I am so excited to be able to hold each of my children today--yes, they are all grown--but when I hold them they are mine again--if only for a brief moment--the world stands still until I must give them back to the adult world.
My promiseto myself this day is to not eat more than a cup of stuff total at each place.
I am proud to say that I kept my last promise to myself not to eat what would make me sick for 3 day----YES I MADE IT AT MIDNIGHT!!
Maybe that is why I am so wide awake too???? A promise made to myself and kept--I feel sooooo good about that and I lost that other 2 pounds that make up the 5 that I had gained.
I am trying the drying out things
I walked today and noticed how light my pocket was without the phone
couldn't call and tell that I was going to be late for the Costco walk--bummer
Walked for a half hour it was cold and the bridge had ice on it--kinda like snow.
Weighed in at TOPS I lost the 2 pounds--so now I have lost the 5 I had gained.
That certainly brightened my day.
I decided to put off the block work--too cold and I was not going to chance becoming immobile this time of year--I want to enjoy the Holidays!!
I also am learning that I do not deserve orhave to hurt -- go figure.
I am fine just how I am.
I am so looking forward to seeing my four children on Thursday---I will have to do a lot of driving to see them in one day---but it will be worth it. Holidays without them are not really fun. I wish --I wish but reality is that it will never be the same again.
That's got to be ok--it is not bad--it is just different.
I have never liked a liar. I realize now that I have been a liar when I make promises to myself and don't keep them. I will bend over backwards to keep a promise to others Yet I think nothing of breaking them to myself.
I deserve to trust myself and I will keep this promise:
Liquids for the next 3 days---
Atkins Chocolate and fruit and veggie juice.
I will feel better--when Wednesday night comes I will buy myself something with my spark points as a reward---After all I deserve something special.
Also when I reach that goal I have another for Thanksgiving---going several places
I vow to eat no more than a cup of total at each place. Mostly all the clean veggies.
I will taste with tsp if really want too.
Sweets are not my thing--yet when I get edgy because there is nothing to do and all that is going on is boring I eat-- it is my place to take care of myself--myself is my best friend -always there for me and I do not want to feel that I let her down again--she deserves more.
Friday after reaching that goal I will look at myself in the mirror and say thank you to myself, and I will use Spark Points to buy something bright and fun!!