...
WHY NOT TRY JUST WALKING LIKE MAMA DOES... FOR 3 MILES OR SO A DAY... CHANGE THINGS TOTALLY AROUND A BIT... BUT WHAT EVER YOU DO SO NOT GIVE UP...
ANOTHER THING THAT MIGHT HELP... THERE ARE LOTS OF TEAMS ON THIS WEB SITE AND MAYBE YOU SHOULD SCAN A FEW AND SEE IF THERE IS ONE THAT MAY INTEREST YOU ENOUGH TO GET YOUR MOJO GOING AGAIN.
I KNOW THAT IN MY CASE THAT I AM NOT VERY SUPPORTIVE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS I HAVE GOING ON... I'M HAVING MY OWN PERSONAL STRUGGLES RIGHT NOW WITH MY WEIGHT AND HAVE GAINED EVERYTHING BACK ONCE AGAIN MYSELF... BUT WONDERING IF MY MED'S COULD BE CONTRIBUTING... SO MAYBE YOU CAN FIND ANOTHER TEAM TO HELP MOTIVATE YOU AND MAYBE OFFER OTHER IDEAS FOR YOU... NOW I AM NOT... REPEAT NOT TELLING YOU TO GIVE OUR TEAM UP... THAT WILL NEVER WORK. WE NEED YOU THERE AND YOU NEED US... HEE HEE BUT MAYBE LOOKING AROUND YOU MAY FIND SOMETHING THAT WILL HELP...
WE ALL LOVE YOU AND WISH YOU THE BEST WITH YOUR JOURNEY... (((HUGS, HUGS AND MORE HUGS))) MY FRIEND... LET ME KNOW IF I CAN HELP... IF NOTHING ELSE I CAN LISTEN... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HOUSECAT609 6/11/2011 7:21PM

    CHAR, WE ARE HERE FOR YOU. KNOW YOUR HEART IS BREAKING, BUT TURN IT INTO A GOAL. I KNOW YOU HAVE DONE WELL WITH THE CALORIES, EXERCISE AND WATER, BUT YOU MIGHT NEED TO MAKE SOME ADJUSTMENTS, INTENSIFY THEM EXERCISES, CHANGE YOUR ROUTINE, DISECT THEM CALORIES YOU ARE EATING...CAN YOU MAKE BETTER CHOICES? ARE YOU REALLY GETTING ENOUGH CALORIES FOR THE EXERCISES YOU ARE DOING? BE REALLY HONEST WHEN YOU ENTER THINGS INTO YOUR TRACKER, DID YOU REALLY BURN THAT MANY CALORIES DOING THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE? EXERCISING?
MIGHT BE TIME TO GET ONE OF THOSE ARMBANDS THAT REALLY TRACK WHAT YOU BURN IN CALORIES...LIKE THEY USE ON BIGGEST LOSER.
LIKE THE IDEA OF THE "MONEY JAR", ANYTIME YOU WANT A "GOODIE" WETHER YOU DO BUY IT, EAT IT, OR PASS IT UP PUT THAT AMOUNT IN YOUR JAR....THEN WHEN YOU CAN GO FOR THAT RIDE ON THE HARLEY YOU WILL HAVE MONEY FOR SOME FUN...(((hugs)))

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MARLA7 6/11/2011 6:39PM

    CHAR - WHAT CAN I SAY? I'M SORRY YOU ARE GOING THROUGH THIS RIGHT NOW. YOU ARE RIGHT. YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE THE HEALTHY CHANGES FOR YOU. BUT KNOW THIS.... I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. I AM HERE FOR YOU. ANYTIME, NIGHT OR DAY, THAT YOU WANT TO TALK... CALL ME. ANYTIME ON SPARK THAT YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT YOUR JOURNEY...... DO IT. I'LL LISTEN. I AM HERE FOR YOU. WHY? BECAUSE I CARE. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. BECAUSE YOU'RE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON. BECAUSE YOU ARE A GREAT FRIEND. BECAUSE YOU ARE SO WORTH IT. I KNOW HOW HARD MAKING THOSE BETTER CHOICES CAN BE. WE'LL HELP EACH OTHER. ONCE I DON'T GO TO TREATMENTS ANYMORE I'M GOING TO START EARLY MORNING WALKS AGAIN WHEN IT'S COOLER OUTSIDE. THAT SHOULD HELP ME GET THE WEIGHT MOVING AGAIN. TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS.
ALL MY LOVE,
MARLA

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 6/11/2011 4:14PM

    MY DEAREST CHAR, I AM WRITING THIS WITH TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE AS MY HEART IS BREAKING FOR YOU. I DO UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE SAYING...I REALLY MISS RIDING ON THE BACK OF DICK'S HARLEY. HAVEN'T DONE IT SINCE 1994 WHEN HE HAD HIS HEART ATTACK AND DIED. HIS HEART ATTACK CAME OUT OF THE BLUE, BUT IT WAS TOO LATE. I AM PRAYING FOR YOU THAT YOU CAN GET YOUR MINDSET BACK AND CONTINUE YOUR JOURNEY TO THE HEALTHIEST YOU CAN BE. IT DOES GET HARDER AS MORE HEALTH ISSUES POP UP, BUT IT IS NOT IMPOSSIBLE. YOU CAN DO THIS!!! TOGETHER WE CAN DO THIS. IT IS POSSIBLE TO STAY IN YOUR CALORIE RANGE AND STILL GAIN WEIGHT IF YOU ARE EATING THE WRONG FOODS OR NOT EATING ENOUGH CALORIES....WHICH IS MY PROBLEM DUE TO DIET RESTRICTIONS AND HEALTH CONDITIONS. HOWEVER I HAVE RESTARTED MYSELF ON JUNE 1 AND I HAVE LOST 8 POUNDS...MOSTLY I THINK DUE TO MEDICATION CHANGES BUT I AM MEASURING EVERYTHING AND PAYING VERY CLOSE ATTENTION TO PORTION SIZES AGAIN.
YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS DAILY. WAKE UP EACH MORNING GIVING THANKS FOR A NEW DAY TO GET IT RIGHT AND DO THE BEST YOU CAN. AT THE END OF THE DAY THANKING GOD THAT YOU DID THE BEST YOU COULD FOR THAT DAY. FOR EACH DAY THAT I STAY TOTALLY ON TRACK WITH MY EXERCISES, WATER DRINKING, CALORIES, ETC., I PUT $1.00 IN MY SPECIAL JAR. THAT IS MY REWARD MONEY, ORIGINALLY SET TO BUY TUNES AND EXERCISE VIDEOS, BUT NOW I AM THINKING SOMETHING A BIT BIGGER...MAYBE SOME NEW SMALLER CLOTHES OR A TRIP FOR KEN AND I IN OUR NEW MOTOR HOME.
IF POSSIBLE, SET UP A SPECIAL MONEY JAR FOR YOURSELF JUST TO SEE HOW MUCH YOU CAN SAVE AND BUY YOURSELF A NEW "WOW" OUTFIT TO GO RIDING THAT BIKE BEHIND ROY OR ANOTHER SPECIAL TREAT JUST FOR YOU!!! THAT MAKES A WIN/WIN SITUATION.
YOU DID THIS ONCE AND I KNOW THAT YOU CAN GET IT GOING AGAIN. I HAVE FAITH IN YOUR ABILITY, MY DEAR FRIEND, AND YOUR WANTING TO WIN THIS BATTLE...ONE SMALL SQUIRMIST AT A TIME!!!!
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LOVE AND HUGS,
HELEN

PRAYING...

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FROGGY80916 6/11/2011 11:00AM

    You do not have to do this alone, Spark People is exactly for you and me, and any one else needing support, love, and guidance on this journey. Take one day at a time, make small simple changes--- they really add up. Try to do 10 minutes of exercise every day and build from there. Make sure to drink your water daily, and make wiser choices about food and use the nutrition tracker to see what your are eating. But MOST IMPORTANT----LOVE YOURSELF for who you are. You are a brilliant, creative, special being who deserves your love! You have mine. A quote that helps me is, "When you judge yourself, you break your own heart." So for me and more importantly for yourself, stop breaking your own heart. emoticon emoticon

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MY SPARK ANNIVERSARY

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

HELLO FRIENDS! I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN A WHILE CAUSE I AM DOING THE DAILY PLANNER INSTEAD.
WELL IT IS MY SPARK ANNIVERSARY I FEEL HAPPY AND ALSO SAD!
HAPPY BECAUSE I HAVE MET SO MANY GOOD PEOPLE HERE THAT I LOVE VERY MUCH AND CAN TELL ANYTHING TO THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY. WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT.WHO I MISS DEARLY IF I HAVEN'T SEEN THEM POST I GET WORRIED.
NOW THAT IS TRUE FRIENDS!
WHAT I HAVE LEARNED AND KEPT WITH ME ARE EXERCISE NEVER DID I DO THEM AND NOW I AM THE QUEEN OF EXERCISE I DO IT RIGHT AFTER I EAT BREAKFAST. AND HAVE LEARNED NO TAKE A BREAK AND I DO THAT ON THE WEEKENDS.
I SLEEP 8 HOURS SO I GO TO BED A LITTLE EARLY TO GET UP EARLIER TO GET THE EXERCISE IN THAT WAY IT IS DONE NO EXCUSES.
THEN ALSO I HAVE LEARNED TO DRINK 8-8OXZ GLASSES OF WATER A DAY AND FROM BEING A SODA DRINKER THIS IS A BIG DEAL FOR ME AND I TRULY DON'T MISS SODA AT ALL SO IF I CAN DO IT ANYONE CAN.LOL
THE THERE ARE THE FRUITS AND VEGGIE I ALWAYS GET MY 5 SERVINGS A DAY IN AS SPARK SAY AT LEAST 3 OF THEM BEING FRUIT! I AM A VERY PICKY PERSON SO I LIKE THE FRUIT BETTER AND USUALLY GET 4 OF THOSE IN.
THEN THE CALORIE RANGE I CAN COUNT ON MY ONE HAND HOW MANY TIMES I WENT OVER SO THAT IS A GOOD THING RIGHT?
I ALWAYS POST EVERYDAY AND EITHER BLOG OR USE THE DAILY PLANNER THAT IS IMPORTANT BECAUSE I PUT INTO WRITING ALL MY FEELINGS AND THAT MAKE ME BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE. I USE TO BLOG MORE BUT FELT LIKE I WAS REPEATING MYSELF DAILY.LOL AND NOW LEAN TOWARDS THE PLANNER.
THEN SINCE I STARTED SPARK I LOST 30 POUND WOW WHAT A BIG THAT IS NOW THE SAD PART I GAINED ALL BUT 4 POUNDS BACK:(
I DON'T HAVE MY MIND SET THE WAY IT WAS WHEN I STARTED SPARK AND NEED DESPERATELY TO GET BACK TO WHERE I WAS AND JUST AM HAVING A TERRIBLE TIME TRYING TO DO SO.I KNOW ONCE THIS MIND IS SET THERE WILL BE NO STOPPING ME LOOK OUT!
MANY OF YOU HAVE HERD ME TELL THIS STORY OVER AND OVER WELL I HOPE NOT FOR LONG WELL ALL BUT THE 4 POUND I WILL BE SHOUTING 30 POUNDS GONE I TRULY HOPE BEFORE NEXT YEAR.
WHEN I LOOK AT THE BIG PICTURE I SAY MY GOODNESS ALL THIS TIME I SHOULD BE AT MY GOAL SO HERE I GO AGAIN INTO ANOTHER YEAR AND LORD PLEASE LET THIS BE MY YEAR!
WE ALL KNOW THERE IS NO EXCUSE I COULD SAY OH I WORK TO HARD AND DON'T HAVE TIME.
OR MY BACK OR MY LEGS I JUST CAN'T.OR I AM TO TIRED. OR HERE IS A GOOD ONE I HAVE BEEN UNDER SO MUCH STRESS I JUST CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS TO RIGHT NOW.WELL GUESS WHAT THEY ARE ALL MY EXCUSES AND IF I WERE HEALTHY THEN THESE THINGS WOULDN'T BOTHER ME AS MUCH AND I WOULD BE ON THAT WAGON .
DOES ANY OF THIS SOUND FAMILIAR? WELL LET'S ALL DO THIS TOGETHER THERE IS STRENGTH IN NUMBERS SO LET'S ALL GET WITH IT.
IT IS SO MUCH EASIER IF EVERYONE IS ON THE WAGON AND ALL WORKING TOGETHER AND TALKING DAILY ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING AND WHAT IS WORKING FOR YOU THAT MAYBE WE ALL CAN TRY.
SO LET'S GET TO THAT GOAL LET'S MAKE THIS OUR YEAR TO SUCCEED. I AM SO GLAD I FOUND THIS SITE AND IT IS FREE OR I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO DO IT.

  
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MERRYROBYN 4/11/2012 5:12AM

    You are doing a great job. Losing 30 lbs in one year would be a dream come true to me! This means that you learned healthy habits and lost fat, not water or muscle. I have a hard time losing weight and I get depressed that I have no control over how my body gains or loses weight. But i do have control over what I eat and how much I exercise. My dog is about seven years old, and he is devastated if he misses a walk once a week. He has helped me get out that door many of days, but it feels good once I get out there. Congrats to your year long dedication. Slow and steady wins the race!

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MUSICTEX 10/20/2010 10:10AM

    I like fruit a lot more also. Keep up the good work.

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AMLEHNKURT 9/24/2010 10:40AM

    Char just remember that muscle weighs more than fat and with all the exercise you do daily, I know from seeing your calves first hand, it is muscle. So don't fret over numbers on a scale. You are in good health and still exercising, eating well and those are the main things, not what the scale always says.

I still don't know how you exercise in that room everyday! lol Oh I remember now, your smaller!

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 9/24/2010 9:01AM

    CHAR, HAPPY SPARK ANNIVERSARY MY DEAR FRIEND!!!
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WHAT A WONDERFUL BLOG THAT COULD HAVE BEEN WRITTEN BY ANY ONE OF US. YOUR HAVE SAID IT SO VERY NICELY AND THIS WILL BE YOUR YEAR!!!
JUDGE YOUR SUCCESS NOT BY THE NUMBERS ON YOUR SCALES, BUT BY THE DEGREE TO WHICH YOU ARE ENJOYING HEALTH, PEACE, LOVE AND LIFE!! FRIENDSHIP, LOVE, HEALTH, ENERGY, ENTHUSIASM AND JOY ARE THE THINGS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING AND EXPLORING. I HAVE HAD TO SHAKE UP MY EXERCISES AND AM NOW STRIVING TO SHAKE UP MY CALORIES TO GET MY SCALES MOVING DOWNWARD AGAIN. IT IS STARTING TO WORK FOR ME. I JUST WISH THE DOCTORS WOULD QUIT COMING UP WITH THINGS THAT ARE WRONG WITH ME SO THAT I COULD CONTINUE EATING HEALTHY WITH NO RESTRICTIONS.
REMEMBER: TAKE PERFECTION AND THROW IT OUT THE WINDOW. THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING YOU CAN MAKE BETTER OR DO DIFFERENTLY... STRIVE TO IMPROVE, NOT ATTAIN THE IMPOSSIBLE. DO THE BEST YOU CAN WITH EACH DAY THAT YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN AND ENJOY IT!!! DON'T LET STRESS GET YOUR BEST. YES, YOU CAN DO IT!!!
BLESSINGS, LOVE AND HUGS,
HELEN


"DREAM IT. BE IT!!!"



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POLLY20 9/24/2010 7:50AM

    CHAR,YOU'RE DOING WELL~AS LONG AS YOU'RE NOT GAINING BIG TIME YOU ARE A SUCCESS~KEEP STRIVING FOR PERFECTION BUT REMEMBER ALL OF THE
UPS & DOWNS ARE ONLY NORMAL~HERE'S TO ANOTHER & SUCCESSFUL YEAR W/
SP & ALL OF YOUR GREAT FRIENDS THAT LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH~HUGS POL

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WHAT A NICE DAY HERE TODAY

Sunday, March 21, 2010

HELLO FRIENDS WHAT A NICE DAY IT IS AGAIN HERE THE BOYS ARE OUT SIDE SHOOTIN THE BREEZE! I GOT UP THIS MORNING AFTER GETTING MY 8 HOURS OF SLEEP IN AND ATE A BREAKFAST OF WHOLE WHEATFRENCH TOAST AND EGGS YUMMY FOLLOWED BY A SHOWER THEN I READ THE SUNDAY PAPER NOT MUCH I WANTED FROM THE STORE WENT SHOPPING CAME HOME PUT IT AWAY AND HAD A VISIT WITH MY SON HE HAD IS MOTORCYCLE STORED FOR THE WINTER AND BROUGHT IT OUT TODAY AND NOW HE WILL KEEP IT IN OUR GARAGE.IT IS ABOUT 70 OUT THERE SO NICE BUT WE WILL BE GETTING MORE SNOW THEY TELL US DOESN'T SEAM RIGHT WITH THIS NICE WEATHER NOW THAT WE SHOULD HAVE TO GO BACK TO SNOW!
WE WENT OUT LAST NIGHT WILL ALL OUR KIDS AND THEIR SPOUSES AND FRIENDS AND HAD SUCH AVERY GOOD TIME SO MUCH LAUGHING!I NEEDED THAT SO BADLY AND I AM SO DARN RELAXED TODAY GOT TO DO IT MORE OFTEN!LOL
GOT DINNER IN THE OVEN ANDTHE TABLE SET BUT WE WILL EAT A LITTLE LATER ON.GOT ALL MY CLOTHES READY FOR WORK.I AM SET SO NOW I THINK I WILL CHECK IN ON MY TEAM AND THEN WATCH SOME TV.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING MY BLOG IN ADVANCE AND HUGS TO ALL.

POSITIVES:GOD
A VERY,VERY NICE SUNNY DAY
GREAT FRIENDS
A LOVING FAMILY
A GREAT SPARKTEAM
GOOD SPARK FRIENDS
RELAXED TODAY
GOT MY CAR WASHED OUT SIDE SINCE I DID THE INSIDE YESTERDAY
JUST FEEL GREAT TODAY

  
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MOMMA_BEAR_69 3/23/2010 4:57AM

    What a great Sunday!!! Laughter is so very good for us and it is one thing we don't get enough of!! Hope you many more days spent with family, good friends and lots of laughter!! Great positives...glad you had a relaxing, positive day!!!
Blessings and hugs,
Helen

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HAD A GOOD DAY TODAY

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

HELLO SPARK FRIENDS! HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN A WHILE I HAVE BEEN DOING A JOURNAL LOG INSTEAD.
I HAVE BEEN DOWN FOR A WHILE NOW BUT GOT A CALL FROM CAROL A.K. MAMA THE OTHER DAY AND ANNE TODAY AND I TELL YOU WHAT THAT JUST PICKED ME RIGHT UP I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO PEE MY PANTS LAUGHING WITH ANNE HERE TODAY AT WORK!LOL THANKS SO MUCH ANNE AND CAROL FOR THE PHONE CALLS YOU CAN DO THAT ANY TIME AT ALL.
WE ARE TRYING TO GET A VISIT TOGETHER THIS SPRING AT LEAST BEFORE THE REAL HOT WEATHER COMES IT WILL BE SO NICE SEEING ALL MY SPARK FRIENDS IN PERSON WELL NOT ALL OF THEM BECAUSE OF THE DISTANCE WE CAN ONLY DO A COUPLE AT A TIME!
I GOT UP THIS MORNING EXERCISED AND THEN CAME TO WORK AND ATE ALL MY FRUITS AND VEGGIES AND WILL STAY IN MY CALORIE RANGE.
DRANK ALL MY WATER ALSO NEVER A PROBLEM WITH ALL OF THAT IT IS STILL THE SAME OLD THING WHAT I EAT. TRYING TO STILL GET THIS MIND SET IT IS JUST NOT THERE. But WILL NOT GIVE UP YOU GUY'S ARE STUCK WITH ME!LOL
THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR READING MY BLOG AND HUGS TO ALL!

POSITIVES:GOD
TALKING TO SPARK FRIENDS WHO GAVE ME A BIG BOOST! THANKS ANNE AND CAROL
A GREAT SPARK TEAM
GOOD SPARK FRIENDS
A GOOD DOG HARLEY
A LOVING FAMILY
A VERY NICE WARM DAY
A GOOD DAY AT WORK
EATING ALL MY FRUITS AND VEGGIES
DRINKING ALL MY WATER
STAYING IN MY CALORIE RANGE
DOING ALL MY EXERCISES

  
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DIVINEDIVA5 3/29/2011 8:44AM

  Love the post but love more that your FIRST positive is listed as GOD -- my kinda woman. You are really cooking with gas now and keep up the good work. You are doing and don't let anyone tell you any different emoticon

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MOMMA_BEAR_69 3/18/2010 5:54AM

    SO GLAD YOU HAD A GREAT DAY AND GOT TO TALK WITH MAMA AND ANNE FOR A GREAT PICK ME UP. HOPE YOUR ST. PATRICK'S DAY WAS A GREAT ONE TOO. KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK!!!
BLESSINGS AND HUGS, MY FRIEND,
HELEN

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AMLEHNKURT 3/17/2010 1:13PM

    Thank goodness we are STUCK with you, because I wouldn't have it any other way Char!

It was so much fun talking with you too. Can't wait to see if we can get this thing going for the spring/summer. Would love to meet you in person!

Keep smiling friend!

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MAMASALLYSOCKS 3/17/2010 10:23AM

    MooHoo!

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DEPRESSING WEATHER

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

HELLO FRIENDS! TODAY STARTED OUT THE SAME OLD SAME OLD GOT UP DID MY EXERCISES AND SHOWERED AND WENT TO WORK. MAN AM I TIRED OF THIS SAME OLD STUFF! NOW TODAY THERE ARE CALLING FOR A LOT OF SNOW DURING THE NIGHT RIGHT INTO FRIDAY!ARE WE CLOSING NO! PENDOT SENT OUT AN ADVISORY TO STAY OFF THE ROADS. SO I AM AS ALWAYS GOING TO THE STORE WHEN I AM DONE WITH JANICE JUST TO MAKE SURE I HAVE WHAT I NEED AND THAT IS ONLY A FEW MORE THINGS!
THERE ARE SEVERAL PEOPLE I KNOW THAT ARE GOING THRU SOME RUFF TIMES WITH THIS WEATHER AND DEPRESSION.
I AM TRYING MY DARNEDEST TO NOT LET IT GET ME DOWN BUT I TELL YA IT IS HARD SO MUCH GOING ON AT THE SAME TIME WEATHER MY TWO JOBS BEING A PAIN IN THE BUTT. GRRRRR
I DID EAT ALL MY FRUITS AND VEGGIES AND DRANK ALL MY WATER AND STAYED IN MY CALORIE RANGE GOT MY TRACKER ALL FILLED OUT WITH SUPPER EVEN.
GUESS I WILL GO HOME WHEN I AM DONE WITH JANICE AND THE STORE AND THE POST OFFICE AND BANK! LOL AND START WASH AND SEE WHAT ELSE I CAN GET DONE. I TRIED TO WORK THRU LUNCH TODAY TO GET AHEAD FOR TIME SO IT IS IN FOR THE WEEK BUT THE BOSS DIDN'T GO FOR IT SHE DON'T CARE CAUSE SHE WILL BE STAYING HOME IF IT SNOWS TO BAD SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT US!
WELL I HOPE WE DON'T HAVE WORK I WOULD MUCH RATHER STAY HOME WHO WOULDN'T RIGHT?

THANKS IN ADVANCE FOR READING MY BLOG AND HUGS TO ALL.

POSITIVES:GOD
A GOOD DOG HARLEY
A GREAT SPARK TEAM
GOOD SPARK FRIENDS
A CAR
HEAT TO KEEP ME WARM
A LOVING FAMILY
FOOD TO EAT
EXERCISE DONE
ATE ALL MY FRUITS&VEGGIES
STAYED IN MY CALORIE RANGE

  
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MAURIZIA 2/25/2010 12:36PM

  CHAR, HOPE YOU GET HOME SAFELY...IT'S THE SAME IN RI - EVEN IF THE STATE DECLARES AN EMERGENCY, SOME PLACES STILL EXPECT EMPLOYEES - STARTING WITH STATE EMPLOYEES! GO FIGURE. JUST BE SAFE, MY FRIEND.

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MRE1956 2/24/2010 4:21PM

    I'm just about at the same point regarding low mood re: weather.....it's getting downright intolerable......I, also, cannot take a day off without financial problems resulting.......I am angry and frustrated beyond belief at this point.....best wishes to you with this stuff & nonsense.....



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