Tuesday, May 15, 2012
It is a dreary, dark and rainy day here in Eastern PA. I've had a difficult time getting motivated to do anything today. My eating habits have not been good and I feel tired. I am fed up with all the 'uns' in my life: unhappy, unfit, unflattering, unable, unacceptable, unaccountable, unachieved, unadaptable, unappealing, uncomplimentary, unattainable, uncertain, unchangeable, unimproved.
I need turn those un's around to read: happy, fit, flattering, able, acceptable, accountable, achieved, adaptable, appealing, complimentary, attainable, certain, changeable, and improved.
Lately I haven't had the motivation or energy to get back into my exercise routine like I have wanted to. I'm going into Week 4 of the BLC19 and I know tomorrow mornings weigh-in there will definitely be a gain on the scale. I am angry with myself. I need to dig deep inside me and find the willpower and motivation that kicked me into gear last year when I lost 10 lbs. Change. I have to change. My bad eating habits, my lack of sleep, my lack of a firm schedule around the house and my lack of planning.
Although I am tired today and just wanted to lay in bed and read a book, I forced myself to get on the elliptical for 30 minutes. I still feel tired, but am glad I did some exercise. My entire family was sick and my 5 year old is just getting over it today. I'm just hoping this tiredness isn't a sign of me coming down with the sinus/cold/coughing everyone else in my house has had.
This post is kind of a downer.....I know, believe me. I like to post positive, encouraging things. But today I just felt the need to get the negativity out so I can focus on the positive and move on. I hate that I know what I need to do, but don't do it. I'm more than frustrated with myself. So here's to starting week 4 of BLC19 and making the remaining weeks much more prosperous than the 1st 3 weeks have been for me. Looking forward.....