Sunday, August 19, 2012
August 19th! WoW! How did we get here so fast and why do I feel like I wasted my summer? Well, because I did not eat well and I did not workout, hence I did not lose weight and I feel like a beached whale.
I went to bed at 12:30am last night and had trouble falling asleep. For some reason I woke up around 8am and decided to come onto SparkPeople for some motivation to get my day going. Then I headed over to Facebook to look for some of those motivational pictures with quotes. Here is the one that jumped out at me:
"The courage to continue" is totally what I need right now. I need to forget about how much time I have let slip away this year. I need to stop dwelling on what I didn't do and focus on what I must do now in order to get my body where I want it to be. It is time to GO BACK TO WORK! And once I am in the midst of working and climbing the mountain to reach my goals, I need to remember that the work will never be totally over. I must not STOP the habits I create for myself, but rather adopt them, continue them and not look back or return to my old habits. That is what gets me in trouble every time.
Now, the courage to start, the struggle to continue, and the hopes of reaching where I want to be are in front of me and I want to get there and stay there this time! Anyone else with me on this? ( I hope so!)
Sunday, May 20, 2012
The BLC19 Teal Trooper's Team challenge for the weekend is a soul searching challenge. Basically, all team members are to share what they have discovered about themselves and their approach to losing their weight thus far. So here goes mine.
My weight loss program flip-flops from day to day. If I have a decent amount of sleep and a day where I am home most of the day, I usually get in some sort of exercise. It's the days where I am running around to appointments and errands where I find it especially difficult to fit in the exercise (and eating less healthy seems to follow on these types of days as well.)
My approach to my food intake seems to be led by my emotions. Being overwhelmed/stressed/anxious seems to lead me to less healthy choices. When I feel energetic/in control/focused/positive I tend to be able to make more healthy, concious choices about the food I eat.
My mental outlook also flip-flops depending on my mood. Obviously some days are harder than others and it is on those days that are hardest that I need to focus even more on my goals. I do get discouraged and know that weight loss requires patience, time, and work on my part. Some days its just easier to give into going back to old habits and I hate myself when that happens.
The barriers to achieving the goals I set for myself are my energy level and time. Running a household and the schedules of two children come before me most of the time. I think I need to somehow come up with a slice of time for me not matter what. Its easier said than done though. I'm good at knowing what needs to be done, it's the finding the energy, motivation and time period to achieve my goals that jinxes my plans.
What am I currently doing that I could be doing differently? Schedule an earlier bedtime with no computer use after a certain time of night. Schedule exercise time and follow that strictly (except in cases of not feeling well or injury). Eating healthy needs to be a priority and my husband and his 'junk' does not help. I need to find more healthy meal and snack ideas so I can not only begin tranforming my eating habits, but my family's as well. This will take time, but maybe finding a few recipes a week and making them will help build new go-to meal and snack ideas. Set aside time to find new recipes.
Mistakes I have been making are easy to pinpoint. Not enough exercise, energy, time and not being careful in my eating habits. Letting myself slip and then not returning to my original mindset of 'I will do this'.
Involving other people in order to help me with my program mainly involves online support because there isn't anyone in real life that I can do this with. I could reiterate to my family that I am trying to eat healthier and to give me the time I need to exercise. I;ve done it in the past, so I should be able to do this again (at least for the 1st 10 lbs I need to shed!)
The BLC Teal Troopers team is my place to go for motivation and support and I would like to give that to the team in return. Sometimes it is hard to find the time to catch up on the team posts and therefor I tend to feel bad posting because I do not have the time to follow along fully, but I do try. Everyone has different circumstances and I need to connect with someone whose circumstances are closest to my own I guess.
What it comes down to for me is better planning and trying to find the energy/motivation from within to keep a momentum going. Change is not going to happen unless I make the changes I need to. My priorities need to be straightened out and then I need to go from there. Only I can do this, no one else. It's time to buck up and stop being so easy on myself. I have not been doing my best and I need to for my health and to achieve my goals.
This is something I have been wanting for a long time now and I need to start the changes ASAP.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
It is a dreary, dark and rainy day here in Eastern PA. I've had a difficult time getting motivated to do anything today. My eating habits have not been good and I feel tired. I am fed up with all the 'uns' in my life: unhappy, unfit, unflattering, unable, unacceptable, unaccountable, unachieved, unadaptable, unappealing, uncomplimentary, unattainable, uncertain, unchangeable, unimproved.
I need turn those un's around to read: happy, fit, flattering, able, acceptable, accountable, achieved, adaptable, appealing, complimentary, attainable, certain, changeable, and improved.
Lately I haven't had the motivation or energy to get back into my exercise routine like I have wanted to. I'm going into Week 4 of the BLC19 and I know tomorrow mornings weigh-in there will definitely be a gain on the scale. I am angry with myself. I need to dig deep inside me and find the willpower and motivation that kicked me into gear last year when I lost 10 lbs. Change. I have to change. My bad eating habits, my lack of sleep, my lack of a firm schedule around the house and my lack of planning.
Although I am tired today and just wanted to lay in bed and read a book, I forced myself to get on the elliptical for 30 minutes. I still feel tired, but am glad I did some exercise. My entire family was sick and my 5 year old is just getting over it today. I'm just hoping this tiredness isn't a sign of me coming down with the sinus/cold/coughing everyone else in my house has had.
This post is kind of a downer.....I know, believe me. I like to post positive, encouraging things. But today I just felt the need to get the negativity out so I can focus on the positive and move on. I hate that I know what I need to do, but don't do it. I'm more than frustrated with myself. So here's to starting week 4 of BLC19 and making the remaining weeks much more prosperous than the 1st 3 weeks have been for me. Looking forward.....
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