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EMOTIONAL EATING

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

MY FIRST SHOT AT CREATING A BIOG SO PLEASE BARE WITH ME!AT WORK I AM FINDING IT VERY HARD TO DEAL WITH SOME CO-WORKERS.THE ONE IN PARTICULAR IS GETTING VERY HARD TO DEAL WITH. FIRST OF ALL EVERYONE AT WORK KNOWS OF MY GOALS. I HAVE TOLD EVERYONE.EVERYONE IS MOSTLY SUPPORTIVE. THIS ONE GIRL WITCH I MIGHT ADD HAS NO PROBLEM WITH WEIGHT AT ALL SHE IS VERY SKINNY.I REALLY DO LIKE HER. BUT THIS WEEK SHE IS NOT ON A GOOD LIST WITH ME. FROM DAY ONE SHE HAS BEEN PUTTING FOOD IN MY FACE AND SAYING YUM, YUM.YESTERDAY I EXPLODED AT HER. IT WAS FAT TUESDAY AND PEOPLE BROUGHT THINGS IN.I HAVE LEFT THINGS ALONE SINCE SEPTEMBER AT WORK. YESTERDAY SHE MADE AND HELD IN FRONT OF ME A BAG OF CHOCOLATE COVERED POPCORN. SAYING AND WAVING IT IN MY FACE YUM, YUM COME ON SMELL THAT YUM. I FREAKED OUT AND YELLED AT HER. SAID YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I HAVE BEEN THU TO GET TO WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW. IT IS SO HARD YOU ARE SO MEAN. AND A COUPLE OF MORE CHOICE WORDS WE WON'T REPEAT EVERYONE ELSE WAS TRYING TO CALM ME DOWN. BY TELLING ME HOW GOOD I AM DOING AND HOW GOOD I LOOK. WHICH BEFORE YESTERDAY THIS VERY GIRL ALSO WAS TELLING ME.AND SHE HAS DONE THIS BEFORE TO ME,BUT I HAVE STAYED THE SAME WEIGHT FOR TWO WEEKS NOW AND IT IS REALLY KILLING ME NOW I AM SO ON EDGE I CAN'T STAND IT. AT TIME I JUST WANT TO GIVE UP ON THIS, THEN I THINK I AM OVER 1/2 WAY TO MY GOAL. AND I WOULD ONLY BE HURTING MYSELF.I HAVE BEEN CHANGING MY EXERCISING FOOD INTAKE ETC. NOTHING WORKING AT THIS POINT. AND STRESS AT WORK WITH A MERGER DOESN'T HELP AT ALL. I AM TRYING TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND MOVE FORWARD AND WITH THE HELP OF MY SPARK FRIENDS AND GOD I WILL MAKE MY GOAL SOON!I REALLY DOES FELL BETTER TO TALK ABOUT IT. THANK YOU VERY MUCH SPARK FRIENDS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME OR I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO.I AM SITTING HERE CRYING WHILE TYPING THIS TO ALL OF YOU. I FEEL SO GUILTY AND MAD AT MYSELF ALL AT ONCE. I KNOW I HAVE TO GET OVER THIS PICK MY CHIN UP ANDGO ON. OR I WILL BE EATING EVERYTHING IN SIGHT AND IN MY HEART THAT IS NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO. SO PLEASE HELP MY FRIENDS!IT TRULLY DOES FEEL GOOD TO CALL ALL OF YOU MY FRIENDS. CHAR

  
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LINDIEMAE 6/29/2008 7:51PM

    Hey Char, just dropped by and read your blog, my goodness, no one would be able to act like that in my place of work...

Just thinkof all the chemicals that that child is poluting themselves with and that you no longer need because your on your healthier life style journey. Yea she's a bump in the road, but somewhere down the line she will have this to deal with. I was once a skinny winny.

You have done remarkablly well and I for one am inspired by you and your determination and your will power and all that you do. You put me to shame, man, You will get by this plateau that your on..but do try not to be stressed...

I know your said your taking deep breath, so try doing that for like 5 minutes, do NOTHING but listen to your breathing. This will help... trust me eh emoticon

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LMSW55 2/21/2008 5:49AM

    Oh Char, one more thing, I was thinking that sometimes skinny people live in their own hell because they may be binging and purging their food to stay thin - bulimic, they are called. This girl may not have that issue, but the thought occurred to me that she may. So many mysterious, misunderstood sides to human experiences, eh?
Mary


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LMSW55 2/21/2008 5:43AM

    My goodness Char, I know I am late in reading this and this too, has probably passed by now, but it sounds as if you have a real bully on your hands at work. I am glad the majority of your co-workers are supportive. The bully girl, more than likely, is to be pitied because bullies, as a rule, are cowards and very insecure. I know this doesn't change her behavior, but perhaps reframing your thoughts about her will help you in dealing with her in the future.
Thank you for adding me as a Spark friend. I too, value you and enjoy reading your posts.
Mary


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FROGGIE13777 2/13/2008 6:56PM

    Char...wow you were magnificent!!! She is lucky you did not deck her...so prudent of you to only use words. YOu are right you are more than half way o your goal and you are a role model for me because I have twice as far to go as you and when I see other people out there who have done it well I just get courage to go on and say....I know I can...I know I can.
I got the Valentine from you and it really encouraged my heart. Thank you so much. the +50+50 team is very special and I count you as one of my friends and an example.
Happy Valentines day my Friend
Keep up the good work

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CRJENNETT 2/6/2008 11:34PM

    I have had to deal with skinny people all my life. Both my mother and my brother were just naturally skinny. Charlie put on weight when he got older, but mother never did. They both thought my weight was a character flaw in me.

Remember the old latin saying....Bastardis non carberundum....Don't let the bastards grind you down.

If they had to do what you are doing, they would never make it.

Mimi

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KSNICKER 2/6/2008 10:11PM

    Hi Char,
I am so sorry that you had to deal with that skinny witch... There is no excuse for her to be that way to you... You have worked so hard. Don't let that little witch bring you down... How Rude she was... You have gotten some great advice from that others here already... I'd sit her down and have that talk like Mauri says... It 's best to bring her over to your side and then maybe she will think before she acts next time... Who knows maybe she realizes how stupid it was to act that way...
Just don't give up because of HER... Don't give her that power over you... And remember that You have us... And venting all the built up stuff is what we do here... We need each other to get through all this... The good and well as the bad times... So hang in there... We need you here with us... ((HUGS)) my friend! Kathy

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AMLEHNKURT 2/6/2008 9:53PM

    Hey our little energizer bunny! Give your head a shake and let's look at this with wide open eyes, okay?

Let me guess that this girl, first of all, is younger than you. Almost about twenty years younger. This would explain her immature behaviour to you saying no to junk food you don't want to put into your body and may I emphasize, your body!

I got an image of Nellie Olson from Little House on Prairie teasing Laura Ingells. So ignor Nellie and carry on with what you are doing Char. In another ten, twenty or thirty years this Nellie will have a weight problem and you will have satifaction in knowing that with every mouthful you watch her take now, will add unwanted pounds and inches to her in years to come!

You keep on, keeping on and you will reach your goal. You are a very determined and focused person Char and hard worker where
ever you are, so don't let Nellie get you down!!!

Keep singing, biking, dancing, walking Harley, etc.. So here it goes...Wild thing, you make my thing swing! Isn't that how it goes?

Love ya friend!

Anne

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ALFREDIA 2/6/2008 3:00PM

  Char
From your description of the events this girl is very immature rude and downright destructive. I think I would have to confront her and ask what satisfaction she received from being that inconsiderate. You have achieved so much. We're all very happy for you that you have made it this far. You give us hope. Makes me want to break into song "You light up my life". You know we love to sing in our chat group. I hate that she did this but I know had I been there I would only have thought less of her for her thoughtless actions and more of you for your determination to take care of yourself. We're here for you.

HUGS
Marie

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MAURIZIA 2/6/2008 7:31AM

    Char, I wish I could be with you to give you a real hug - but I'm sending a virtual one through SP. As I read it, I sit here with tears in my eyes for you because I, too, have been in this situation in the past. I know how hurtful it is for someone who is as giving as you and as caring as you. It is so difficult to understand why some people are this way. After you have calmed down, I would calmly talk with her, saying, " (name), I'm sorry I blew up at you but you have no idea how hard I have worked to get healthy. I am so happy for you that you don't have to go through this and are able to eat anything you want. That's not true for me and so I'd like to ask for your support."

She sounds to me like someone who wants attention. By asking for her support and acknowledging that she doesn't have the problem may just be the ticket to get her behind you instead of against you. Just a suggestion.

In the meantime, I know that in the moment of emotion, you are tempted to give it all up BUT I also know, Char, that you are a woman of your word! That you have committed to this healthy lifestyle - and just like your commitments to family, to Janice, to work - you will follow through. I'm not worried that you will give it up - I'm just hurting for you.

In the meantime, we are ALWAYS here for you! Just post or blog - and I am sending you prayers and lots of hugs - we LOVE you! ~~ Maurizia

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DANDDPOFF 2/6/2008 7:13AM

    Char, she may be skinny , but has no sence at all, or maturing either, don't pay any attention to her. I know I have some so called friends like that, they like to brag how they can eat anything and not gain weight, well, so what, me and you can lose the weight and become beautiful,but they can not change their ugle personalty, so to h___ with her, we are here with you. donna

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MARLA7 2/6/2008 6:55AM

    Oh Char.... First of all, never give up. You are doing so well, you've come so far & YOU DESERVE to continue getting healthy! Tell that girl "what part of NO do you NOT understand" when she tempts you with food. That was very immature of her. You've shown you have willpower by not giving in to all the office goodies. Just keep moving forward & say 'no thanks' to the girls. You can vent anytime. That's what we're here for. You've shown you can do it, now keep on doing it! You inspire me. I also am so glad we have each other. I feel as if I've known you all for years! Take care now. It's good to call you my friend too! Love you, Marla

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LOOSING WEIGHT

Friday, October 12, 2007

I HAVE 50 LBS. TO LOOSE. I HAVE HAD 4 OPERATION AND I AM 51 SO I FIND IT HARDER TO LOOSE THE WEIGHT. BUT I AM TRYING MY BEST! I NEVER COUNTED CALORIES JUST CUT DOWN. SO THIS IS ALL NEW TO ME.IF I CAN DO IT ANYONE CAN DO IT.AND I AM STARTING TO FIND ALL THE DIFFERENT AREAS ON THE SITE. HOPE TO HEAR FROM SOMONE. THANKS FOR LISTENING. CHAR

  
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BELLAVANCE1 7/7/2008 10:52PM

    Hey Char..
Hope your still working with the site. It really is a pain but it really works. I fought counting calories but finally realized I was not going to win without working the site properly. My daughter has lost 48 lbs since last November and I have now lost 18 since the first of March. It was weight I thought I would never be able to take off. Never give up. I see your a biker. I rode for 9 years and just sold the bike for a convertible last year. We did the Blue Ridge , Smokies, Cumberland Gap all of South Dakota and everything in between it and Texas. The Hill country in South Texas was wonderful riding also.
Han in there. The lost makes ou feel so muc better.
Marilyn

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DDPATTERSON01 10/12/2007 5:11PM

    Hi, just chiming in to welcome you. I've only been at SP for 2 weeks, 2 days, and 42 mins., but I just love it! Got waaaaaay more than 50 lbs. to lose, but I have yet to find a better place to get the support to do it.

Use everything here -- -- there are so many great resources!

Good luck!

Dana

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MARLA7 10/12/2007 3:56PM

    I also have 50 lbs. to lose - mine is for a kidney transplant. It is harder to lose weight the older we get...I'm 52. Just think healthy. Track everything you eat in the nutrition tracker... take a walk or do some form of exercise & track it in the fitness tracker. Drink lots of water. It takes time but it will work & the weight will come off. It didn't come on overnight & it won't come off overnight either. Stick with it & have a happy, healthier life. Best of luck to you. Marla

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WANDAH3 10/12/2007 1:15PM

    Welcome to a great team. Use the trackers for nutrition and exercise and you will have success. They are keys to helping you see where you might need to make changes and to keeping you on track. Drink lots of water and post often. Jump into any of the posts, you are always welcome. If you have any questions just ask and someone will help you out.
One step at a time, you need to rid yourself of those old habits that helped to create the problem of weight gain and learn new healthy habits. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen.
Have an awesome day,
Wanda

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